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[guhit-ni-kahel]

dec 14. imposter syndrome.

i first felt this after i quit my work almost 3 months ago. at that time, i thought i was just anxious over being unemployed. months later, i still feel incompetent. it felt like all these years i was lucky i got hired the first time i applied. i tried and grabbed the opportunity the moment it presented itself to me. i was happy but suddenly felt like i lost myself in the process. then i got opportunities of being promoted, but then that was not it. it was all dumb luck. 

i can’t even look back at my years long experience and see it as an achievement. why? 

now that i’ve acknowledged it, i am working on it. there are days where i am confident, there are some where i am not. baby steps.

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dec 9. i am back :’) lasted for 2 days then suddenly *poof* no art?! haha *looks at my previous post* THAT WAS A MONTH AGO?! that was such a huge break, i really can’t understand myself sometimes lol 

okay, i might not be able to commit to this daily art thing. the important thing is i’m back!!

took me a few days to finish this as i only draw before i sleep! but here’s little chuntaro from demon slayer! i can now finally say that i’m watching kimetsu no yaiba lol (are you proud of me, boss?)

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nov 10. i’m back! yes! hooray for not quitting on the second day lol

today’s doodles are my favorite animal crossing characters - ketchup & tangy! 🍅🍊

ketchup is one of my first two villagers, never let her go. meanwhile, tangy has been my dream villager. she was gifted to me by my bestfriend, so glad to have her on my island now 🫶🏼

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nov 9. i’m back! hopefully. for good. haha! 

my dongle arrived today so i can finally use my tablet on my new laptop. FINALLY!

i want to try digital art again. so baby steps!

i present to u today’s derpy drawings. gengrr, jigglypfft and ofc, a self-portrait!