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[haikgee]

I’m not okay

I say I’m fine when you ask

But inside there’s a voice screaming

One that is locked in a cage

Stripped of sound

In a barren wasteland of repressed emotions

I’m not okay

I wake up and fight with myself

To find the will to do something, anything

I get anxious when having to step out the front door and face life

Like I might get hurt

Like I might get lost

I’m not okay

I struggle with forcing myself to have fun

I can’t find my confidence

I don’t know who I am

But I stay true to myself, whoever that may be

I’m not okay

I don’t eat or sleep well

I’ve drowned my sorrow in drugs and sex

Hoping to find myself amidst the euphoria

I understand the world around me

But have no fucking clue who I am

And it irks me that I can’t stick to a schedule

I hate myself for having to think and rethink every insignificant thing

I’m not okay

I’m wishing for an ear to hear me

But I don’t want to speak to it

What the fuck is it all for anyway?

All I know is, I’m not okay

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C L A S S . . . . . #photoshoot #portfolio #instagood #smart #inked #tattoo #piercings #curls #slimtie #zoetermeer #empiremodels

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Gains #progress #fitness #gym #muscles #abs #tattoo #piercings #selfie #goals

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Winter is here #winterseason #cold #jacket #blonde #piercings #blackandwhite #studentlife #Eindhoven (at Eindhoven, Noord-Brabant)

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New day. New beginning. New experiences. New stories. New purpose.

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The monsters are us. #rebelsthroughanimation #rebeldancers #popping #scoobydoo #dance #piercings #tattoo #blonde (at Theatro Latsiwn)

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Not trying to show off or anything #tattoo #new #ink #dotwork #skull #geometric #flash #blonde #piercings #septum #instapic #instalike #black

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When you look for them angles/faces #selfie #video #snapchat #snap #highlights #instavideo

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Light and darkness #photography #shadow #light #abs #fitness #spotlight #topless

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Joining the #inksquad #tattoo #kanji #japanese #inked

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Just me being me. Also #tumblr #grunge #edgyaf #piercings #pedostache #reptilianarmy #emocunt #thesehashtagsare #dank #killme

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Playing with shadows #photography #light #shadow #muscles #shaved #silhouette

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Just some trees. #Limassol #fasouri #waterpark #summer #summer2016 #cyprus #treetunnel

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Hey there #totallynotawkward #selfie #piercings #morning #red

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Sunset. On a boat. #ayianapa #summer #beach #sea #figtreebay #cyprus #holiday #sunset #waves

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Meditating underwater. For like 20 seconds tops cuz I had to empty my lungs in order to sink to the bottom. But you get the point #deepshit #pool #summer #napa #ayianapa #meditation #underwater

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Toilets are just another photo shoot location #toilet #burgerking #larnaca #abs #freethenipple #joker