hanniteana

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if i ever laugh or smile randomly no i do not have a crush i am just thinking of my most favorite meme ever

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hi twin im a egg twin ❤️

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something absolutely Devastating needs to happen to me so bad that it bypasses whatever kind of physical emotional or mental barriers that were preventing me from doing the things i want so i can just enter a flow state of Creation

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i think it's just midnight

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i think to myself "my time was not 'wasted' on video games because i was still having fun!" but if someone were to ask me "were you really happy playing video games and staring at the same videos, graphics, and posts on your screen all day?" then my honest answer would be "i would've preferred to spend it writing."

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HOLY SHIT JUST REALIZED i basically responded to this a whole month later. sorry to myself lol ive just been Gayming ...... ill lock in at some point ............ (i think im jinxing it) (i just bought needy streamer overdose and persona 4 golden)

some stuff. goals, if you will

feeling the urge to kinda just post some of my goals for this break out somewhere into the world. so

submit to some kind of literary publishing. those guaranteed publishing ones

finish some prose (oneshots?) (two, but im not gonna force the second one)

write poems youre happy with (two)

write a script/full fledged story (one)

other goals include studying for my upcoming upcat (huhu it's really scary) and studying more code.

so far in terms of writing, studying, and coding, i am NOT doing anything worthwhile yet lol i havent been productive at all. hope to change things sometime soon ..... but it's late right now and ive been sleeping very late and waking up also very late so it's hampering my productivity so lol. will have to rectify that

idk. me talking about my goals kinda never really goes right, but this is the first time ive actually like Thought things through and actually Wanted to do something worthwhile for myself and to make myself happier. so. hope at least Some things change !

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didn't do any of this, but i still got a win which is consistently writing at least Once each period of time i was awake (i can't say consistently writing everyday because sometimes i write at 1-4am and address it as the previous day's work to fill my daily quota ["just write something. anything each day. at the Very least one paragraph that is at least five sentences long."]. still consistent. but yes lol) after quite literally five or six years of being in a slump

i think over the past five years at least especially in 2020-2022 there Were periods where i did write, but i remember i just wasnt Happy during those times. and while im disappointed i didnt do any of those four goals, i still got a win which is consistently writing again for just Not Feeling It for many years

i can be as disappointed as i want to be but i won't let it diminish the fact that i Have been doing something.

this consistency has been around since april and it is almost july. that's at least two whole months of me writing consistently. it doesn't matter if i didn't polish Any of the things ive written so far, at least i wrote them ! and i've done way more in these two months than i ever have in 2019-2022 probably lol. concocted way more ideas too and i even have a backlog, some originals and a lot being fics

senior year's 100% gonna kick my ass but uh heyyyyy i was kicking even before that. so w ho knows ! maybe i'll get some stuff done before it starts in two weeks !

i'm also planning to join the writing club for this final year ! which does mean i kinda have to polish some of my work for my application for it lol. which is going to be my main goal for now because trying to do an Actual piece of writing is very very scary and i guess i'm scaring myself so much i won't even do it. but i'm gonna take this opportunity. it's honestly a shame i didn't join the last year, but at least i'm taking the initiative to actually do it this year ! plus an acquaintance said they had to submit something on theme every month so like. it's going to force me to actually put in more work lol. which is going to be good. might be rough with all my requirements and my organization work, but i guess this is all development. pretty excited ! kinda.

i never do stuff i say. the stuff i end up doing are always the things i just decide on a whim and just do silently. so this might be a bust like most things lol but whatever. i guess i'm writing this more as an encouragement to myself

some stuff. goals, if you will

feeling the urge to kinda just post some of my goals for this break out somewhere into the world. so

submit to some kind of literary publishing. those guaranteed publishing ones

finish some prose (oneshots?) (two, but im not gonna force the second one)

write poems youre happy with (two)

write a script/full fledged story (one)

other goals include studying for my upcoming upcat (huhu it's really scary) and studying more code.

so far in terms of writing, studying, and coding, i am NOT doing anything worthwhile yet lol i havent been productive at all. hope to change things sometime soon ..... but it's late right now and ive been sleeping very late and waking up also very late so it's hampering my productivity so lol. will have to rectify that

idk. me talking about my goals kinda never really goes right, but this is the first time ive actually like Thought things through and actually Wanted to do something worthwhile for myself and to make myself happier. so. hope at least Some things change !

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hum i said i was more of an originals writer even though so many of my recent writings have been based on songs ... so lol. i'm more of a song fic writer than anything i guess

going to put my writing playlist here ! this is not a playlist of music that helps me write, but rather all the music that has inspired me and given me ideas ! after making the initial playlist, most updates from here on out Might be real time, and i think that kind of little tracking would be cool !

i have plans to write something based off of a whole instrumental album too. so that should be fun ! but who knows when it'll be actualized lol

moar writing

another tidbit, i think the first fanfic i ever tried to write was of iirc ramuda/gentaro from hypmic. long after that, the next one is of therapy with dr. albert krueger because i just wanted taylor and albert to become friends lol

the twdak one is the one that im inclined to finish; i havent been into hypmic at all for some years now but i like some characters (ichiro, nemu, rosho, hifumi, doppo)

i'm more of an originals writer though because for some reason writing fanfic just feels sso... awkward ? for me. and i'm also terrified of not being able to capture the characters' speech habits properly. but i know id have to do that to get better at it so lol. i shall try

i have a bunch of arknights writing ideas though ! i even want to write a fic for this interaction in is5 :] some elythorns stuff, and some logos stuff too so yeah !

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bisexuals get the whole of pride month and not just half of it bc we're still fully queer stop being annoying about it ok bye

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xxxholic

dude ...... i had been waiting for new xxxholic: rei chapters since last year when i reread through the whole series in july. i thought clamp would take longer to come back so i hadnt followed any accounts yet ....... i found out at 2am last night the sequel has like 59/60 chapters now 😭😭 brother i had been waiting since the hiatus at chapter 4 and they released more under my nose omfg

i was genuinely so shocked because it feels like not much time had passed, but i actually felt that way because the last school year just Beat Me Up so much that im no longer able to process time correctly. i hadnt touched a manga since july after reading what was done of rei but i hadnt realized that lol it Felt like the last time i ever dealt with manga was a couple months ago, when i had never touched one for the entirety of the last academic year that started in august lol

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moar writing

another tidbit, i think the first fanfic i ever tried to write was of iirc ramuda/gentaro from hypmic. long after that, the next one is of therapy with dr. albert krueger because i just wanted taylor and albert to become friends lol

the twdak one is the one that im inclined to finish; i havent been into hypmic at all for some years now but i like some characters (ichiro, nemu, rosho, hifumi, doppo)

i'm more of an originals writer though because for some reason writing fanfic just feels sso... awkward ? for me. and i'm also terrified of not being able to capture the characters' speech habits properly. but i know id have to do that to get better at it so lol. i shall try

i have a bunch of arknights writing ideas though ! i even want to write a fic for this interaction in is5 :] some elythorns stuff, and some logos stuff too so yeah !

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fic idea

ill come on here and say a little something every once in a while teehee

im an arknights fan and have had the game and my account for five years now and one of my ideas for things i want to write is something that details this philosophy of shu's

our final paper for philosophy class was quite literally a "philosophy of life" wherein we had to write down and expound on our very own philosophy of life, and it could be about any topic. i got a very good score at that, surprisingly, so i feel like this could be fun !!!!

we'll just have to see now when i will actually get around to going through my writing backlog. it might take five years i'm sorry 😔😔

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hum maybe ill just be here if i get sick of my twitter lol plus i like the style of posting here hehes

maybe ill just stay here and take up post during pride month because i know that site's gonna be up in flames then and i never scroll here anyway so lol

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some stuff. goals, if you will

feeling the urge to kinda just post some of my goals for this break out somewhere into the world. so

submit to some kind of literary publishing. those guaranteed publishing ones

finish some prose (oneshots?) (two, but im not gonna force the second one)

write poems youre happy with (two)

write a script/full fledged story (one)

other goals include studying for my upcoming upcat (huhu it's really scary) and studying more code.

so far in terms of writing, studying, and coding, i am NOT doing anything worthwhile yet lol i havent been productive at all. hope to change things sometime soon ..... but it's late right now and ive been sleeping very late and waking up also very late so it's hampering my productivity so lol. will have to rectify that

idk. me talking about my goals kinda never really goes right, but this is the first time ive actually like Thought things through and actually Wanted to do something worthwhile for myself and to make myself happier. so. hope at least Some things change !

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