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is it ok to use ur art as my pfp👀 I love ur art and I wanna set it as my pfp but I don’t wanna ignore any like. Boundaries,,,I’d be happy to credit u if you wanted that too

it's all good, you don't rly have to credit me either

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Idk if you’ve read gangstas yes but amechu / chiame is practically canon in it like it’s insane 😭 China calls him brat and shit and they’re constantly eye fucking it’s so hot and their size difference is so yummy

YES I HAVE LMFAO what actually interested me while reading gangstalia was the chiame Bullshit himaruya was putting in(besides looking for anything to fuel my agenda)

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you might think that caname doesn't make sense. that there's no way canada could top america because canada is a little bitch. but the map says it's true so what can we do about it, really?

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if nobody locks in to chiame i'll have to make my first porn doujin to be chiame instead of caname

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hey america can you hear me?

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nichu tan gives me child of divorce vibes and or neglect, like how ukus gives Tumblr sexyman aura, it's like that but the opposite.

I'm saying this in the best way possible lol

this is funny. i think nichutan is worse than that but i don't think shiptalias have "childhoods" they just act like that. the opposite of a tumblr sexyman... problematic fave... maybe

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Hetalia "The Comet"

Characters: England, France

Pages: 12

Translator: losthitsu

Vibes: cute, wholesome

Summary: A comet approaches, England says the stars are too loud because of it

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something in the wayyy

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Big papi nerf please draw more rusame! I want more rusame!

rusametan. is currently. in jail.

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do you think in the darkest or most intense moments of mindfucking ame could ever think of himself as an extension of cana instead of cana as an extension of himself. Well not seriously Think it but more dream about it a little. like he didn’t have to be the one to hold the metaphorical metaphysical fort down for once, and he could imagine Cana doing it instead so he could just be nothing instead (<- nothing as in how he perceives Cana as nothing, like take his place instead of having to be the Something.) you think he ever yearns for it just a little bit. Of course he wakes up from it a moment later all “wow what was that 😂😂” but no matter how hard he denies it, for a moment it was a Serious Longing and he’s never going to come to terms with that 🙂

hold... i think this idea is seen a lot in old fics, kind of. i don't know how to explain. i think the ame fujos of decades past wanted to weaken ame or explore a weakened ame(I Relate!) hence a lot of the plots of america being broken down and usually having to rely on cana. when he doesn't want to be "strong" anymore so cana can take his burdens... it's kind of amazing the consistency of it. i see it in some doujins too, the idea that ame can fall and cana will catch him. the concept of it... How princely..... How oujisama of cana...

i'm trying hard to imagine the different ame states of minds if this is ever a thing in my rendition of ame. i don't know because i don't really get how he thinks i'm just guessing bullshit. i think, like most things ever, maybe but it'd be really repressed and layered over. i think he thinks cana has it easier for sure, being "nothing" like u described. but i think ame is an animal of habits and he likes his habits... if he were forced to be a different way he'd freak out. i feel like the thought would make him more anxious? like Um... what is happening... what are you doing... what a disturbing dream... he is very prideful of his Independence. i think he often feels really certain that while other people are useful, he could easily discard them if it came down to it. and he likes that feeling. so if he was in a situation where that wasn't the case, or he thought about a situation like that, i think he'd be a little disturbed

but this is where i go back to saying i don't knowwww because ame gets disturbed by a lot of things that would also feel good to him. or some unexplainable feelings Eeekyaaa!!! maybe deep in that disturbance he's also like ahhh i am bullshit right now. it'd be good to be bullshit. i guess my idea of him is that the place he's in right now, he sees it as something he built by himself. in his mind he is where he is because he's a supertalent chosen child most beloved by God. it kind of contradicts that if he'd actually just want to do nothing and be some guy...

though ame always has plenty room for contradictions in his mind. maybe in some moments he sees cana and his stupid bear and thinks, He just sits around with his bear all day... i would have a bigger bear... if we were swapped places he would fail at being me so much, but i would be really good at whatever it is he does. however in the end i think if he were born a normal human he would still be ambitious and. i don't know. crazy. like this. 🤷‍♂️ to me there is no world for a "chill" ame... to me he is defined by his genki...

and also since you mentioned it, i think this is possible with enough mindfucking. let's get to work! (messing with his computer codes) he can be made to be fine with being nothing, probably 🙋‍♂️🙋‍♂️🙋‍♂️

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rule britannia!

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Canada’s idea of America has his ahoge like Canadas ?!?! sorry losing my mind over them rn

it's ok 👍 the idea with that drawing was the "canadas" in canada's head manifests different "personalities" he tries to be or tries to solidify(? in his head. and he is ame observer forever so i think he would think up an ame!cana. imagine something like yumi's cells, and one of the cells is an ame cell. because he thinks about ame a lot. but it's still cana's cells. so it's cana. it's ame!cana

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ｉ love ur art and shiptalia is really cute,ｉ wonder why nichu tan’ nose always bleeding

thank you ☺️ i think, from personal observation, a lot of people are scared of nichu-tan. or at least kind of disturbed by him. but it's different from how they talk about other "problematic" ships, i guess... for nichu tan it feels more like people are put off by nichu-tan but don't really wanna talk about the Whys so they just try to not bring him up. i might be wrong now i don't really observe the hetalia fandom that well anymore 😓 i don't know how but this translates to his perpetual nosebleeding! so he always has a nosebleed

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tumblr can't handle the sheer amount of bs i draw i have to be limited

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what is shiptalia

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any thoughts about ame internal monologue (and possibly the reality of his personality) according to your interpretation 🎤

Like, how you interpret how he views himself and whatnot. I kinda adore the manic pixie dream boy obsessive weirdo thing people have been doing with him recently it makes me laugh. carefree at the surface level but deep down has a 50 step skincare routine and practices smiling in the mirror for half an hour every day like an obsessive freak. But your ame comes across as a little more fake and a little more… ‘cut throat’ is the wrong phrase but it’s all I can think of rn to describe it. Vindictive? Evil?? And more normie toxic masculinity (LMFAO). Would love to hear your thoughts!!

Always very intrigued by people’s thoughts and interpretations on ame in general. I see a lot of people go very hard into self loathing and others go very hard into narcissistic self love, and some that fall in the middle yet all are wildly different from each other. Idk he’s a very polarizing character I’ve come to find!! I’m very curious about it.

thank you for this detailed ask and also i've been thinking about the differences of my ame characterization to other people. you're right he IS so polarizing... compared to like cana who i think stays pretty consistent everything depends on how you read ame...

it's funny you mention that because i do get the manic pixie obsessive 100step skincare routine smile practicing freak ame. like i really do ngl i think he does that shit every morning i think he does practice his smile. in older ame bible posts i'd probably mention that a couple times...

but with what you said... i guess i do make him more vindictive?! i thought i was just reading other people wrong idk i felt crazy like hmm maybe my ame is too hateful of everyone... maybe he's not supposed to be hateful of everyone... but that's always how i end up drawing him. i think he is normie toxic masculinity to me this is always part of his character. it's great that you take this actually it means i've been feminizing him for my own enjoyment less

i guess a part of it is one of my base "ideas" of ame is he always talks down on other people. expecting them to fall in line with him and that no matter what they do it should be of no concern to him because he will continue being "above them". that kind of mindset, in the event something changes beyond his control and someone actually disobeys his view of the world, i can't imagine he wouldn't behave vindictive and evil? so the hate is already under his skin before something like that even happens. like prepared ammo if that makes sense... to me he's kind of paranoiac eager to crush any possible "threats" to him. he's alert to anything that could turn into "betrayal" so he never actually trusts anyone. which means love is dead Okay Sorry everyone LOVE IS DEAD 😵

but i guess "trust" here is weird if someone never gives him a reason to doubt that they like their place then he won't think twice about it. and like. he's busy. so in a way he does have people/nations he "trusts". i'm saying it's not that hard either to slam his head if he's distracted. he's mindfucking everyone but he is also mindfucked. i think he's incapable of love(??? or it's really a fucked sideways version of love that he doesn't really see as love. he's Not problematic aroace headcanon because he's also incapable of platonic love, okay? people are things or tools or trophies to him

all this to keep in mind that his friendly loud usual self is still kind of part of it all. idk. it's not like a total mask that he takes off to be evil he is evil while behaving like that like he is condescending and cruel while being. golden retriever boyfriend or whatever. and mainly he's like that because he knows he can get away with it. Numba One Hero 😂😂😂 he's like. usually such a boy. like What are you gonna do about it??😂 You're mad😂 You're mad😂 but also he's a girl. but he's a car. but he's a computer. and maybe even a horse. OKAY?

following this i probably lean into the more self-absorbed narcissist interpretation than self-loathing. but some people could argue that beneath narcissism is always self-loathing... maybe true! but i think people have a really template view of self-loathing that i don't think works with ame that much. i think in the end he really does only love himself 🤷‍♂️

also i think he has a very set idea on how reality SHOULD be(im HERO!I AM HERO!)(what this reality is in his head is malleable though)(does anyone remember the mind reset cycle i talked about of my HeadCanon of his mental state.) when that reality doesn't line up with reality it causes him to freak out. also there's a lot of things that really repulse him normie toxic masculinity style like a genuine gut disgust response for him. vulnerability is usually that. he hates england and canada. no he doesn't. he... loves them? they mindfucked him. Now THIS is true Love LOVE ISN'T DEAD

in the ace/ukuscan Whatever triangle england and cana get to be where they are because they dug screwdrivers into ame's head and ame can't escape them and he's not even really mad about it because he doesn't realize they dug screwdrivers into his head(⬅️has no brain)

he acts like he dgaf but his head has been forcibly altered to gaf. which is a tsundere moment Okay Bye