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Workouts You Can Do In Bed

To Get Rid Of The “Are You Pregnant?” Belly :

20 crunches

35 sit ups

10 full body crunches

50 crisscrosses

10 wide leg cross sit ups

20 leg raises

To Get Rid Of The Jello Like Thighs :

100 pillow squeezes

30 side leg lifts (Each side)

To Get That Bubble Butt :

40 butt bridges

25 lying kick backs (Each side)

50 clam lifts (Each side)

20 forward kicks (Each side)

30 knee tucks (Each side)

There is literally no reason why you shouldn’t be doing these workouts ESPECIALLY if you’re in bed. You can do this! You reach that UGW

Made by: ThisIsAnaMyFriend

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This is everything i want in such a literal way it scares me

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And guess what i'm motivated as fuck i don't care if it's sad

OKAY

YESTERDAY I WAS HAVING SeX AND I HEARD

YoU GoT ThInNeR YES IT HAPPENED I CAN'T BELIEVE IT

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OKAY

YESTERDAY I WAS HAVING SeX AND I HEARD

YoU GoT ThInNeR YES IT HAPPENED I CAN'T BELIEVE IT

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BINGE WALK OF SHAME!!!!!

E eu vou escrever em português pra ficar ainda mais claro quando eu voltar e ler isso. Simplesmente enchi o cu de comida nada a ver desde sexta-feira passada (hoje é terça) então, foram 4 dias de PURA PUTARIA olha sinceramente, eu não sei mais o que fazer comigo. Vou escrever tudo aqui pra essa porquice não ser relativizada.

Macarrão (2 pratos de macarrão do Outback)

Bolo de cenoura com chocolate

Bolo de chocolate

Doce de leite

Paçoca

Pão com calabresa

Chocolate

E simplesmente não me exercitei durante todos esses 4 dias, como se não bastasse kk

Resultados: Fui correr hoje e na segunda volta parecia que eu estava morrendo, me sinto um lixo por ter me entupido de porcaria, me sinto menos leve, fiquei com gases. E VOCÊ SABE QUE É EXATAMENTE ASSIM QUE VOCÊ FICA, POR QUE VOCÊ FAZ TUDO DE NOVO? E todo esse ciclo começou exatamente no dia 14 de maio, o gatilho foi a porra do aniversário da ****, a questão é POR QUE você deixa isso te afetar tanto?? Foi isso, foi a franja da outra, foi a menina do Instagram... Nenhuma dessas pessoas vai consertar o estrago pra você. Nem elas e nem ninguém. No fim das contas é você por exclusivamente você mesma. Outra consequência é que sua mãe achou todos os papéis de paçoca que você deixou pra trás, e te chamou de mentirosa. Eu não acho que seja esse tipo de pessoa que você queira ser, sinceramente. E isso nem é mais sobre peso.

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Today is the day 2 of my second week of this new attempt. I binged a little bit on little things like a little bit less than a handful of chocolate crisps, but nothing big and harmful, this makes me happy. And i've been exercising ALL these days, not a single skip. The only thing that i'm not doing like i wanted to is drinking water, i'm so bad at drinking water for some reason, but working on it. Yesterday i weighed myself and i'm 65kg, wich is waaay less that i thought (i'm probably 1,65m, i don't remember well) Still, it's a little bit frustrating that the results that i want won't come easily. It's ridiculous how gaining weight is so fucking easy and losing it feels like HELL most of the time. I wish i could just think about something else, and sometimes i think that i will only be able to do it when i see results. Any results would make me less obsessed about thinking, and more focused on just doing.

Anyway, yesterday i just ate scrambled eggs with chayote and carrot at lunch, and 3AM i was awake and SO HUNGRY, then i ate less than 100g of light yogurt, and that was it. Today i had cress with chicken and a little bit of potatoes and one persimmon after that. Not planning on eating again today.

Everytime i look in the mirror i get sad to see the fat that's still on my back, arms, lower belly and legs. I don't even know if i'm fat anymore, but i can see those things and it makes me so sad, this time i swear i won't stop till i get exactly what i want.

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slightly unconventional thinspo

Because I’m a lil tired of the typical “I want a guy to notice me”… I just want something real 

When you’re thin:

~you will feel your shoulder blades trying to slice through your back like bony little wings

~your under eye circles will become magnificent, like watercolour pools showing your dedication to this skinny hell

~your waist will be so tiny, everyone will have to wrap their arms around up to the elbows to hug you

~your bony knees knock together when you sit in your seat in the classroom, it’s a little uncomfortable but your thighs are so far apart it’s like they’re estranged sisters at thanksgiving dinner 

~you’re so lightheaded, that you see stars all the time- your world has turned into a fucked up planetarium 

~those collar bones don’t just “hold water”- they cut glass. They are clavicles some people would die for 

~the boniness of your fingers feel so good clasped in the hand of another, like a string of pearls wrapped in silk

~you stay home instead of eating out with your friends- it’s bittersweet. You draw pictures of food instead, you work out, or drink tea. 

~people will be a little scared or worried around you. You won’t mean to- but your body is too fluttery for them not to feel a little unnerved

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So, today was day 5 of my... new attempt (??)

And i'm doing well, i can say i'm proud. I've been exercising all these days, i'm pushing myself as hard as i can, and surprisingly i'm not binging at all. Today it almost happened tho, i am in my period and i felt like this INSANE urge for sugar. I stared at a brownie for like 5min, smelled it, holded it for as long as i could thinking if i really wanted to eat that, because deep down i knew that if i did, it would take me just 3 seconds to swallow the whole thing and not even feel the taste of it. This is a level of self control that i hadn't experienced in like, years ???? i don't remember the last time i was so in charge of my cravings, and this makes me confident that this time i'll achieve exactly what i've been wanting to.

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I've been trying to get into a routine of exercising and eating well for the past weeks, been pretty good with the exercising part, not that good with the eating, i binged a lot last week.

Since 06/05 i've been doing so so so well (for the past 2 days actually, it's not that much but i was trying for a whole week) and my motivation to start is that my 20th birthday is exactly next month

I'm going to use here as a diary, to see how far i can go this time, i'm actually hopeful