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Date a demisexual person who writes poetry

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after all, i was never  yours and  you were  never mine  to keep. we're just two lovers  who took a sip, a sip of poison that sent our  souls to mourn and weep.

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Gusto ko sabihin sayo “Dito ka nalang, dito sa’kin”

Pero sino nga ba ako para ika’y angkinin. 

Gusto ko ring magmakaawa na “Ako, ako nalang sana”

Pero sino nga ba ako sa kanya? 

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Don’t get me wrong, sex is great, but I would rather spend the night learning everything about you and hearing every story you have. To me, that’s far more intimate.

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please call me. please. 

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exactly.

i'm just a sad girl with a dirty mind..

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i find this funny, im fucking weird

all I want is a boy to hold me and call me beautiful and play with my hair and go on late night drives with me. I want a boy to go to carnivals with and movies with and someone I take can naps with my head on his chest. I wanna be able to go on dates where he can’t stop smiling because of how pretty he thinks I am and stuff but then when we get home I want him to shove me against a wall and wrap his hand around my neck while telling me what a fucking whore I am. I want him to turn me around and slap my ass, then grab it so hard that he can see my pussy spreading. I want him to ask me who’s ass it is, and then when I tell him it’s mine I want him to force me on my knees and gag me with his cock because good girls know that it’s always daddy’s ass.

yanno. casual things.

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it’s so fucking fucked up on how i told myself to just chill for awhile, we could cry later.

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random.

Today is an another episode of my so fucked up self. Emotionally unstable ako ngayon sobra. Kanina lang, tumatawa ako sa pagkwekwento, Tas eto ako ngayon ganto. Naiyak ng walang siguradong rason. It’s tiring, So fucking tiring. Kung kailan kailangan ko ng concentration, here I am. Plus you, i want to hug you talk to you and hear your voice, gusto kong kumalma. I want to talk to you. But I don’t want to be a burden sayo and exam mo pa naman, Ayokong gawin kang comforter ko, plus lalo lang akong nalulungkot pag yung taong gustong yumakap sakin in my days like this ay wala sa tabi ko. I love you.

So ayun, nagmessage ka na. Shet ikaw lang nakakapagpakalma saken tangina. Tangina. Normal lang ako sayo, I dont want you to see this fucked up side of me. Shet bad day ka den, bat ba? Sana malapit ka lang, sana, Tumigil na ako sa kakaiyak, your presence makes it all calm the fuck down. Some days, I daydream of us as conventional couples, yung walang distansya; andito ka, andito ako. Yung tipong malapit ka lang. Gusto ko kita kwentuhan ng araw ko, kwentuhan mo ako ng araw mo. I want to kiss you everyday. But we’re far, and that’s okay. 

Nothing worth it comes easy. Worth it ka. You’re my worth it.

I want to fucking hear your voice, damn. I am so so so fucking fucked up today, anglungkot ko so naisipan kong basahin yung mga messages mo na pagkahaba haba na iniscreenshot ko. Tangina, natatawa at naiiyak ako. Tiningnan ko yung mga pictures naten, lalo kitang namiss shet. I just got sadder, ayun fuck. Overthinking. My dear fucked up old friend.

I wonder if your feelings before are us strong as they are now?

Mahal mo ba talaga ako o mahal mo ako kasi ako lang yung choice mo?

Nagsasawa ka na ba saken?

I want to fucking hear your voice, tangina.  Ayoko ng umiyak.

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i’m feeling down today; i miss you. please please please call me 

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Have you ever fell so hard for someone that when you realized it it made you say something like : 

“Putangina. Shet. Tanginaaaaa. Mahal na mahal ko na to”

—  Me upon realizing that I love you, tagos hanggang puso’t kaluluwa. I may have all the right words with my poetry and musings, but I’m so fucking overwhelmed with the feeling (so sorry for the words) when I know down down down deep down na tinamaan na ako. 

It’s more than just “lagi kitang naiisip”, “I miss you”, “I love you” or all those sweet words. It’s about you; yung bigla nalang kitang minahal ng di ko alam bakit at papaano pero mahal kita. You made me feel really loved for the first time, di naman ikaw yung una pero bat ganto? 

I’ve never been this so fucking contented.

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yayakapin kita na parang hindi na ulit tayo magkikita tititigan ang iyong mukha  kahit ito’y saulado ko na hihigpitan ang kapit  sa iyong mga kamay bumitaw man ang mundo,  ako’y di mangangalay

dahil mahal, matagal na akong sumuko  sa sarili ko at sa mundo pero paulit ulit man akong mapagod kailanma’y hindi sa iyo

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Do you know what makes the world beautiful? The chaos in it. The chaos in our hearts and the chaos in our souls, making us create masterpieces with no trace of our broken selves; masterpieces like fake smiles to get you through the day, the sound of your unheard cry at the middle of the night; your shattered soul covered by your skin and bones; your perfectly imperfect self. And of course, the chaos of love; it completes your puzzles yet it could also break you the most. Love is when one individual can be both your day and night — your joy and sadness. Love? The right one could fill your soul, and the wrong one could take away the life in it.

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