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Late Night Gathering

Yesterday I got off work in the morning and slept a long time. I woke up at nearly 7pm. I had just enough time to eat dinner and get some gym time in. I don’t think my workout was very intense but at least I did something. I decided to start downloading FFXIV again because I figure that would be a good way to save money here. I won’t go out spending all I have if I’m in my room gaming 😉

I…

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Shadow Demon

A man from India is sitting in the room with me. We are discussing painting and I am trying to select a video online that demonstrates how to use acrylics. I find a tutorial on how to paint a portrait and the image on the painting looks just like the Indian man next to me. The portrait shows his face silhouetted against a sunset.

I feel something rush past me and suddenly my sister Ashley…

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Stationed in Bahrain

View from the Avenues Mall, Bahrain

I’ve been in Bahrain for almost two months now. One of my friends from nuke school is stationed here and has been showing me around. It’s definitely made the transition much easier. The command here is much more strict than I am used to. It can sometimes be a little too much too handle. I definitely can’t wait to get this tour over so I can come home. I want…

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Breakup/ Dangerous Sea Life

Breakup/ Dangerous Sea Life

I’m at a hotel with a sexy dark featured man. In this dream he is my boyfriend. Unfortunately, he tells me he saw a gorgeous guy earlier at the pool and if this guy made a move on him, he would leave me without thinking twice. Of course, this pisses me off. I tell him I just realized a few things about him because of that statement and no longer want to be with him. I also say, “This time I am…

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Delerium

I am delirious. An entity seems to have possessed my body. I’m outside at night standing under a bridge with a concrete walkway that wraps itself around a stone fountain. I splash water on the ground (with a bucket?). It flows away from me around the fountain and just as quickly returns and flows back across my feet. Maniacal laughter escapes from my mouth.

A man steps out from behind a door…

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The Military is Toxic

The Military is Toxic

I never understood thirst for power over other people. I hate cockiness. I hate when people try to show off in front of others. I hate when people try to make themselves better by belittling anyone they think will let them get away with it. Rank structure in the military causes superiority complexes. Yelling at people without talking to them as a person is not conducive to good morale or a…

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And so it begins...

And so it begins…

So I went ahead and did it. I made my own website. One in which I can create and manage all of my own content. I’m very excited as it’s something I always wanted to do. Anyway, let’s get the boring part over and start with who I am…

My name is Nick. I’m a pretty average guy. I’ve always been kind of weird and never really felt like I belonged anywhere. I’ve never really been “good” at…

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In the Weeds

I’m coming on here to make a post after taking a bit of a break. My life is extremely busy now. I am preparing for my impending deployment. School has started up again as well. I am finding less and less time is available to work on personal endeavors like this website.

One thing I’ve been doing since I’ve been gone is expanding my reading. I feel like my perception of reality is being warped…

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Lucid Dream #1

I just had my first lucid dream since I made it my goal to get back into it. After waking up and writing it down I feel so much excitement that I had to get on here and post it. Otherwise I know I won’t be able to get back to sleep. In order to make lucid dreaming and regular dreaming identifiable in my entries the code I will be using is italics for regular dream narrative, and bold italicsfor…

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Prometheus Rising: Exercise 1

Prometheus Rising: Exercise 1

Prometheus Rising is an interesting novel by Robert Anton Wilson. I’ve seen it listed on several occult philosophy book lists. I picked it up and liked the authors wit and sense of humor. This one is more practical in nature as there are exercises at the end of the chapters. I would really rather just read the whole book than do the exercises…but I feel like to really get the point of the ideas I…