himari-tsuki

[himari-tsuki]

"Don't let my heart be pulled

by someone who afflicts me unreasonably,

but fill my heart with mybeloved"

[himari-tsuki]

If it was going to be this painful

I find myself thinking

I never should have created this in the first place, but

That warm love that was certainly born

The feelings that even now

I feel so strongly in the depths of my heart

It’s all for real

And so,

I will not stop believing.

-

こんなに苦しいのなら

最初からつくらなければよかったと

悲しむこともあるけれど、でも

確かに生まれたあたたかな愛

今も心の奥底から強く感じている

大切だと想う感情

全部が真実だから

だから、

私は信じることをやめないよ。

[himari-tsuki]

文月

最近やることは沢山あれど

自分と上手く付き合えない期に

陥っていました。でも。そんな時、

みんなからの何気ないあたたかい言葉に

ふいに笑顔になるんです。

何度伝えても足りないけれど、

本当にいつもありがとう。

-

色んな状況は付きものです。

けれど、

ただただ心の底から想っていたことは、

こんなにあたたかい世界に

居るんだということでした。

-

泣くことも笑うことも、

感動することも挑戦することも、

許してくれてありがとう。

弱い時も受け止めてくれてありがとう。

-

「日々コツコツと発信し続けてきた」

そうした言葉が本当に嬉しかったです。

新アルバム・Isilielを

いっぱい受けとめてくれて

本当にありがとうっ。

[himari-tsuki]

July

"The time

we have to live will surely pass quickly,

and we can always escape in an instant"

-

I'm glad I was able to create a future

where I can think that way.

-

"I think your hope will win in the end.

Never let go of your hope no matter

what happens. You deserve to be happy."

I've been re-reading my screenshots often, and suddenly I read these words

and tears welled up in my eyes

with a smile on my face.

-

A song that will help you

welcome tomorrow.

-

The kind words

I receive make me want to share them

with you.

-

"Like once a week

when I feel like slacking off or giving up

on something, I legit ask myself

What Would Hima Do and push through."

You motivate me the same way.

Whenever I feel like giving up,

I can keep going by thinking

of all of you waiting for me.

-

I've been trying my best

to become stronger, but one day,

someone told me,

"I actually like people

who seem to have a hard time living."

But I still want to do my best

to become stronger.

-

There are many things

I won't know until I try.

-

Posting every day,

I receive so many messages.

Among them are negative messages

and words that I don’t think need

to be said.

Reading those every morning

gets me down and I feel relieved

when there aren't any.

But I also receive many kind words.

I treasure the warmth you send me.

-

I'm really, really happy to receive

positive messages like inspiration

and motivation for training

and polishing my body.

Many years ago I went through a period

where skin conditions meant

that I couldn't show it at all.

-

Especially during the tour,

I've been reading the screenshots

of messages I've received from everyone.

Thank you so so much

saying you're proud of me.

-

As Himari,

"love" and "It's okay" are important words

for me, but during this tour

and this new album,

"You're not alone" has become a

very pure and irreplaceable phrase for me.

-

I want to tell myself

when I first started singing,

"One day, people will tell you

they love your voice."

I never imagined the day would come

when people would love my voice

so much. Thank you for listening to

"Moonbow Rebellion" and

conveying your feelings to me.

#himaplaying

-

Thank you so much.

I have received each

and every one of them.

I believe they will bloom again

in the future.

-

The words you send live within me

and I sing.

-

I saw some sad words and

thought it was typical of my life

to see more sad words to follow.

But after that I received

so many warm words.

Thinking of how I've come

this far brought tears to my eyes

all morning.

-

It felt like watching a movie with everyone.

Thank you so much for sharing

this wonderful journey with me &

for supporting me.

see you again. pinky promise!

2025.0729

-

I want to use this English.

"woohoo!"

[himari-tsuki]

どうしようもなく生きてて痛くて辛くて愛しい

[himari-tsuki]

"Isiliel is my go-to when I'm at the end of

my emotional resilience."

"ずっとこの（髪の）長さで美しさを保つのは

本当に努力が必要だと思ってます。

その努力も全て含めて美しいです"

"I really do believe the sky is the limit

for Isiliel."

"When I feel like giving up on creating,

I remember my oshimen's dedication."

- Especially during the tour,

I've been reading the screenshots

of messages I've received from everyone.

Thank you so… so much saying

you’re proud of me.

[himari-tsuki]

The times I cry

The times I laugh

The times I'm moved

The times I try to become stronger

For always accepting me, cheering me on,

and staying by my side

Thank you so much.

[himari-tsuki]

"no matter how much negativity rush upon you,

please remember

that there are people love you"

[himari-tsuki]

久し振りに逢った友だちと会話していると、

社会の激しい濁流の中でも

ブレず深く根を張り自分を強く持つ姿に

感動したよ。

友だちになってくれてありがとうと

思いながら話しているところで、

突然変な声が出てしまい笑い合ってた。

そんなクラスメイトだった友だち、

アニメがきっかけで繋がれたんだ。

[himari-tsuki]

June

Just by changing some aspects of

your way of thinking,

you can become a little more positive.

-

If I’m able to think about whether

my words are hurting someone

before I speak them,

I will surely grow into a kinder person.

Even if someone says something hurtful

to me. Holding back is a battle

with yourself and can be painful,

but that's the kind of person I want to be.

-

Posting every day,

there are times when I feel sad and

wonder if there's any point in continuing.

But the next morning,

I received a message saying,

"Your posts have been an inspiration,

and I want to thank you."

That helps me to stand up again.

Thanks so much… for your kindness

- Thank you so much for sending

so many heartwarming messages

to this post.

I'm happy to be called an inspiration.

But when you send me your warm feelings

I know we're doing this together.

I'm thankful you're by my side,

don't forget that.

I'll definitely send you my song of love.

-

I want to use this English.

"open sesame"

-

I've been sticking with my long black hair

in a two-tiered hime cut,

but sometimes I get the urge to try

the opposite, blonde hair someday

[himari-tsuki]

水無月

大切な瞬間をずっとずっと忘れず大切���、

苦しい事は自身との静かな戦い。

そうして歩むこと。

-

結果が全てではないとは言え、

生み出すコンテンツに反省と復習を

痛いくらいにし続けるのです。

でも必ず、光はありました。

-

表現の中で

受け入れられないものがあること、

自然なんです。

どんなにすきであっても。

それでもすきでいつづけてくれて

ありがとう。

変わらず伝えたいことです。

[himari-tsuki]

「生きてる時間はきっとあっという間ですし

逃げ出すのは一瞬でできます

泣きたくなるほど不安だった過去が

泣きたくなるくらい大切に変わったと

この気持ちを書き残しておきたかったのです」

[himari-tsuki]

「これからに繋げていける様に

一秒でも長く一緒に居れる様に

ずっとずっとと

それを願うことを

忘れない様にしていれば

大丈夫なのだと

悔しいことは

生きて居れば当たり前にありますが

今に繋がっていました」

[himari-tsuki]

Conflict is good.

If you overcome conflict,

dawn will surely be waiting for you

on the other side.

[himari-tsuki]

May

As long as you are alive,

there are times when your heart

suddenly withers.

Sometimes there is a reason

for that and sometimes there isn't

-

Even now, I'm so nervous

that my knees tremble

before I go on stage

and even when I get off the stage

there're many things going through

my head.

I thought of this when I read a post

that said

"I'm definitely not as brave as Himari."

I'm really proud of you for trying your best.

-

Every day I see and feel many things.

In the midst of all of this,

I want to become stronger,

even if only a little at a time.

-

Every day,

I receive heartwarming messages

from all over the world.

When you said I have a voice like an angel,

and said I was like a warrior and a diva,

I will definitely deliver my songs to you

no matter what.

Please wait for me.

-

Even when I feel down,

listening to the demo of my new song

brings warm tears to my eyes.

That's the kind of feeling

I want to convey with my music.

-

I will never forget all the sadness,

frustration, and pain I have felt.

But I will sublimate it all and transform it

into beautiful songs.

I will continue to work hard

to become stronger and send strength

to everyone I care about.

[himari-tsuki]

皐月

喉で歌う訳ではない、

と言いつつ喉のケアも

とにかくとにかく頑張った。

毎日の様に絶唱して

自室に帰ると精魂尽き果て

ぽろぽろ涙が出た。

レコを終えると直ぐにライブがあったけど、

ひま、出来た〜っ!!

終わると寂しいくらい楽しかったことを、

今は痛感しているよ。

-

母の日に

おかあさんとおばあちゃんがすきだった

老舗のマンゴープリンを贈って

「いつもありがとう」とLINEを送ると

その言葉に反応して

クマが出てくるんだけど、

おかあさんが

「🚪から熊さん出てきたよ👀‼️

どんなマジック⁉️」と聞いてきて可愛い。

ずっと元気で居てね🍮ヽ(ㅎ  ̫ ㅎ

-

春、転換期。

無理し過ぎずに、は

出来ないかもしれませんが

自分にご褒美をあげながら乗り切り

再び逢えたら嬉しいです

-

時間がない時はとことん追い詰められるし、

時間がある時は時間があるから、

その時間を後で使うために

とっておきたいこと、よくあるね。

-

時々、頑張っていても

暗闇の中にいる様に感じた時、

何に繋がっているんだろう…

と思うこともあります。

-

現実から逃れる様に

今いる場所から逃げようとします。

けれど"大切"を見失わない強さを

持ち続ける事、語り続けたい。

-

自分が出す言葉が誰かを傷つけていないかを

考えてから発することが出来たなら、

きっともっと優しくなれる。

たとえ自分が傷つくことを

言われたとしても。

我慢することは自分との戦いで

とても痛いけれど、

わたしはそうでありたい。

[himari-tsuki]

ここを出たい、ではなくて

ここへ行きたい、がいい