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I assume that, as such an amazing toy, you must be a real collectors item and mean so much to whoever owns you

both valuable and rare! though not so lucky as to be owned quite yet. being owned is something that it feels someone needs to be able to express in person, but that doesn't stop it having fun letting others have some fun with it online! but it is an amazing toy!

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OK but

I am 100% Domme. Completely.

like

I want to be tied up as art but I only call myself a model - I'm not a bunny and I'm not a bottom. I need to be in control. I have to have a rope knife and enough slack to use it (this takes less than a lot of people because I'm flexible)

And I have to be the one choosing what ties we do. This isn't a collaboration, not that way. This is 100% the canvas taking over and telling the painter what to paint.

so finding a sub that wants to tie me up while remaining the sub?

You and I should be friends, is what I'm saying

🌻

so, this thing is still caught up on the whole thing of being a sub and struggling because we offered to tie people up and immediately got a lot of offers of play and attention. no one has been demanding or rude about it, but it is still dragging some stuff out that it really needs to find some balance on.

this thing is submissive. it's harped on about it a whole lot in a way that if anybody else was doing it, it might be inclined to believe that they were in fact perhaps a little bit dommy and scared of admitting it. the reason it's said so much on the topic has been to reinforce a boundary of not wanting to be forced into dominance on account of its experience, age, and transition progress.

what's true of itself, however, is not true of all parts of the miscellany. this thing is submissive. it only wants to be submissive. our desire to do ropework with others comes from a part of the miscellany that is more neutral, but has been struggling because they don't want to be dommy with the process of tying folks up, they want to practice our rope skills.

there is a part of the miscellany that wants to go further than that and do some of the things it enjoys having done to it to others, but the thought of this thing being approached to discuss such things makes it extremely uncomfortable. this thing does not want to be dommy, and it does not want to be switchy. it especially doesn't want to be approached only for someone to say 'hey can I speak to the dommy one?' and if it is it will simply say 'no'. our relationship is complicated, to say the least.

but one thing is agreed: our submissiveness comes first.

send it a 🌻 and it will talk about whatever's on its mind

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Petey is amazing. tell her Auntie Grace is sending hugs and telling her I'm proud of her

So here are my immediate impressions of camp bee (building empowered expression)

Everything I could’ve wanted and more in terms of care for Petey

Weeks before we had a meeting to make sure she would be fully accommodated. This includes her sensory needs and safety needs.

They matched every camper with their own 1-1 SLP students. No group therapy because that doesn’t work for apraxia. She had 15 hours of direct speech therapy, but play based child led therapy. By SLP students who had to undergo 30 hours of training to volunteer there. They were each well matched and every camper deeply bonded with their student.

All of this therapy was on top of music class and a therapy dog and ice cream parties and water play and it was so sweet to see friends being made and these kids all see how many of these kids were like them

And then they had parent education classes and taught all these parents about IEP advocacy and neurodiversity informed care and the socia model of disability. And dyslexia and comorbid conditions (it’s not really possible to only have apraxia) and different evidence based treatments that could work and our rights as parents and how to secure those rights

And it was gorgeous

That kind of experience can save these kids

Everyone was so so emotional

I’m so thankful we could be here. It will change her life, without a doubt. I am armed with more information and a lot of people to use as resources and support. The amount of progress she had made. Her growth in these last 5 days, it’s not subtle. Her confidence with her talker has been huge. Her ability to communicate how she’s feeling. And her intelligibility

At the beginning of the week she mostly didn’t speak to strangers

And today as we made our way to the bnb, while running important coffee and ice cream related errands, she was introducing herself unprompted and chatting with them (I translated) without hesitation

She is determined and a hard worker and that was no different this week

I’m so proud of her

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Hey kid you want a job?

Great get online and go to a job board. Indeed, Linkedin whatever. Now you're gonna search for a role that's in your city, fits your qualifications, and doesn't seem like a bad time.

See that easy apply button? Don't hit it they just throw those in the trash. Now you're gonna want to go to the company's website and check their careers page.

Oh? That job doesn't exist anymore. Cool go back to the job board and find another one.

Great you found another job, you're on the company's career page and the job exists!! So you're going to need to make an account on the career page website. They're using Workday, the same site as the last job you applied for? Who cares? You need to make another account for THIS job's workday page.

Now you're going to upload your resume. That'll autopopulate about 15 boxes with everything on your resume, except formatted wrong and with tons of errors. So just go through and painstakingly check the dates on all of that and rewrite everything you already laid out in an aesthetically pleasing format on your resume.

Ok time for the cover letter, explain why this specific job and company are deeply important to you. You love their mission statement and wouldn't even laugh if their ceo was gunned down in the street. You'll really want to reiterate the things you just spent the last 20 minutes filling out on the resume section

(Remember to include language from the job description, people who work in HR are lower than dogs and they need patterns or they get confused.) Write about a page, but hey don't sound too desperate or robotic this is where they judge your character!

Maybe add your portfolio site at the end here, who knows if that helps no one has ever clicked mine haha.

Anywayyy time to hit apply! Congrats! You'll see that confirmation email come in and you should be getting the rejection letter in about 2 weeks. Unfortunately your resume didn't have the right buzzwords and the AI auto rejected you :(

Time to start again and try not to kill yourself!

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Quality Bonding Time 🪢

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More ~ Links

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Your treat for getting through another week ✨🎁

Treat me ~ Tip Me ~ More of me

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Dreaming My Dreams Of You

Augusta

2019

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I think having a pretty girl to pry open my legs and hold a vibe against my clit until my mind pretty much melts out my pussy would be nice..... just saying

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Getting dressed up is such a good time ✨

😻 out kinda look perhaps???

Treat me ~ Tip Me ~ More of me

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slow clitoris rubs while i tell you you're the prettiest

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On Irish trains we have train magazines for some reason and I would like to inform u that hozier is on the cover

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I've read in-depth about a lot of kinks I want to do, and while some I would be comfortable learning by experience (pro tip: go slow) there are others I won't do until I've done them at parties under supervision (like cutting)

and that's fine. Right now it's likely I'll never be able to go to a party, but hope springs eternal (at least some days)

hey...

hey you...

you know that kink that looks awesome but is kinda technical?

you can go research how it works. you can learn how to do it.

off you go now! don't be afraid of learning something new!

if it's something you want to do, learning about it will make it more fun when you get to do it!

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I Don't Want To Be Understood by Joshua Jennifer Espinoza

A transsexual woman pieces together fragmented details of a repressive religious childhood and an unsupportive family, drawing from autobiographical experiences of the poet’s life. 

I Don’t Want To Be Understood is a work of resistance against the conventional trans narrative, and a resistance against the idea that trans people should have to make themselves clear and understandable to others in other to deserve human rights. This is a compelling, urgent collection about the body and survival that asks how we learn to love in a culture where normal is defined by exclusion and discrimination.

These poems stretch from childhood to the present day—resisting typical narratives of self-discovery, resilience, and personal growth—and instead asks what it means to be granted or denied personhood by the world around you. It is a personal archive of a trans life laid out in all its messiness and unknowability, and is a book for anyone who has questioned why we place so many limitations on who gets to be considered a human being. These poems do not celebrate survival, but rather ask why transsexuals and other gender non-conforming people must fight so hard to survive in the first place.

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Today is penetration day, the day that, according to guidelines, I should be able to have penetrative sex.

I'm not going to be doing that, at least not with a strap or cock

but I have a dildo and a rabbit that I could use

I want to, but I'm still a little swollen and using a vibe is still painful in some areas, including my clit (which is the most swollen part of me

otoh, penetrating with something squishy would be different than dilator, which is very hard (heh heh) and uncomfortable.

otoh, I am supposed to keep the area dry to help with healing

otoh, having something in there, especially something sliding in and out (dilators are put in as far as you can and held there) should make dilating easier

IDK I'm debating whether to try it today or not.

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