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scjaxon‌:

He had moved to stand in front of her. His hands resting against her waist. “I left to better myself. Shit was going on and I couldn’t be in nyc. I didn’t want to hurt you. I know I did, but there was a chance you could have been hurt worse, made.” He murmured. His forehead resting against hers. “My plan was to come back. To be with you again if you would have me.” He admitted

Looking up at him, she nodded. At the time, her pain clouded every judgement, she hated him for leaving her when they planned so much for their future. The thought of them getting back together, it was a thought of hers, but she didn’t know if she could give up her heart again only to have it broken again. “Are you saying this only so I’d let you see Chloe? You wanting to get back with me?” 

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scjaxon‌:

“She does?” He asked, he had seen her once. But it wasn’t a close enough view to her that he could fully take in her features. All he seen when he looked at her was Macy. “No, it wasn’t. You didn’t give me a chance. And even if I wasn’t coming back to New York, we’re both from the same bloody country. You could have easily came back to Australia and called me up.” He muttered. He leaned against the wall, his arms crossing over his chest. “At least you’re admitting that you were in the wrong, now are you going to let me see her and be in her life? If I didn’t want to be a dad or have a kid, I wouldn’t have came all the way up after finding out about her.”

Macy listened and though she was in the wrong about what she did, her heart ended up making her decisions for her and the life she chose to live. Now that he’s in front of her, it made it even harder. “I don’t know, Jaxon. There is just so much that has happened. I don’t know why you even left, like you just left, Jaxon. I want to know why you left.” 

Lost of Control || Macy & Jaxon

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scjaxon‌:

I think I’m going to adopt an animal. But what do you think I should adopt?

Wow, you have so many already.

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shtnoahw‌:

The worst part of being adopted, no family history. I almost feel like I should see if I can get a court order to open up my adoption files, at least then I’ll know what the hell runs in my blood. What kind of sickness I might end up getting in my old age.

The hell? I mean, it’s probably a good thing but shit. 

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omfizzy‌:

I may have baked 80 cupcakes today, anyone want some chocolate chip cupcakes?

Um YES! Cupcakes are life. 

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shtsxphia‌:

I think I’m going to drop all responsibilities and go shopping, who’s coming with me?

If my kid wasn’t so fussy I would totally be up for joining you on the shopping. 

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tanner-mabry‌:

Oh there are tons if you search on Youtube or any music service. Apparently classical music has benefits for little ones as well.

Alright, thank you so much. So have you become successful in these attempts?

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tanner-mabry‌:

Hm….I mean, I’m a music guy so I would say either lullabies or soft music?

Sounds like something easy I could try, which songs do you suggest?

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shtsxphia‌:

Could always do some tylenol and see if that’ll happen? They have teething tablets that help with pain.

Alright, thanks. I’ll try that. Teething tablets? I need to know these things. 

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shtjcxon‌:

Jaxon’s eyes settled on the woman as the door slowly swung open. As he looked at her, he could feel himself backtracking his mind. Not wanting to tell her being stronger than the part that knew it was the right thing to do. He stepped inside the home, instantly slipping his shoes off of his feet. He was always raised to remove shoes before going into someone else’s home. It was just carried on from his childhood, no matter who’s home he was gong into. 

He looked around, his eyes settling on pictures of what he could only assume it was his daughter. Daughter, the word rattled in his mind, it didn’t feel real. He wasn’t sure if it would ever feel real. “She looks a lot like you, Macy.” He murmured softly before he turned around to face her. “I have a question. Why did you think it was right to keep her away from me and my family? Even if you were pissed off at me, you must have known how excited my mum would be to hear about a grandchild. Or just Chloe in general? Not giving her a right to know who her other family members were? Where you going to keep it forever? Or were you going to let her find out when she became an adult?”

Shutting the door behind them, she noticed him taking off his shoes so she walked further into her home and sat down on the couch. Watching him as he looked around at pictures. Nodding she continued to watch him. “She does.” She responded quietly. “She does have your eyes though.” She mentioned as she pulled her knees up to her chest. Listening to him, she looked down at her jeans picking at the lose rip in them. “It wasn’t right what I did, but when you left, I didn’t know I was pregnant then. When I found out, you were possibly never coming back so I didn’t see the point. Plus, I didn’t think I was ever going to see you again. I was planning on taking her back home. I would like to eventually see my mum again.” 

Lost of Control || Macy & Jaxon

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shtsxphia‌:

How old is she? is she teething?

She’s nine months so pretty much, yea. 

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I haven’t slept in a week, my poor baby keeps waking up through the night. Anyone got any remedy's to help with this? 

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daxxhaw‌:

“My morning started off at 5 AM to my dog chasing the jogger coming down our street him yelling and me waking up to see Stella had gotten out and the jogger wouldn’t stop running meaning I had to chase them both , she wasn’t trying to hurt him she just really wanted to play because he had this thing on his keychain that looked like a ball. I’ve done my exercise for the next two years 

Damn, my dog has pulled that shit before, it sucks. Did you ever catch it? 

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shtjcxon‌:

Control. he had no control over this. He knew that he could talk to her about it and tell her everything, but she still had all the say in this. Once she found out about the reason he was gone for 16 months, it could be the reason why she never lets Jaxon in his daughter life. But he knew he couldn’t lie to her about it. He had to be straight up honest, no matter the results of it. He pushed all the negative thoughts away, just having his mind on his daughter. 

His taxi pulled up to Macy’s home. He walked up to he front door, not sure how this was going to go. He didn’t want to have his hopes up too high. He played with the small chip that sat in his wallet, reminding himself why he got cleaned. It was for her, their future family that he wanted. He slipped the chip back into his wallet, placing the wallet in his back pocket before he lifted his hand and knocked on the door. A million thoughts going through his mind as he waited.

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Macy had her nanny come and pick Chloe before Jaxon came over. She didn’t know how the night was going to go and she didn’t want her daughter to hear certain conversations. Not knowing what Jaxon wanted to talk about, she knew it probably would lead down to Chloe and it put a pit in her stomach. Sitting on the couch waiting for him to come to her brownstone, it seemed like the wait took forever. 

Hearing a knock on the door, she looked up and walked over and looked out the window and seen that it was Jaxon and let out a slow breath before opening the door. As she did, she opened and looked up at the Australian and kept a straight face. “Come in.” she mentioned as she stepped aside.  

Lost of Control || Macy & Jaxon

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oliverxdavis‌:

Alright, be honest with me, can I pull off this look?

The look is great, you rock that shit. 

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hbuizzy‌:

Even if she won’t remember, at least you have the pictures to show her and the stories to tell her as she gets older.

I’m making a baby book / scrapbook of things she was apart of, I have videos and things as well. So playing it as she gets older, and showing her the photos will be a good thing. 

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shtjcxon‌:

I had to leave, Macy. You were going to get hurt whether or not I didn’t. It’s a long story, are you back? Can I come over? Can we talk?

Yes, I’m back. Just so you know, she won’t be here when you come over.