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15 more days at this job, and it would be 1 year working here. Just gotta survive 2 more weeks, at least. I feel like I'm a violinist on the titanic, and I'm still being critiqued as we are next high in water.

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At work and I just don't really want to be here. I dont want to talk to anybody and that's all it is. Talking all day long. Emailing. Texting. Calling. Interviewing. Calling. Calling. Calling.

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I'm so depressed because my dog is dying. There's nothing we can do.

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I'm having the most insane anxiety but at least this is anxiety over normal things. It's just an interview

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It's been awhile but depression is back again. 🥲

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When you're in a healthy relationship and no longer to relate to a lotta of your favorite sza songs lol

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Somethings really don't change at all

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At night I'm not sure what to do or how to think. I'm tired and a little scared. I just have to keep remembering I'm okay.

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I think im in love again. I'm terrified but I'm trying not to be.

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He makes me feel like an angel

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I am now dating an absolute sweetheart 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

My heart is melting

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I dont have the strength to tell him to leave me alone but I have the fear to run away. If that's the way I gotta get rid of him that's what I have to do. I just have to put this somewhere to remind myself that whatever way gives me peace, is the way to go and that's okay.

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Sometimes I'm reminded of the weight of my responsibilities and I just have to push forward. I don't have time to think to hard on it. I can't or I'll crumble under the pressure

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Sometimes I'm reminded of the weight of my responsibilities and I just have to push forward. I don't have time to think to hard on it. I can't or I'll crumble under the pressure

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One day I'll get it right. Today isn't the day but it'll come eventually.

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I hope I'm on my way to healing.

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I've come to realize that I keep looking out for him. I keep looking to see if he messaged me or anything. It's like a lighthouse looking out in the night for a boat that's never coming.

When I check and see that he hasn't, I'm sad. But I can't help but check anyways even though it hurts me. It's like I'm impulsively stabbing myself.

So far it's been about a week. I wonder when I'll quit this habit.