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Saying “reproductive rights” instead of “women’s rights” DOESN’T ERASE WOMEN.

Saying “people who can get pregnant/ pregnant people” DOESN’T ERASE WOMEN. Unless of course, you think women aren’t people?

Stop acting like this isn’t an issue for anyone but cis women, stop talking over trans people who need just as much, if not more, support in the fight for reproductive rights.

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Write a boooook

so yesterday, I was on my way to work and I was at a red light listening to Dear Evan Hansen. lol. (I think I like 4 songs from it now?) Idk if it was the song I was listening to or the guy playing the violin on the corner outside of my car to the left, or the Midol kicking in (I always feel energetic and good as fuck when the Midol kicks in) but I got the overwhelming feeling of “damn I want to do something big and be big” but with something creative and nothing else. And I usually get this feeling and thought, but yesterday’s was more powerful than usual. Anyway, that’s where my passion is- youtube and music and writing. I have to do something with those things but idk!!! And then I was thinking about how I’m still young and it’s still doable and I still have actual time to do something big and I was almost crying because idk why or where the fuck it came from but I felt this HUGE and overwhelming feeling of hope and inspiration and positivity that I was almost crying?!!!? And then I was like “omg me and Sheyenne could have a life like Hannah and Ella” and then my mind just kept going and going but in a positive direction. lol. And I got to work and had the most energy I’ve probably ever had at work and kicked ass and the energy lasted all day. I feel so inspired but I have no idea what to do

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things I never saw coming when I was small

-me being gay

-my mom dying

-breakfast becoming my favorite meal of the day

-knowing what “depression” felt like

-threatening to never speak to my dad again (but we’re good now)

-kicking one of my sisters out of my house

-having to live with the fact that Alexa lives in New York 

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Lmfaooo so weird but 💀💀💀

Shit from this Thanksgiving break that only Shy & Abby will understand @hunnyhumptrees @merlinwhovian

“Shit, it was a surprise to me too!”

*takes a pic of empty parking spot for proof* “this is where it was parked”

“WOO WOOOO”

*knocks coke can over*

*says in British accent* “It’s 1,000 kilometers, love”

“‘Ma biiitch!!!!”

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Here’s a very short yet informative video made by my best friend @hunnyhumptrees

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I would have loved to meet her. Sue is looking down on us though!! 💗💗💗

It makes me so sad that my mom never got to meet Abby and Sheyenne. I talked about them to her, but she never actually met them 

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My babies!!!

Disney Land was on Thursday! Truly magical. Almost cried at the end firework show..

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all his exes live in texas

I hate to be jealous. I hate to be bitter. I hate to be hateful. But her, she makes me all of those things. Never has a person made me so damn angry in my life, and the worst part of it all is that I can’t even figure out why.

I’m not one to hate other people who have dated my partner either, that’s just not me. I spent a whole summer once hanging out with the boy that I was completely head over heels in love with and his fucking girlfriend. Great gal actually, never had a problem with her, never could have hated her like this.

Maybe the main reason is the sheer way that she hates me. When people hate you it’s sometimes easiest to just send it back their way. I guess I get why us dating hurt her. Okay, I definitely get why it hurt her. But why is it me whom she holds so much destain for? Why doesn’t she hate him? In her eyes, I am the evil bitch who came into his life, did some crazy voodoo shit and stole him away from her forever. That can’t help but piss me off. They were both in a terribly unsatisfying and unhealthy relationship where they were both unhappy. He wanted to reach back out into the world and find something that would make him less so. We found each other at a point in our lives where we both desperately needed to love and have our wounds healed by someone new. I’ve felt guilty about it for so long, but I have come to realize, there is no shame in that. There is no shame in wanting to love and be loved. There is no shame in leaving something that doesn’t make you happy in order to find something that does. He makes me happy. I make him happy. That’s what the fuck we’re ALL searching for, so how can she hate me for that?

Another part is probably because I sorta hate her for the way she treated him while she dated him. Most people do not get the pleasure of knowing their boyfriend while he is in a relationship with someone else. This pleasure was all mine. I knew them as a pair before I even knew him as a person. I saw the fights, saw the abuse, and after he and I became friends, I heard all the stories. I at one point actually became his right hand man for relationship advice (Lol). Now that we’re together, none of that should matter, it really shouldn’t fucking matter, but it does. I get angry at the way she hurt him, I get angry that he stayed in that toxic ass relationship so long overdue, I get mad thinking that he ever could have loved someone like her.

Lastly, I feel like I hate her the most because of the three combined. I hate her because she hated me first, I hate her because of how much she hurt him, and I hate her because I can’t understand why I fucking hate her so much.

I thought that when I graduated high school I could say goodbye to these unhealthy ass feelings for good. Wasn’t the case. She gets under my skin so much and I can’t stand it anymore. Having an arch nemesis all the time is exhausting. Hatred is exhausting. I want to stop giving her the time of day, I want to stop being this way, I want to let go. I thought writing might help me do so, maybe it did.

Goodnight.

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Jacob: I think I'd like to marry you. Me: why????? Him: well, you understand me when I mumble, and I remember you made me a really great sandwich once.

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I just saw this LMAO

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LMAO

they teach theatre kids how to project their voices but they don’t teach em how to shuT THE FUCK UP

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oh my god

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boy: sends sext me: rolls eyes but sends one back

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this boy has me feelin some typa way

He tells great jokes. He calls me beautiful. He stays on the phone with me for 4 hours when I leave work crying. He listens to me. He thinks I’m funny. He hopped on a train and went to Dallas with me. He kisses me on the forehead. He made me tea when I was sick. He plays with my hair. He grew me a sunflower in his room. He says my freckles are pretty. He liked silver linings playbook. He’s not ashamed of me. He is empathetic. He is compassionate. He is kind. He believes in the world. He takes care of me.

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FUCKING BEAUTIES

Last night, Alexa and I had a mini photoshoot for our special something coming in the future!!!