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goingto spam all my DE art here too, starting w this comic

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This game really gets me in a way no other game does.

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define hole / is a hole a real thing? / Marco Poloni, Black Hole, from The Majorana Experiment, 2010 / Flatfields Fotografien / What We Talk About When We Talk About Holes / Dark (2017-2020) / post / Disco Elysium / Twin Peaks: The Return (2017) / Donnie Darko (2001) / Outer Range (2022) / Kaveh Akbar, from “The Miracle,” Pilgrim Bell / post / Weizmann Institute of Science / Mathworld / post / post / post / post / Anne Boyer, from “Woman Sitting at the Machine,” in A Handbook of Disappointed Fate / Star Wars: Knights of the Old Republic II: The Sith Lords / Dennis Patrick Slattery, The Wounded Body: Remembering the Markings of Flesh / The Incredulity of Saint Thomas, Caravaggio, 1601–1602 (detail) / The Incredulity of St. Thomas, Bernardo Strozzi, 1582-1644 (detail) / Don McKay, from “Twinflower,” Field Marks: The Poetry of Don McKay, intro. Méira Cook (Wilfrid Laurier University Press, 2006) / thierryetherve / Pathologic / post / Gregory Orr, from How Beautiful the Beloved / Tomas Tranströmer, tr. by Robert Bly, from a poem titled “Track” / Disco Elysium / Anne Carson, Economy of the Unlost / Pathologic 2 / Jonas Burgert, Sand brennt Blatt (2010) / Disco Elysium / Carl Phillips, from “Givingly”, Wild is the Wind / from “The Man With a Hole in His Head” by Rick Bursky / Rosario Castellanos, ‘Memorandum on Tlatelolco’ (tr. Maureen Ahern) / post / Pathologic / The Juniper Tree (Nietzchka Keene | 1990) / John Banville, Eclipse / Twin Peaks / Disco Elysium / VectorStock / True Detective / Night in the Woods

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spock using his last seconds of oxygen to be a bitch to his stupid boyfriend, as a logical man does

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In his time, everyone knew what Doctor was. He never expected to know for himself. He never expected to fall for him so fast it was like how TARDIS travels - with shit guidance, quick and ruthless at arriving where the Doctor wants, the only one whose word she'll take as her own. It was like crushing in one, too - burning up while sirens in his head went all out, blasting panicked sounds in all shades of red. He knew the fleeting feeling of seeing someone sharp and knowledgeable, beautiful, with the wisdom carried through centuries, he haven't expected the feeling to never really stop. It's difficult enough to get first hand experience of what people went through with him minus the flirting - does rare teasing counts as one? - and sex, but to be selfless so much it costed him the first life - oh, so different. He was a coward, you see, a unique breed of one. Sacrificing exactly the amount he could and running away when the danger reached it's limits. He was an adrenaline junkie without a suicidal wish, with need to save and give, just not too much, not enough to change who he was, or get into an early grave. It's always too early for him now. The Doctor changed him in more ways than one, his heart now properly content on loving the man 'till the end of times. Hating him just the right amount to still be furious and wishing in the dead of night he never met him, not enough to ease the pain and oh god, the longing. He was dead and then not, he was alive and then once more. Jack embraced death, not the pain, it was another thing on it's own. But it became a constant just as quickly as his love and anger with the Doctor, a thing never meant to exist and never meant to end. He was hurt, and then again, and then so many times he lost count. Loving the Doctor didn't bring happiness or anything even remotely similar, it's pain and death and then some more. Loving the Doctor is like willingly stepping on a bomb - he knows the feeling, the burning inside until flames eat at your body, burning flash and boiling blood, not one thought except finding him, bashing his head into a wall and then kissing him senseless. Loving the Doctor is following someone who doesn't want to be followed, being instead of not, a one night stand with too much meaning, it's being one of many, just the only one to rise, hunt him down again and again. Loving the Doctor is to have the feeling fixed, changing but never to something he can't recognize as the agonizing pain of burning, of want and care, of wonder at the marvellous creature with sad, knowing eyes. Loving the Doctor is a battle already lost.  It's quick, and it's ruthless, and Jack wants nothing more. He's wrong, his being is twisted and is unreachable to fate, to the universe, he's the sun when it burns the brightest. Doctor is what everything is for; he's what everything breathes for, everything that was meant to be, everything right and sorted, with a fixed time and place, everything Jack isn't. Jack isn’t. The Doctor still gently holds him, untill Jack awakens. 

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i’m so normal about doctor x jack. it’s like, wherever they are, they will find each other not for long, i very much doubt that in the canon way of things they would be able to travel together for an extended periods of time but in the insane grip of time, among timelines and billions, trillions, endless possibilities they will find each other

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time for my tardis is a radio station au

TARDIS is a radio sation. doctor's companions fit perfectly as co-hosts, so that's what jack and rose are. after rose's disappearance, jack is a regular guest who captivates the audience's hearts. doctor: you're on air! a caller: finally! can you say hello to jack for me? no one sees it, but jack has such a victorious expression that it's painful to watch. "no rose we will not invite him to the show and yes he has a lot of great stories and a charming smile you met while he was selling you a non-existent antique relic at my request and yes he is a specialist rose no" when jack runs in with two coffees as an apology and a martini for himself, the doctor gets him on air and even though he kicks jack out when it's barely over, rose calls back the next day the fact that episodes with jack's appearance are getting more views than any of his hits the doctor to the core every time he sees the stats doctor: who drank all the coffee? rose: oh, it was jack. he worked overtime last week. doctor: he's getting fired. rose: we can't fire people just because you're too lazy to fill the coffee machine, doctor.

when the doctor vindictively doesn't fill up the coffee machine on precisely the day jack needs to work overtime, jack swaps sugar and salt and the doctor angrily spits the rest of the day jack is like "how do you like my new recipe" and the doctor is this close to kissing/hitting him doctor: you add alcohol to your coffee? jack: right now are non-working hours! doctor: sharing is caring doctor: jack, there's milk in my coffee jack: and? doctor: i don't drink coffee with milk jack: oh yeah! well, you'll remember this the next time you do your coffee yourself. jack, watching the doctor add 7 cubes of sugar to tea: someday you'll get diagnosed with diabetes. doctor: not before you'll drink yourself to death. a caller: hi, this is TARDIS? jack: it sure is! i'm jack harkness, and what's your name? ;) doctor: STOP IT

the TARDIS is the only workstation of the Gallifrey radio company after a massive disaster (including notable losses and blowed up buildings) initially, the doctor worked on a completely different project and almost forgot about his internship inTARDIS, but because of the disaster, he returns and is given almost absolute creative freedom which allows him to drastically change the station’s schedule half an hour before the broadcast, chat about anything of interest and somehow get access to news and songs that should be released at least half a day later jack, thanks to a murky past and an education suited for running and fixing things like components of the TARDIS, becomes a purveyor of on-air prep, fresh gossip and credible commentary rose thought the building abandoned, but after a brief explanation and assurance that no, this is not a drug den, she joined the TARDIS has an entire floor dedicated to the studio, with no rooms other than for recording and equipment, where the jack regularly fumbles and delights in somehow one hundred percent working ancient exhibits somewhere in all the rubbish, jack finds a gramophone and becomes delighted with the fact that someone else keeps such junk. rose and doctor dance to the music from it, once the gramaphone is repaired. after a tense scene, when jack is recalled to cardiff for a showdown (which took place, among other things, because of the doctor), the doctor changes the lock and when jack returns a couple of years later, his key does not fit, and neither music nor voices echo from inside he, of course, like any reasonable person, picks the lock and waits for the doctor for a year - becoming the host of another radio station, TORCHWOOD, because of course doctor took the spirit of the TARDIS with himself. i don’t know what to do with the timline, but i really want jack to be in a war for those two years, maybe taking place not in cardiff bonus if the doctor has experience as a war survivor (you can hear me sigh in ukrainian) bonus 2.0 if doctor and jack fight and then bond because of it bonus 3.0 if the doctor was helped survive the war by working in gallifrey and when the company collapses before his eyes and possibly because of him, it fucking hurts in short, i want the doctor to fuck up and get fucked up because of this, to fuck up jack. yet jack continues to cling to him until the Confrontation happenes and carefully, dancing on broken glass, they try to coordinate in a new cracked relationship without rose, because that rose is no more and they both mourned.  still, when music from an old gramaphone plays like on that very evening, they dance to the quiet rumbling of mechanisms, to soft sighs and unspoken lyrics, they dance and something shatters between them, letting them breath

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i am so normal about jack being a fixed point in time.

he's wrong - the only frozen point when everything around is moving, he's beautiful - impossible, eternal, the only constant, the unconditional stability. the doctor who sees Time like no other, it's Lord with a capital L, and jack whom Time can't touch, out of Time, out of reach

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I love the tenth doctor because he really doesn't have the disposition to be a good person. he is militant in his believes. unfair to others and himself. the goodness that seems to spark within him in the second season is only inspired by his love for one person rather than general philanthropy and so that spark dies the moment he loses her. he is dependant on the goodness of the people around him but hates losing them so much that he risks being alone. he is so selfish in his love for other people. he is arrogant and believes he is better than others. and YET he dies saving a regular man. not because he wants to. not out of the goodness of his heart. but because it is right. it is decent. and its kind.

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Doctor Who // The ship of Theseus

An Unearthly Child // The Power of the Daleks // Spearhead from Space // Castrovalva // The Chimes of Midnight // Rose // Journey’s End // An Adventure in Space and Time // Series 13 filming // Twice Upon A Time // Deep Breath // Season 1, Series 4, 5, 12 opening titles // Heaven Sent // The Time of the Doctor // The Eleventh Hour // Twice Upon a Time // The End of Time, Pt. 1 // The Timeless Children // Fugitive of the Judoon // The TV Movie // An Unearthly Child // The Mysterious Planet // Smile // Planet of the Ood // Deep Breath // Season 1 // Eighth Doctor comic // Heaven Sent

Text from Chapter 3: Philosophical Conundrums, in The Outer Limits of Reason by Noson S. Yanofsky, 2013

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living, 1980–1982 / hannibal nbc 

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beautiful analysis. couldn’t agree more

Will’s vs. Hannibal’s Ways of Expressing Love

The fact that Hannibal loves Will and is in love with him is openly stated in the show several times. Will’s feelings, on the other hand, are more ambiguous, which is why some viewers often doubt whether Hannibal’s love is reciprocated. I think that exploring the ways these two men experience and react to love can explain the varying degrees of their openness about it.

I’ll put TLDR right here: Hannibal is more open about himself and his feelings, including love, hence he doesn’t have many challenges with admitting it. Will is closed off, stiff, and emotionally repressed, so he expresses his feelings in a much more subtle way.

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my favorite AITA ruling comments

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I feel like witches are sedentary and wizards are migratory. A witch has a home, a cauldron, herbs, you go to them with your problem. A wizard wanders, disappears, shows up at inconvenient times to fix nothing. am i making sense