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The problem with me losing weight is I'm not losing new weight. I've already lost ALL of this. I was never down to my ugw, but I was literally 10lbs away (originally I just wanted to be 100). It feels almost hopeless trying to do it all again and it's just not as exciting. At the same time, I would trade anything to be back where I was. I want my thigh gap back. It proves to me, though, that I CAN do it because I HAVE done it.

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Restarting a Tumblr is really frustrating. I've lost all my followers and friends and mutuals...

I was another-anorexic-lesbian in case you recognize me.

This is mostly a personal diary. It's got my body checks as I go down. I post my calories for the day, thinspo, and all the shit that happens along the way.

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Day 4 of binging... I don't want to step on my scale!!!

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My first time doing online therapy and with a new therapist... I'm terrified 🤣

She doesn't know about my Ed yet, so let's see how long I can go without her knowing or trying to fix it!

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I've binged for 3 days straight and I can't break...

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My most recent body check at 134. It got deleted along with my other blog...

Also, yes... There is hair dye EVERYWHERE on the floors, mirror, etc. I am well aware.

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Because good night! 🌙

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Confidence 😍

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Lingerie

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Not eating would be so much easier if I loved alone...

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I got terminated again...