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I only wish I mattered to you just as much as you mattered to me...

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I guess we were meant to be and the last thing we saw with our eyes wasn't the blue, star-filled sky above us, but each other. I saw the face I hated and have been in love with for years now, and I was happy, because my last view was happy too.

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and on such a perfect day, the only things my eyes see are the grey sky and dark clouds floating in my mind.

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you never understand how much is painful the word disgust is until someone say it to you.

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I'm so tired... but I just can freaking fall asleep, I only fall in love

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and sometimes I realize: "damn I'm so a people pleaser"

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poetry #1

We kissed each other goodnight,

Arms holding tight.

The stars looking down

To our love decided to bow.

The bed was soft,

Just like his touches

I couldn’t get enough

Of the one, I loved the most.

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numbness

She did not know what to do. Everything felt boring, even her favorite hobbies weren’t enjoyable anymore. A hole was formed in her heart; it was swelling all her positive emotions, leaving just the bad ones. Her body drowned in her bed, while her mind was drowning in her thoughts.

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revenge

She tried to hold back the tears that were pushing to come out from her eyes. She felt neglected, betrayed. All the people she trusted turned their back to her. She wanted to scream her thoughts to everyone that ever hurt her. One day she would get her revenge, maybe soon or in another life, but she would avenge her broken heart. In the meantime, her coffin was being deposited in the hole in the ground.

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They laughed aloud, letting their voices reach the ceiling.

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teenagers pov

We are young, but we are already living like adults, with too many responsibilities. We have to take care of the house, of the family and we have to work if we want to get something, but at the same time, we have to pay attention to school and to not get bad grades, because if we do, we are a failure.

We are teenagers, these are supposed to be our best years, but are actually becoming the worst.

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we have need...

We need to smile more, laugh more, dance, sing, jokes and more. We have been so sad lately that we forgot what happiness meant, so we deserve to be more childish, more adventurous, to cherish every special moment, to stay in silence but admire the people around us.

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costume.

I think people know who they really are, but they are just so scared to show it that they put a costume on themselves so that everyone will like them.

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Broken Family

He was drowning in a sea full of the lies his family have been telling him. Looking up he noticed his father and hoped he could save him, but his dad just watched him, an expression of hate on his face. He walked away from his son, without looking back.

His mother ran up to him with fear in her eyes. She was about to jump, but stopped her feet before the cliff, turned her back to him once again and murmured a phrase.

“I’m sorry… i-it’s too scary” and disappeared.

The water almost filled his lungs and was he was almost at his limit, when a small figure appeared out of nowhere. His little brother looked at him with sadness, panic, and extended a hand to him.

“Please let me help you, at least this once.” However, he knew that he would never be strong enough to help him.

He shook his head, a sad smile on his face.

“Let go, I prefer to die by myself than to drag you down with me, just… remember that I love you.”

Those were his last words; he would always save his brother first.

Of course he would, he loved him the most out of his family.

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soft love

When they touched sparkles did not fly around, nothing extravagant, not for two people whom preferred quietness. Their hands where soft against one another. A sense of relief expanded through their bodies, their shoulder relaxed and smiles appeared on their faces, unconsciously, but happily.

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Empty

Their eyes were full of nothingness and emptiness, a feeling that was too much to bear, which turned off everything else.

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Becoming Empty

She was laying on the dancing grass, with the face up, looking at the sky. Suddenly a tear escaped from her eyes, but her hand dried it right away. She could not be seen crying because that wasn't what warriors do. She was strong and she knew, but her heart was falling apart, piece by piece, every memory of them together, saved in her head, was being deleted and she couldn’t do anything. All she could do was laying there letting, feeling hopeless. Everything she has ever loved slipped through her fingers. The soft touches, the sweet words whispered in the ear, the looks full of love and gratitude. After all the memories disappeared, all that was left was just a sack of organs and blood, with the eyes empty, with no emotions at all inside of them. The stars were not beautiful anymore, the grass was not soft, it was only grass, and the air was just something to breath, it was not important anymore. Living was just a mission not something she did for herself and her loved ones. She got up, eyes cold, mouth draw in a straight line and she started running to the base, no emotion on her face, her muscles moved automatically to the road she had done her whole, but not full, life.