i-mymindscape-me-blog

[i-mymindscape-me-blog]

First Post

Happy Birthday, Harry!!! (& J.K.Rowling).

Harry Potter is a universe to me, in which I wouldn’t mind stepping. Basically, I would enter this mad world (only if I am a witch). But my basic problem of avoiding scary and difficult things will definitely follow me there. I wonder if I was in the first year with Harry, and I had the knowledge of book 1, would I walk up to him and tell him all about Tom Riddle, the prophecy, Horcruxes or be too scared to do so…because right now they are a fantasy, then it will be a reality. For me the scariest part of reality is work. No, I don’t think I am scared of hard work. Or maybe I am just lazy. But am I lazy? I don’t want to consider myself as lazy, I am scared. Fear of failure is running through my veins. But it is not just that, I have fear of starting something. And that fear can sometimes be very crippling. 

For example, I am doing a project for the last month and there are some minor changes to be done plus a major addition. I would need to spend some time on the minor change, and even then it might not be perfect. And the major addition is something I need to learn, from scratch. And I have understood 50% of it. I feel like I will not understand the remaining 50% because the 50% I did understand is still sketchy. So, the last couple of days I have been procrastinating and avoiding my boss. Terrible business ethics, I know. 

So, I have decided to start writing a blog. I don’t talk about my problems with anyone…so I think posting them on the internet is a good idea. Of course, I will be anonymous. And maybe a couple of people, who are going through what I am will relate to my rantings. If, anyone happens to find it.