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February 3, 2019 | 1:30 AM

Hi.

It’s been a hot minute. One of those “in my feels” nights and decided to log back onto my tumblr after yet another few years. Didn’t even wanna write something but I really do owe it to myself after scrolling through my page.

In a much better place now. Different struggles, but my head is much clearer and I’m much better able to organize my own thoughts. Less thoughts and simpler thoughts than before, but I’ve grown so much and learned so much since my tumblr days. When I first logged back on, I chuckled to myself, “haha hs teenage angst days”

...but after reading my posts, all my feelings resurfaced and it was more than that. harsh, harsh growing pains back then, but nevertheless grateful for all experiences I come across. it’s (in all honesty) nice to be reminded of certain things, good or bad, and to remember part of my roots. here’s to more growing between now and the next time I log back on. hopefully i’ll have good things to report and will be that much closer to what I've been seeking for so long. gained more motivation along the way and thankfully, more knowledge too.

thanks again to those that kept me grounded in some of my darkest days. I don’t talk to a lot of people anymore and idk who even uses tumblr anymore, but if you talked to me and said kind words to me back then, just know it was much appreciated back then and still is now. hope you all are doing okay <3

and don't forget to keep putting positive energy into this world.

much love, xx

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September 12, 2016 | 12:00 AM

Feeling numb.

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pleh | help

Every week, I ask myself what I'm doing with my life. And every other week, I answer "idk wtf I'm doing"

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Come on, let it go

just let it be

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Feelings suck.

I can't sleep. I can't sleep because I can't stop thinking about you. And I can't stop thinking about you because I've never been more confused about someone in my life. Nothing makes sense when I'm with you, but nothing makes my heart happier than when I'm with you. You are literally a drug to me. The more I get of you, the more I want. I'm at the point where I can't separate feelings from logic and I'm actually considering the idea of keeping you as my guilty pleasure. It hurts me just to think that we have to love each other from a distance. I love you. Signed, Your favorite.

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“sometimes u gotta burn some bridges to create some distance”

i hate u i love u - gnash

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lost but not that lost

So I’m sitting here thinking a lot about a personal project I’m about to undertake, and of course this leads to a lot of reflection. After assessing my life at its current stage, I've come to realize something that has never occurred to me before. For as long as I can remember, I’ve been in a rush to grow up.

With that being said, I’ve never seen it as a problem. Even now, I still can’t make up my mind with how I feel about it. But I have noticed lately that this plays a huge role in my life. Not really sure when its made such an impact, but I’m sure its since I've gotten to college. I know my mindset switched once I got here, and I can confidently say these switches have been for the better. As I look around me now, I think I’m in a good place, constantly working towards the future and looking for every opportunity to better myself. I’ve taken on new hobbies and many new interests to pass the time with. Never have I ever once lost sight of what motivates me, gets me out of bed in the morning.

i still don’t have a clear direction of where I’m headed, but I’ve got some sort of a hazy path ahead of me. I’ve got so much to give, and so much to learn, I don’t even know where to start. Just kidding, I’ve started already, but each step has to be so careful and deliberate. Left or right? And there’s always that dreaded What if?

I guess one of my goals in life is to minimize that certain “what if” but damn, the ones that do get away...

Anyways, I’m rambling again. Just thought I’d hop on here to document some of the things going on in my head. It’s always interesting to look back at some of the crazy things I’ve written. Hi future Scar! Can’t even remember what I came here to write about. lost but not that lost. growing up. maturity. everything comes with a price, but a few years down the line, the price will be worth it. I will get what I want, no matter what I have to do.

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