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Aaw, Hawks' reaction when he saw Endeavor protected him and the kids at the price of his arm.

He will be always his hero. There is little to do.

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When I read the spoilers for the new chapter, I didn't see the fact that the Hawks decided it was worth sacrificing themselves to save the Aspiration for a final blow opportunity. Who will make me sad? Hawks. Again.

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Villains fans have a weird hate boner for hawks like you can’t tell me everyone understand why dabi and shiggy can turn into villains but can’t understand why hawks feel such loyalty to the man who saves his life even though he conflicted with his own family and was strip from his childhood

Oh my god I was just thinking this after seeing the leaks and how badly villain fans are twisting themselves into pretzels to hate on Hakws for literally the same stuff they excuse Dabi for.

I mean, I can understand the hate boner people have for Enji--he's an abuser and people tend to remember first impressions more then later ones. People have abusive parents and it's really easy to relate him back to those RL experiences. Enji did legitimately terrible things. I'm still tired of seeing his character misinterpreted in an almost malicious way, but I get where that hate comes from.

But I just don't understand why Hawks gets similar vitriol, past that he killed their perfect baby Jin, and wasn't the character they personally wanted him to be. And you know what, fine, hate him if you want, but don't try to justify it with moral reasons--just say 'hey this character hurt my favs so he's trash to me'.

I mean with the leaks of 354 I have seen some terrible takes, but by far the worst is the reaction to Hawks berating himself for 'abandoning/giving up' on his parents. That was some horrible writing from Hori and I know if Touya or Shoto ever said anything similar people would lose their shit about how Hori is an abuse apologist. But because it's Hawks saying something negative about himself people are already jumping on it and being like "yeah, he ran away from his past and obviously didn't try as hard as the Todoroki kids".

This idea is particularly annoying to me because I remember when people criticized Touya for running away from his abusive dad, the villain fans were quick to point out that Dabi didn't owe his abuser anything, and that there's nothing morally wrong with it. so, I guess Touya running away so he can plan his little brother's murder for ten +years is fine, but Hawks running away/forgetting about his abusive parents and embracing the saving people aspect of his job is an asshole.

And the just plain bad faith criticism of Hawks telling Enji not to listen to AfO really seems purposeful. Hawks isn't telling Enji not to listen to AfO because he thinks Enji didn't abuse his family or is perfect now--he's telling Enji not to listen so he focuses on the fight and doesn't die and lose, which could lead AfO being the entire world's dictator. I mean, I am just floored by how many people have interpreted AfO being a cunning asshole with him telling Enji some deeper truths--news flash, AfO doesn't give a shit about Touya or abusers facing justice, he's just trying to get an opening on Enji so he can kill him. He's being a manipulative asshole and just because he's saying technically correct things doesn't mean he's suddenly any better then Enji.

It's just really stupid and I think it's personally offensive if Hori continues to imply Hawks is a worse person because he didn't seek out his abusive parents and try to help them. The only way he can salvage this to me is to instead make it clear it's less about Hawks helping his parents and more that he ran away from his own identity as an abuse victim, buried his emotions around it and it personally hurt him in the long run. More, I have to come to terms with having been abused instead of forgetting it ever happened, less I'm a bad person because I didn't try and reach out to my very abusive parents that never showed any real affection for me, sort of thing.

And if it counties to be that latter, people really shouldn't jump on it and defend it simply because it paints Hawks as wrong. If Touya can run away and it's fine, then Hawks should be awarded the same sentiment. If Touya's allowed to cope in ugly ways--like trying to murder Shoto to get back at his father, then Hawks should be able to cope in less then great ways, like abandoning his past identify and trying to reinvent himself as a Hero. It's just not fair to have one set of standards for one abuse victims (with is your fav) and a different set for another (which you hate/don't agree with the writing of).

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Reason to live №1:

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“Since when do we get what we deserve?”

Dean Winchester deserved to live.  He deserved to walk out of that dusty old barn with Sam and those kids and get them somewhere safe, just like they always do.  He deserved to fall in love for the first time - the real deal, with the heart palpitating and stomach full of fluttering butterflies he’d never, ever cop to having in a million years (but Sam would still tease him about it, anyway).  Dean deserved to have a dog of his very own, that he’d painstakingly train to retrieve beers from the fridge and smother with affection and pets and the occasional nibble of jerky.  He deserved to have the time to learn all about himself - what he genuinely likes, what he hates, everything he truly loves, for serious, important, meaningful reasons or for just no damn reason at all - and spend the rest of his life enjoying all of those things.  He deserved to be able to lay back with Cas and make love for the first time - not just some hasty lay in the backseat of the Impala or some by-the-hour notel - but in his cozy bed, with the angel he loves, where they spend hours, days even, learning each other’s bodies and appreciating every inch of who they are, inside and out.  He deserved to have a regular-joe job, one where nothing was life-or-death anymore, where he’d only get dirt under his fingernails instead of vampire blood, one where he could put in a solid day’s work and go home to Cas feeling the deep satisfaction it brings.  He deserved to stop running.  He deserved to be treasured for the beautiful, tender-hearted person he is.  He deserved to have the opportunity to finally set things right between himself and his son.  He deserved to have the chance to get help for all of the trauma he’d lived through, starting from the time that he was just 4 years old. He deserved to learn how to come to terms with his abusive relationship with his father.  He deserved to get to the point of finally embracing himself for who he is as a person, even if that person isn’t entirely straight or entirely super-butch manly 24/7.  He deserved to be a proud and doting uncle to Sam’s son and blush bashfully when Sam told him the kid’s name for the first time. Dean deserved to drive Baby until he couldn’t find a single replacement part more for her to keep her running, and then he’d lovingly shelter her in the covered garage where he’d wash and wax her every couple of weeks just because he loves her so much.  Dean deserved to finally, finally retire - a proper retirement from his civilian work, with a gold watch and a bottle of fine, aged whisky to take home and share with Cas.  Dean deserved to go on a long, long vacation with his husband - somewhere warm and sunny, with big, beautiful oceans the same color as Cas’s eyes, and lots and lots of rum drinks served in pineapples with colored paper umbrellas sticking out all over and their toes curling in the sugar-fine white sands.  He deserved the gift of getting to grow old, the way no hunter had ever truly done before, but he’d tear you a new one if he heard you say such things around him.  He deserved to slow dance with Cas in their living room while Zeppelin played far too loud on the stereo.  Dean deserved to die surrounded by his large and loving found family, with God himself coming back to pay his respects and escort his dad home to Heaven, where Cas would join him again in no time at all.  Dean deserved to have true peace, true happiness. Dean deserved to finally internalize and accept that he was a good man who was worthy of being loved, being appreciated, being respected for who he is.  Dean Winchester deserved to live.

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What would have happened to the Winchesters if s1e1 had never happened:

Sam would have had a white picket fence, a wife and kid, grew old without his brother, and never worried about hunting again.

Dean would have died young and without a partner or kids due to a hunt gone wrong

What happened to the Winchesters after 15 years of character development:

Sam had a white picket fence, a wife and kid, grew old without his brother, and never worried about hunting again.

Dean died young and without a partner or kids due to a hunt gone wrong

Do you see why fans are pissed?

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Suddenly thinking about how this Cas was the only one, the only Cas in the multiverse to invent free will, to love Dean. How it was only in the universe where Cas loved Dean that Jack could be born. Jack is their literal love child. Had to sit down.

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Long post with thoughts about Hawks and some of the criticism he gets below the cut

I feel like because Hawks isn’t a student the fandom forgets how young he is. Like a lot of the criticisms I’ve seen levied his way talk about how he should’ve done more to dismantle the HPSC or that he was a coward for not defying them but that is…. A lot of pressure to put on someone who’s only 22-23 and who would have to try and do it alone because most of hero society didn’t realize what the HPSC was really like. Like you don’t see this same discourse (at least not to the same level that I’m aware of) with regards to All Might or Aizawa or really any of the other older pros and all of them are at least 7-8 years older than Hawks. Literally almost a decade

Not to mention that Hawks is a strategist. He’s been trained to be one most of his life and he would’ve known that he didn’t have a winning strategy against the HPSC or at least not one that wouldn’t come with heavy civilian penalties. Look at what’s happening in canon. The HPSC fell and there’s nothing to replace it, people are panicking, villains are wreaking havoc, and with faith shaken in heroes because of the institutional collapses happening rn it’s made more untrained citizens take up arms, resulting in even more civilian casualties. Don’t get me wrong, that doesn’t mean I think the bnha world is better off with the HPSC, the commission absolutely needed to go but like I wrote in my Basic Instincts fic lmao the only way to take it down without completely destabilizing society and putting civilians at risk is to do so with a very clear game plan for a replacement and both hero and civilian support. I don’t think cowardice stopped Hawks from doing more against the HPSC, I think his staunch belief that the ends don’t necessarily justify the means and his refusal to risk civilian lives unless there’s no other option did.

“Well why didn’t he leave and join the villains?” The villains are terrorists who don’t care if civilians have to die for them to reach their goal. The villains aren’t aiming for reform, they’re aiming for destruction and Hawks would never standby that

“Well why didn’t he leave and become a vigilante? Then he could still save people and not be a part of the HPSC.” Hawks didn’t really have that choice in the first place. He was literally sold to the HPSC when he was what like 5 or 6? The HPSC would never have let him just quit hero work and Lady Nagant’s story proves that the HPSC would’ve been perfectly willing to kill him if he tried to defect. By the time Hawks would’ve been old enough to potentially make that judgment call he’d also be old enough to know that the best case scenario would be him spending just as much time if not more trying to dodge the HPSC as he’d spend actually saving people. Worst case scenario would just be him getting murked. Both of those scenarios mean him saving fewer people in the long run and for Hawks saving people was always priority numero one.

Just my thoughts on the matter though, I’m open to people replying and/or disagreeing with me. I just genuinely don’t see what people expected him to do differently especially considering how young he is.

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Quirk swap!

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Hawks… he is so smol here 🥺

Look at him. Shorter than Shouto, with his lil pudgy cheeks and jacket that looks Too Big For Him

Shouto actually looks older than Hawks in this panel and I am SCREAMING

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I am so sorry, Hawks X.X

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Many of you have asked me where the scans I posted on Hawks came from, so doing a little research I found this, I hope it was helpful and that the translation is good.

Extra chapter on volume W about Hawks:

Hori interview:

-Hawks loves to eat chicken, does Tokoyami like it too? In a general sense yes, it's a heartless decision (Hori-San chuckles)

Extra chapter summary:

The manga's story begins with Deku, Bakugou, and Todoroki waiting in the airport lounge. Deku is nervous. Todoroki tells Deku that if you write the word "person 人" on your hand and then "eat" it will calm your nerves. Bakugou is sitting nearby and is also doing the "write the person on hand and eat it" thing, except that he goes out of his way and blows them up too while he "eats them". Hawks and Tokoyami pass.

Deku says "Tokoyami! Hawks!" But as soon as he says "Hawks" the passengers around the area are like "OMG HAWKS! ????" and then surround them. They scream "AHHHHH HAWKS !!!" and Tokoyami is looking at fans with this expression "please, god finish me soon"

Fans literally wipe out Hawks (and Tokoyami too) by taking them away LOL. Tokoyami says, "Why me too !?" and Hawks laughing "Ah, they don't want to stop!" Deku apologizes for saying Hawks' name out loud like that.

Endeavor then approaches the three and tells them that they will soon embark. Todoroki notes that Endeavor handed him a ticket with a seat right next to Endeavor. He asks why the hell he has to sit next to his father. He demands that Endeavor seat him next to Midoriya and Bakugou, and Deku gets nervous that Todoroki is responding to Endeavor. Bakugou says "Do you still think I'm your friend !?" Endeavor looks at Todoroki very intimidatingly and says "Okay - okay ... I don't care." Deku is surprised that Endeavor is making such a scary face even though he is acting shy. Todoroki looks at Endeavor and says "So you're saying I can sit with my friends, right?" Deku freaks out that things could escalate and get too heated between the two. Bakugou gets angry because Todoroki still considers him a friend and increases the tension. Deku says "Kacchan!" and gets nervous as the three openly quarrel with each other now, and Deku tries to "eat people" on his hand once again to get rid of his nervousness, but it's useless. while Deku fidgets as Bakugou, Endeavor and Todoroki scream at each other. The plane tickets are then tossed into the air and Hawks grabs them.

He says "okay, pick a card from my hand. Man, it's like you're elementary school kids or something!". The new seating arrangement is Bakugou sitting next to Endeavor and Todoroki is next to Deku. It was originally supposed to be Deku with Bakugou and Todoroki with Endeavor. They take all their tickets in silence. Todoroki thinks "Well, if I sit behind Endeavor, then it will be hard for him to try to make conversation with me."

Endeavor thinks "I guess it's not that bad if Shoto stares at my back." Bakugou has a smile on his face and thinks, "Okay, I can ask Endeavor in more detail how she concentrates her power!" and Deku is just happy that things have managed to settle down peacefully. Hawks then says that he and Tokoyami will go to another country, but he hopes everyone can relax but still prepare for the World Heroes Mission.

Deku, Bakugou and Todoroki all say "Yes sir!" before the crowd finds Hawks and takes him away again.

Deku narrates saying "in a distant and foreign land there is a world unknown to us. What exactly will we find there?"

The last scene is of Rody walking for Otheon as he sees an airplane in the sky.

The chapter is also called "No. XXX, Hawks: SOOTHE"

( Credit to Audrey )

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tiny~ ♡

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Hi! I just wanted to ask since you ship endhawks. I saw your post about how Hawks feels compelled to be useful because of the child abuse he endured. Isn't that ship not good for Hawks for that reason? Since he is still trying to be useful, useful to a man who doesn't even realize how Hawks was abused by his own parents and how the support he is receiving from him is a product of Hawks wanting to be useful? I just don't know how to feel about this ship due to Hawks' unaddressed trauma >.<

I came back to tumblr after weeks away just to answer this

SO, I feel like the first thing I need to clarify is that we may handle ships differently? Like, I don't choose ships based on how healthy they are. I choose them based on how interesting I think they'd be. And for me, a lot of the time what makes them interesting is the conflict. I generally like ships either bc I think the characters involved would be genuinely disastrous together or bc there's some kind of external problems that would cause issues in the relationship.

Canonically, I think Hawks and Endeavor have a lot of mutual trust and respect for each other. I actually feel like they have a lot of potential for treating each other very well in a relationship.

But, they have all the baggage of Endeavor's family and their age gap, and their mutual histories of being an abuser and an abuse victim. That's conflict, and I think it's really interesting to explore in their relationship. Would Endeavor pull back if he finds out Hawks' father treated him similarly to how Endeavor treated his children? How would all the Todoroki children react to the relationship? How would the general public react to their relationship?

It's the juxtaposition of two people finding solace in one another but also having to question if their relationship is good for them and the people around them.

As for the relationship being unhealthy b/c Hawks feels compelled to be useful, the same would go for literally any ship with him in it. He'd always feel compelled to try and be "useful" to his partner; that's not necessarily unique to Endeavor. Hawks' trauma is technically unaddressed in every ship, since he hasn't really confided in anyone in canon about it. That's why fanworks are so fun, since you can explore how it might come up in his relationships.

You don't have to feel any particular way about endhawks btw! Ships don't have to go in a like or dislike category; it's perfectly normal to just not have an opinion either way, just like it's normal to dislike or like it for literally any reason. So long as you're not making rude comments on ppl's fanworks and stuff like that, it's all good. <3

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Oh yeah