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Processing My Feelings

i think not having friends actually is really affecting me. im feeling so low and hopeless rn. who do i call when im low? who do i text? im not really suicidal but yk i dont have friendships like everyone in clg does. im sick of being alone but i think i dont even realise it anymore. deva mi asa kai bekar kelauta ki tumi mala yevdha ekta thevlay? kay kelauta mi?asa kai yevdha bekar kela mi ? everyone has someone...its fucking college and i dont have people to hang out with, am i going to be like this forever? clg madhe tari mala enjoy karudya devau please please please

mi kharach asa kai kela hota ki mala tumhi yevdha isolate kelay. majhya main years madhe please deva mala changle friends banvun dya na . i am so sick of this isolation mi kay kela hota ki mi nhemi ekti ektich thevli???? deva please kaman malach?

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I don't have a relation w my class ppl . As in I'm yet to make rltnshp or as in it used to be n now it's ruined. I'm of the second kind. it would be better if it was of the first kind. there's potential.

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WILL I GO INSANE?

i am sick of living with my father and my mother. if they had let me go i maybe wouldve been able to maintain a relationship. maybe. i dont wanna think of the future or what ifs.

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maybe sth is infact wrong w me, around me .there must be some fault in me? this issue has been a long long thing. maybe fault lies within me. i try and try and try to be friends but it just nobody considers me their close thing. i participate everywhere n know many ppp but what's the use if no one would wanna eat with me and sit down with me and just chat w me , spend time w me?

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Maybe no one does infact like me huh. maybe none actually does actually like me for me. maybe. maybe everyone hates me yk

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to be the object of someone's affection

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oh to be in someone's thought

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oh to be wanted ,not for my pussy, not for my tits, not for sex, bc I'm a woman, oh to be wanted because someone loves being around me,enjoys my company

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I wish for a lot of things

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I'd like to think ki me not being given permission and at that time zar sagli enjoy kartait party, trip, friends, enjoy tar mang later on life they'll be miserable and tied . but really? it's not going to happen that way. why would it? mala jaun nahi dila hyacha matlab hai ki tyasni nanatar bakwaas honar tasa thodi hai. tyasni saglach saglikanda pan bhetu shakta an bhetnar

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This feeling of not being reached out, not being thought of . It feels good when someone thinks of me. Maybe it's a rare occurrence. To be thought of

Oh to be in someone's thoughts, oh oh oh

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I'm not sure but I think this changes my brain chemistry. Should I let it change me? Is it fine? In a way I feel like I resist it bc ik it's sth I'll have to attend therapy 4 later on in life . Should I change?