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i had a huge crush on this really cute guy from school and i was not really lowkey about my feelings for him coz i kept on telling stories of him to my friends, i would also lurk around his office just to make my day bc he is like my happy pill and thats all but got turned off when i had to some errands like stalking him again but when i passed by, when i glance at him, he was looking like he was expecting someone to look at him, bOIIII im done, i had to run and freak it about it all day bc it was really embarassing and then the next day, which is today we were having our math class and this teacher has a crush on my crush but she us way too old for him and in younger ofc HAHA and my classm8s were teasing her and then one of my clasm8s teased me too and my teacher was like, "u like him?" literally sounded like she wasnt annoyed, i said no bc uhm btch no dont even start with me, i was so shookt that i even crued after that hell time coz i really was being quiet for my teacher not to know i like that guy coz i have an average grade at math and i dont want to fail just bc she knew i like him tOO, we dont really get along i just dont know why plus, its just a crush, she shouldnt be bothered by that ps. i like a teacher who just graduated, i think and he is in his early 20s, young and hot teacher wow how u do dat :')

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funny how i really did that thing bc u know its for me and my grpm8s grades; so i was talking about the freaking only seat vacant was the seat next to him, it was supposed to be 2 vacant seats and ofc id choose the one that is 1 seat far from him but he dumbass moved to the vacant seat so i have no choice but to yeah seat beside him, i was like u know acting cool about it but funny how i was too far from the computer and had a hard time typing so fast coz i was kinda nervous around him so i act really cool and started doing my stuff like he is not beside me but damn typos got into me that time, i was even listening to how he laugh, damn boi i miss him :---(

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my friend even knew how i wanted him, we were talking abt the guy we will pOSSIBLY MARRY and she said that ill be like, "uhm can u be like --" i wasnt actually surprised bc ive done this so many times, if u will compare him to all the boys i have recently like, they all have traits or just something that will remind the actualy guy that i like bc maybe if i find him in another guy.. ill be able to move on from this shtty feelings i still feel

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idek if its funny but when my not so close friend who is a guy asked me about this boy if he like confessed his feelings me to me, i immediately replied with a no, like im ending our convo there, im just saying that this boy didnt even like me, not even once but the truth is the opposite of what i said, yes he did confessed, not on my face or not directly to me but he did on a group chat while i was gone for like 5 mins? and kinda sad how no one even remembers that, maybe even the guy doesnt remember that, and how that year was hard for me bcos we were supposed to be 2gether but this stupid some1 ruined it when he told the guy that i like aNOTHER guy like this freaking boy i like is so stupid, we werent even a thing so why the heck did u not ask me if it was true, i was just shocked to see u hAPPY with some1 else that day like u didnt really confessed to me dayz ago that u like me 2, i hated u for that but i still protected ur name even tho everyone say that were together back then, ill deny it, i just want u happy, i wanted ur happiness to be me but ill be fine when u choose other gurl to be ur happiness, ill be fine..

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this drama is making me bring back some old feelz that i still feel up to this day, and it still hurts the only thing i cant relate is that the guy was the one who talked to the girl about what happened and obviously i did the opposite bc in that desperate bACK THEN OKAY not like now, im just like going with flow now, whatever happens, happens :---)

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gRABE I GUARDED MY HEART TALAGA 2DAY like wao if i didnt i would probably be blushing til now with what happened earlier, well, im thinking that it would be an issue bcoz everyone kept on teasing us uhmmmm i have very very very high standards, i just like to fli-- hAVE FUN HAHAHAHAHAHA ok fine he wasnt serious and so am i so were a perfect match bc were playing with each other he even chatted me with our pics and every pic has a memory like cRINGEY one, the first one was when we shoot for our play and the next one was kanina lang and the last one wassssss last year at the bus otw to our destination for our camp, i was seating in the jump seat and he is on my left, wereeee sharing one pillow, its big naman tho so it wasnt really a big deal, i even woke up that time and he told me i was sleeping at his shoulder but i really made sure i slept on the arm rest not on his soulder 😂😂 ps. he may be flirty but he is very very confusing

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so im not really in good terms with someone, were kinda awkward together and he's close my friend and they decided to buy some ice cream at mcdo, the guy surprisingly treated some of our friends (we have the same circle of friends were just awk 2gether) and my friend wanted too have some so she followed the guy and i obviously didnt want to get left with boys so i went over to them but when i looked back, i saw another girl that is my friend with my other guy friend so i left them and went over to my other friends, we went to the grocery and bought some cheap ice cream cones and while were walking back where they were staying i saw my friend eating ice cream while holding another cup (its mcflurry) and said that she bought it for me and ofc why would i believe her, she wouldnt do that and the guy that im awk with probably bought it and yes i am right but ofc i got shy like dude is it really mine? he bought it for me bc he felt my op-ness everytime im with them and im like, "aww" so i got it and gave the ice cream i bought to my guy friend and ofc i have to thank him for the mcflurry but im too shy and he kinda annoys me by his presence so idk if i will like talk to him after 9272738 years and my friend, the one i chose to stay with rather than the other, got irritated with my shyness so i immediately got inside the resto and shouted his name twice and when he looked at me i said thank you for the treat while smiling and he smiled back, wth he is so cute i cant, i mean like the way he reacted with what i did but i still dont like him :---) 120817 Friday

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wHAT THE HECK huhu akala ko talaga joke lang yon o like he just wants to stay there un pala kasi naiiwan ako magisa hUHUHU bish i dont even care kung di yon totoo but iM KILIG kaya pala nung nauna ako, sumunod din siya siya at nagstay sa pwesto ko eh im shy kaya tumakbo ako palayo sakaniya huhu hE CARES FOR ME pero hanggang dun lang :---( tbh everytime im around him i feel sk dirty and cringey kasi i remember the things i did for him ughhhh so gross kasi wala ng pakapalan ng fes diyan, g lang ako ng g basta siya HAHA i hope he forgets ol op dat :----(

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i was assigned to sing saamin kaya naman maaga ako umalis ng house like it was really not my usual time para pumunta ng school kasi late ako kadalasan and nung nasa gate nako napatingin ako sa may bench sa harap ko and i saw two girls and like three boys na naka p.e, familiar sakin ung isang girl pero di ko na nakita sino ung iba, i have this kutob na i know them, ang tagal ko nakatingin ah pero di ko namukhaan, nagwalk pako and naglook back kung san i saw na the girl and the guy, i was really shookt na makita sila together, i dont care na naman pero that was very shookening for me 😂 nasad ako sa thought na sila pero nvm kasi idc na nga im not that old me na naman na sobrang iniyakan nung nakita siyang may iba na while we have something special pa 😊

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everytime na nag aask siya ng ballpen di ako nagpapahiram kahit na alam niyang may extra ako di ako nagpapahiram ano siya hilo porket alam nyang crush ko sya eh lahat ibibigay ko? pero para manahimik na siya nagpahiram nako ng lapis sakaniya, lapis naman hiniram niya, maiba HAHA tapos di ako tumingin sakaniya and kinuha niya slowly saken sabay sabing, "thanks babe" HAHAHAHA yes boi lakas mo and nung isang araw tinaas niya damit niya sa harap namin siya ah sira lang kala mo may abs talaga eh 😂 pero i dont like him na, ang fboi eh

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so nahulog kasi ni ano water bottle niya sa pwesto ko so i have to get it tapos naka open na hand niya to get it tapos inabot ko then iniaabot na sakaniya when he freaking touched my hand like he is holding my hand where im holding the bottle, i made a loud "tsk" sound that i actually sounded so annoyed and looked at him laughing at me and i just rolled my eyes lUK AT HOW ANNOYING HE IS like boi i already ignored my feelings for u coz u wasting my precious time and u just suddenly make papansin to me huhuhuhu messed up feelz but im fine na HAHAHA

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when u just badly want to open up to someone bc the feelz ur getting are too much but the person u wanted to talk to is also broken and we just cant really help each other :--( ill let out my feelz here, so today was kinda weird and a rough day for me bc my closest friend just ignored me for the whole freaking day, actually we chatted before we met at school but i was in a bad mood when i got to school coz i didnt want to surrender my phone bc i want to watch kpop stuffs (yes im back b) so i ignored both of my friends and then the game really got real like during breaktime i felt so op like literally i questioned my existence so i just acted like it wasnt a big deal coz im srsly a crybaby, i just shake it off and acted like nothing happened, i tried to asked her smt and she noticed me but not looking at me and very coldy, i just dont know if i did something or she is playing games with me, but gurl this is not a good joke bc i take everything srsly sooooo if ever u try to talk to me ill be cold too, i wont beg for some1's attention

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ang paasa ni crush like wth buti na lang talaga di ako tanga para mafall sa kalandian niya -- kanina kasi ung epak kong mga fren pinagkakalabit siya tapos biglang, "tawag ka ni *ako*" tapos ako shempre na aannoy tas humarap siya saken tas humarap ulit sabi niya, "babe ano"something like that tapos ako, "yak kadiri" sabay tingin sa frens ko at ayon nag give in cHAR jk lang kinilig lang ng slight hAHAHAHAHA i hate it nga kasi porket aware syang crushie ko siya lahat aken hihingin o pagtritripan lang talaga ako pero di ako nagpapahiram sakaniya ano siya special saken? oo HAHAHA jk lang nag away pa nga kami noj kanina eh gagi sinabihan akong bitch dahil lang inaano ko siya na wala syang bolpen HAHAHAHA gigil niya aq ako

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sam1: uy may bago daw si-- ako: fOUND IT im really this type of person tbh, di ko kinakahiya na i luv to stalk people ung tipong nag open ka ng socil media at nakapunta ka na sa pinsan ng bestfriend ng tito niya mga ganyan ba, tbh its so fun to explore things HAHA like ilang months kong hinahanap sino crush ng crush ko eh ngayon may 80% feeling ako na i found the girl na with the help of others shempre kasi nagsasabi sila ng hints and ofc ill do the rest mga ganern 😂 ps. i dont like him na pala im just curious lang tsaka its fun nga to staln diba

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diba nag ggreet muna sa teacher bago mag seat edi ganon na jga ngyari tapos nung uupo na sabu niya, "dun ka nga ayoko ng may katabi" im actually shookt sa ginawa niya at nahurt ako ofc kasi ako katabi niya and shempre di ako nagpahalata, "eh ikaw kaya umalis" u sound so annoyed kasi totoo naman dafuq noh kapal tas umupo padin ako at siya tapos nilayo ko upuan ko sakaniya tas maya maya papansinin ako para sa notes next scene HAHA uupo kasi friend ko sa harap kasi naiwan niya glasses niya so nahihirapan siya magbasa sa malayo tapos katabi ko si ano tas gusto ni friend ko dun ako sa chair ni cherry eh ayaw ko tas ayaw din ni cherry tas nagreklamo ulit ako wag ako dun tas sabi ni cherry, "wag nga daw oh kasi gusto niyako katabi" ayan takte ang feeler ng mokong :----(

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so mu friend messaged me and i saw in my notif bar that she sent some pics and typed, "ur welcome" so i thought she sent some pics of my crush but when i saw it, it was screenshots of her and my crush's convo and guess what its about me, sino pa ba and she just started with ano kung nag uusap pa ba kami (chat ofc) and he said rarely lang kami magusap and she asked kung may feelings pa ba si guy sakin and fck ofcourse i know na wala na, what do i expect?? im not a freaking gem to be kept by him, magsasawa din siya HAHA my heart still ached with the thought of that,with the thought of him not wanting me anymore, i just hate it kasi im like so happy rn with my "new crush" tbh fboi siya but idc its just a crush so i can forget about-- yah ayoko na bwsit

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ang paasa talaga wth buti na lang talaga alam ko worth ko HAHA ang close niya kasi mashado like wala nakong space pag naka upo ako sa seat ko tapos ano di ko na kinaya kanina sabi ko, "urong ka nga don" tapos sabi niya, "ayoko nga" tapos inurong ko siya pero inurong din palapit ulit saken wtf diba tapos kanina kasi ung bottle jug niya nasa sahig sa left side ko sa gitna namen tapos ano nagulat ako diniretso niya arm niya sa gilid ng left leg ko like sobrang dikit he didnt even bother to say sorry tapos nairita ako so napa, "tsk" ako and moved away from him kasi nakakabastos tbh and then kanina din ano science time tapos may activity tas hayop siya kasi absent siya nung ginawa namen un so nakitingin siya sa gawa namen and he freaking stayed on my armchair where im sitting so nakatayo siya na upo na squat thingy sa harap ko medyo naka gilid siya and sOBRANG ONTI NG SPACE NAMEN we were like that for about 2mins i was so shookt na di ko siya ma shoo away ghad talaga anlapit niya ung tipong wala akong kawala dAMN THAT FBOI