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the other silly works I made when I was busy haha

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Beutiful tall lady artist you should totally follow btw > @macromediaflash69

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whatever. roach ref sheet

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Insane crossover that I was delighted to see a few times by other people lol, since I love Chiikawa

I'm glad we're all in agreement that Heavy is Chiikawa lol, although I've seen other artists make Medic's counterpart Usagai, to me he is Chiikabu, but that's just my brain Based on these photos I took of my 6ft cardboard cut out of Heavy with pajama party:

another secret photo of him tucked into bed lol (and featuring my cat)

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Woopsie forgot to upload this one..ALSO YAY I’M ALIVE

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fanart for @igallbladder's creations

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You still want JTHM asks? Because I kinda wanna see your take on older Squee or just squee and Pepito.

You don’t have too but I’m just interested.

asks/requests will always be welcome its just that i will use them more as prompts if i dont have ideas or ill draw them if i really like it. Ill draw pepito and maybe an older pepito at some point but i really liked thinking about older Squee lol.

I can see him being riddled with so many issues but he doesnt take them seriously because he some sort of outlier separated from everyone else. i think hed be the opposite of Johnny where instead of trying to jump through hoops to rationalize everything he disassociates and tries not to think as much as possible because he knows that what might be true will hurt him. Hes accepted there is something wrong with him but he can think of a world that is better.

his daydreaming and disassociations would probably lead him to see schmee as a form of guidance more than protection when he gets older. After all he doesnt want to think what to do next and has been sort of conditioned to not focus on reality so much to the point he is stuck not being able to function properly, plus when has his free will ever been a good thing anyway? if he has something to do schmee will tell him.

^^i still think Todd can think for himself and second guesses a LOT of things but he has no choice but to be this way so its kind of like he knows better but he cant DO better.

bonus stuff: as a kid hed pull his mattress off the bed to avoid monsters being capable of hiding under it and it follows him into adulthood where he still sleeps on the floor. its also comforting to be low down because he feels hidden.

Schmee also gets beat up and dirty overtime but Todd doesnt feel obligated to fix him because he is afraid to taint or ruin anything associated with Schmee.

i also think hed experience that cartoon trope where he meets whos obviously supposed to be his love interest which is just a female version of himself in appearance (like him with pigtails) but he is so mental he feels nothing for her at all and never sees her again.

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In one of his tweets says he doesn't know Spanish i think its one of those kids his parents are mexican bc their grandparents are, so they never grow up mexican so johnny wasnt even close to it

I don't want to get inside jv mind, but knowing how Johnny shares a bunch of thing in common with him, i wouldnt be weird it was his form of view at 19, and what he chooses to priotirize on his characters (like whole membrane family)

since we dont have anything new and johnny's twt acc is deleted (and im sure we are not getting a bsky of him), we can only relay on our own hc

And this is just stuff that's on my mind, but Johnny's relationship with his race could be explored a little. Sometimes it frustrates me when I read that Vasquez gets annoyed that people call him pale, and asks the reader if he even looks like someone who is pale, but the thing is... all official stuff of Johnny that is colored could reasonably pass as white, and this comes across to me as Vasquez intending for Johnny to visibly not be white, yet failing to execute this properly... which is why I appreciate whenever I see fanartists draw him with a darker tone

Anyway, my point here was initially going to be about how Johnny most likely isn't connected to his heritage at all, and considers himself someone who "happens to be Mexican" rather than a Mexican—he's too dissociated to even factor in his race, but I like to imagine that there would be times where it catches him off guard, like maybe he'd eat some Mexican dish and suddenly it reminds of something—home, ostensibly, but his memory fails him and he can't be too sure—all he knows is that it's familiar.

I've also played around with what his relationship with language and bilingualism would be like, I personally believe that he has on multiple occasions forgotten that he knows Spanish, and will overhear conversations and go, Huh. Right. I can understand what they're saying. as a result of that aforementioned dissociation. It's not like he doesn't know he knows Spanish, it's just something he gets reminded of. I also don't think he is particularly fluent, but understands it just fine—he's probably better at listening and speaking (and can hold a conversation if suddenly thrown into one) than he is reading and especially writing.

Another thing I wanted to bring up is the idea of Johnny rejecting his race, not because of super internalized racism (although it does play a slight role into this kind of behavior), but because he's the type of person to be like "race wars are stupid, we all suck" and hate the kind of people who "use race as a shield" because they are oppressed—kind of in this "anti-woke" mindset (despite literally being the guy in the pic) when he's really just mad at the idea of anyone finding community in anything. He is so isolated that he can't fathom why people of color would want to do this and build community because he thinks everyone ever sucks and is against him one way or another. (Kind of like how I don't think Johnny is particularly cis, but would absolutely hate being called trans and/or nonbinary, and would hate the kind of queer person who "makes it their personality.") I can't tell if this last part here makes sense but let me know what you guys think, this isn't a topic I really see talked about.

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ace pride from Johnny a second time

happy pride to everyone remember infighting is stupid bee whoo youuu areee

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