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sorry for not posting for so long.

I just came back from my 3 month south america backpacking trip, which basically was one of the best times of my life so far.

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I wish

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today something amazing happened.

I found an autogene training and yoga CD from my mom and decided to do some exercises. And after I did them, I felt so full of good energy and power.

Today something made like "click" in my mind, because I finally want to live more.

That means I want to live more active again, after I got so lazy in the last time. Last week I joined a gym and I want to go there minimum 3 times a week to get back a good body feeling.

It also means I want to continue with yoga and autogene training, I just recognized how good it was for my body and soul, and everything that is good for me should be continued.

And it also means I want to start eating more healthy. It's not that I eat unhealthy, I eat a lot vegetables and fruits etc, but I'm also thinking of becoming a vegetarian.

And what also is very important, I want to start thinking more positive, trying to enjoy the moment and just live, and not to worry.

I often thought about changing my lifestyle, but I was just too lazy.

But today someting made like "click" in my mind.

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Somewhere in Algeria

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Pablo Picasso

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Ich bin die, die J-M L. heißt, die die lieber zuhört als zu reden, die deren Sehnsucht nach der...

If you want to know how the colour of my life looks like, follow me on my other blog.

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my mantra!

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always

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March 4, 2013 I was unpacking when I heard you walk in. I had on light pink lipstick that I found at the bottom of a box. You put a few things on the counter and handed me my car keys. I kissed you and asked if you could help me move the bed. You said you needed to talk. I keep replaying this over and over in my mind. I don’t think I’ll be able to unpack the rest of our boxes. April 4, 2013 It’s been a month since you left. Mark says you’re not coming back. I can’t sleep. Are you awake? May 4, 2013 I finally went to the doctor like you had begged me to. You were right and yeah, I’ll be fine. June 4, 2013 I sold my engagement ring at a pawn shop today. I bought expensive lipstick and flowers. I also bought a lot of beer and a carton of cigarettes. I’ve lost a lot weight since you last saw me. My friends from high school that I haven’t seen in years hardly recognize me. It’s weird being back in this town without you. I spend most of my afternoons at the beach. I saw a sea turtle today while I was swimming. I miss eating breakfast food at midnight with you. July 4, 2013 I stumbled across the video of you in the car singing Taylor Swift. I deleted it before it played all the way through but I have to admit it made me laugh. I can’t remember how your voice sounds saying my name. I broke down and called you. Thank you for not answering. August 4, 2013 I dropped my cigarette in my lap when you drove past me today. September 4, 2013 I went on a date. He thinks Bud Light is “quality beer”. It just isn’t going to work out. October 4, 2013 It doesn’t hurt anymore to say your name. November 4, 2013 Hope you’re doing well. December 12, 2013 Thank you for setting me free.

These short letters are straight from my notebook, unedited and carelessly written - d.a.h  (via perfect)

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