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what are you running toward ??

love

you want to love and to be loved back . after all , how wonderful is it to be loved ?? you want to be loved romantically , platonically , or sexually . maybe one , maybe all , but you want it to be unconditional . you want someone to hold you and say , " it's okay , you can let it go . i'll be here to catch the pieces . "

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❀*ೃ༄    eyes  widen  ,  step  taken  back  :  “  w  .  .  .  why  are  you  so  eager  ??  ”

oh  .  that's  .  .  .  not  the  sort  of  enthusiasm  she  was  trying  to  bring  out  of  hanabi  ,  who  had  become  unexpectedly  eager  to  bend  her  schedule  at  mere  request  .  hell  ,  she  hadn't  even  made  a  request  yet  .  for  all  this  one  knew  ,  she  was  volunteering  herself  up  to  so  something  .  .  .  unreasonable  .  it  was  a  lot  of  trust  right  up  front  .

composure  thrown  ,  shionne  felt  the  ires  once  more  .  .  .  this  time  ,  they  paint  her  face  a  muted  pink  .  but  she's  at  least  spared  the  worst  of  it  ,  and  her  thorns  stay  in  check  ,  unresponsive  to  the  way  excitement  has  a  way  of  permitting  her  cool  .

“  um  .  .  .  ”  she  can't  even  look  hanabi  in  the  face  anymore  with  her  looking  like  that  ,  regretting  that  she'd  even  bothered  asking  her  now  , “  .  .  .  i  mean  ,  it's  nothing  worth  getting  excited  over  .  i  just  .  .  .  i  have  a  gun  .  but  its  pretty  terrible  and  the  pump's  busted  already  .  i need help getting to fibo . . . nacci -- you're not going to mug me or something , are you ?? ” 

practical  .  always  practical  .

Hanabi's eyes spark and she is really trying to hide the smile that threatens to show itself when the lady begins introducing herself! Her name is quite beautiful, and as much as she'd love to tell Shionne this, she chooses to keep it to herself. Maybe when they become closer friends she'd be able to tell her.

"I have plenty of time! I am not going anywhere. What is it? What can I help you with?" Did she sound overeager? She wanted to be as helpful as she can considering what happened last time!

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❀*ೃ༄   “  well  ,  i  didn't  think  there  was  a  reason  to  be  acquainted  .  at  the  time  ,  that  is  .  ”  and  maybe  now  as  well  ,  if  only  because  shionne  grew  up  in  a  microcosm  .  there  were  people  worthy  of  being  known  ,  and  those  who  were  rightfully  suited  for  the  shadows  .  people  didn't  get  personal  .  .  .  unless  it  was  personal  .  “  but  .  .  .  i  guess  if  i'm  going  to  see  you  around  ,  it  might  be  helpful  to  put  a  name  to  the  face  .  ”

an  unnecessary  justification  . shionne was deflecting , but it was just that there was this lingering sense of well restedness and comfort that agitated her . a comfort  so  foreign  that  it  was  uncomfortable  ;  like  a  bug  climbing  on  the  small  of  her  back  ,  unreachable  .  but  ice  tempers  fire  ,  keeping  her  even  and  focused  . she can't control much , but she can definitely protect herself .

“  shionne  vymer  imeris  daymore  –  i'm  a  little  busy  . . . today , actually .  “  as  if  the  leasurely yawn  hadn't  already given  it  away  .  ”  but if you could  spare  a  minute  . . .  i actually do need your help again . "

She, too, didn't think anything weird when she had first woken up, but....There was a lack of something. Something at that moment that she couldn't quite put her finger on. It took a bit but she was eventually able to figure it out.

I can't see them.

And as the day continued, she quickly discovered that this wasn't just her. Everyone else was going through something. A desire, a dream, a wish, whatever they thought, came true.

...She always did want to know what it was like to live a normal girl life.

"I didn't think I'd see you here," Hanabi says with a soft tone. "I'm uh.....We didn't introduce ourselves before, but my name is Hanabi."

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❀*ೃ༄  “  and  maybe  that's  true  .  ”

but  that's  not  what  she  meant  .  it  wasn't  ever  about  being  capable  or  not  ;  even  the  bravest  and  brawniest  of  soldiers were  reduced  to  whimpering  puddles  once  they  grabbed  a  hold  of  her  –  shock  and  awe  puncturing  through  their  pride  like a  supernatural  omen  of  death  and  destruction  .  she  was  that  omen  ,  and  all  it  took  was  an  unknowing  touch  and  she  would  never  be  forgotten  of again  .

ultimately . . . it felt horrible . she  didn't  want  others  to  fear  her  ,  but  sometimes  it  was  the  easier  route  to  walk  just  to  keep  the  peace  : 

“  but  to  that  end  ,  there  are  some  things  that  can't  be  handled  .  ”

unfettered  , shionne tore her shoe from the brush .

Jill immediately stops when Shionne tells her to, hand uselessly hovering in the air for a few moments before she retracts it. There's a familiarity in how the other woman pulls herself away, denying any help. It's an almost painful reminder of herself from years ago -- Heart encased by ice, wishing for it all to end.

Her lips press together into a firm line, watching as she frees herself and continues her scolding. Eventually they quirk upwards at one corner, and Jill shakes her head.

"I'm not as helpless as I look," she says at first, rising back to her feet. "If something were to happen as you say, then I'm capable enough to handle it."

Whether she's capable or not, however, doesn't truly matter here. Shionne's words still ring true regardless of the circumstance. It's possible that since the ice has melted from her heart, she's become too trusting of others. But she doesn't see a fault in it, not anymore.

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Shionne speedpaint 🌹 (one hour)

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❀*ೃ༄  nothing  about  shionne  is  fantastical  .  not  even  in  her  own  dreams  .  but  that's  not  to  say  that  shionne  didn't  have  dreams  .  hers  simply  took  rather  realistic  forms  :  an  ordinary  day  .  maybe  ,  she  was  simply  tired  of  being  the  extraordinary  .  maybe  she's  just  tired  .

yawn . shionne stretched her arms out and stretched her back like a cat , twisting and yearning for just the right position to soothe her sore back . by and large , it's difficult to pinpoint what was different and want remained the same . . . but she did know --

 “  huh . it's you  .  ”  or  maybe  the  scattered girl  had  just  been  memorable  in  the  way  others  weren't  .  “  you  really  get  around  .  at this rate i'm surprised i haven't heard of your name . ”

must not be anything special when all was said and done .

@hanabisays | phantasm amalgam pt. 1

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❀*ೃ༄ shionne   feels   it   before   she   ever hears   it   :   a   release   of   energy   that   teased   at   her   senses   like   rain  and   connects   her   to   its  dimmed   eyed caster   .   the   overall   feeling   is   .   .   .   similar   ,   but   not   the   exact   same   as   astral   energy   ,   which   piques   interest   but   ultimately   spares   the   woman   the   brunt   of   shionne's   suspicion   .  

but   only   the   brunt   . firing   a   test   shot   is   an   odd   turn   of   phrase   .

“   it's   fine   .   i   don't   care   .   ”   fingers   blindly   work   off   the   cap   on   her   bb   gun   ,   loading   pellets   into   her   rifle   as   her   weight   shifts   but   eyes   never   fall   ,   “   i'm   not   going   to   tell   you   what   to   do   with   your   sleep   schedule   .   but   if   you're   going   to   waste   a   shot   ,   you   might   as   well   do   it   when   there's   nobody   around   to   care   .  and if you're going to practice , better to do it in the dark . ”

it   .   .   .   comes   across   rather   impartial   ,   even if its meant to be strictly factual  : the shots you take always matter when seen by another .

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ʚїɞ - Guarded. That was the first adjective that came to Fern's mind when their eyes crossed paths. She had interacted with her fair share of people over her travels, but it wasn't any experience like that that she drew from to make this assumption. Fern was simply just a naturally guarded person herself.

"Um..." The mage had just fired off a bolt of her magic into the air from her staff. A daily ritual she'd developed to make sure no more of her power had been lost. She could only assume this was related, even though she'd been in a mostly vacant park and the diffusion of mana hadn't been that loud.

"Was that too disruptive? I apologize." She bowed apologetically. "I try to fire test shots this early in the morning to avoid doing so... Perhaps I should start coming earlier?"

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❀*ೃ༄  and  wise  it  would  be  to  be  more  cautious  ,  for  shionne's  rifle  raised  once  more  ,  pumped  and  ready  for  fire  ,  alerted  to  the  sudden  change  in  her  chosen  escort's  body  .  to  be  fair  ,  it  had  been  .  .  .  rather  unexpected  for  the  guy's  eyeball  to  eject  from  its  proper  place  and  rest  comfortably  upon  his  shoulder  .  whether  it  be  an  optical  illusion  ,  or  an  otherwise  daring  trick  .  .  .

what  the  hell  ,  what  the  hell  ,  what  the  hell  – 

“  your  .  .  .  you  .  .  .  ”  timber  quivers  uneasily  ,  unnerved  and  .  .  .  thrown  off  .  man  ,  she  just  wanted  to  get  out  of  here  before  something  happened  !!   “  j-just  who  the  hell  are  you  ??  ”

the rifle may not be threatening on its own , by but the way she shakes it . . . could probably do some physical damage .

"Okay, sounds good." He could handle a threat from a children's toy, no reason to get too worked up. She'd probably get herself into trouble if she kept this up... maybe it'd be best for him to say something.

"By and large, most people here are willing to lend a hand if you just... ask?" Granted, it wasn't like he was a shining example of doing that. But that had nothing to do with this particular situation, irritation from Tama notwithstanding.

"I'd love to help a pretty lady like you out any time, so you can always ask~ Ryuki does whatever I tell him to."

"T-Tama, what have I said about just suddenly hopping out?!"

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shionne's eyes kill me . they're so beautiful . look at her , she's a stunning rose !!

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REPOST. DON’T REBLOG.

bold what consistently applies.    italicize situational,    not always.     cross out what definitely never applies.

DOES YOUR MUSE, WHILE FIGHTING:

fight honorably   /    fight dirty    /  prefer close-quarters   /   prefer range   /  chat during   / go silent  /   low pain tolerance   / high pain tolerance  /  attack in bursts  /   attack steadily   /   go for the kill   /  aim to disarm  /   fight defensively   /   strike first  /   provoke easily   /   provoke their opponent   /   tease /   get visibly frustrated /   shout while attacking   /  use strategy   /   focus on their battle   / experience conflicting thoughts during battle  / rush in recklessly  /   try to read their opponent before while fighting   /   fight wildly   /   fight calmly / apathetically  /   fight with anger   /   fight with excitement   /  fight because they have to  /   fight because they want to   /   fight without regard to wounds   /   run away when wounded /   hide wounds   / take a blow to protect another  /   prefer a blade   /   prefer a gun   /   prefer a bow   /   prefer a shield  /   prefer a spear / naginata   / prefer a personalized weapon  / prefer magic or spells   /   prefer brawling   /   their greatest weakness is physical   /   their greatest weakness is mental   /   their greatest weakness is emotional   /  transform for battle (cannot/avoids doing so)  /  fight as they appear  /  rely on strength  /   rely on speed   /    use everything they have   /   hide their full potential   /   exhaust quickly   /  high stamina   /   doubt their strength   /   proceed with caution   /   behave arrogantly   /   brag after landing a hit  /   belittle their abilities   /  use psychological tactics  /   use brute strength   /  avoid civilians   /  strike down civilians   /   damage surroundings   /   avoid damaging surroundings   /  signature fighting style   /   making it up as they go  /   mastered skillset   /   learning their skillset   /  fancy footwork /   sloppy footwork   /   messy fighter   /  elegant fighter /   accept defeat /  refuse defeat   /   beg for mercy   /   compliment their opponent   /   insult their opponent   /   use unnecessary movements ( flips, twirls )   /   move efficiently   /   barely move   /  prefer to dodge  /   prefer to block   /  defend their blindside   /   has no blindside   /  use all available advantages   /   strictly use one main method   /  play around   /  hold back   /   fight ruthlessly   /   show mercy   /   wait for opponent to be ready   /  strike when opponent isn’t ready   /   fear death   /   fear pain  /   fear killing  /  has PTSD   /   avoids fighting   /  has lost a fight  /  has won a fight   /   has killed  /   refuses to kill   /   wants to die standing   /   would succumb slowly

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❀*ೃ༄  it  is  almost  embarrassing  how  motivated  shionne  is  once  food  enters  the  equation  ,  how  willing  to  cooperate  with  others  she  becomes  .  its  as  if  her  brain  has  always  been  kept  in  her  stomach  ,  unsatisfied  from  a  restrictive  diet  of  :  breakfast  ,  breakfast  part  ii  ,  lunch  ,  snack  ,  snack  ii  ,  snack  iii  --

okay  ,  so  maybe  she's  not  exactly  lacking  in meals .

“  oh  .  well  ,  i  think  it'd  be  a  fair  trade  .  do  they  only  have  kebabs  ??  ”  score  !!  she  takes  another  bite  ,  chewing  thoughtfully  ,  “  i  have  to  say  ,  they  aren't  half  bad  .  although  ,  i  wish  they  gave  you  a  cup  of  sauce  .  it  just  isn't  enough  to  have  it  coated  .  .  .  you  should  be  able  to  dunk  the  meat  and  drink  what's  left  once  the  meat's  juices  have  mixed  in  .  let's go !! ”

talkative  ,  she  is  now  .

｢𓆄｣ Oops, she must be touch adverse. That was his bad, so, he shoved his hands back in his pockets...While he was fresh out of kebabs, he did know where to get some!

"That was my last one...But, there's a food truck not far from here where I got it! Maybe instead of dry cleaning money, I could spot you for a couple of sticks."

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❀*ೃ༄  oh  ,  would  you  look  at  that  --  it  takes  two  hands  to  eat  a  kebab  .  she  doesn't  hesitate  to  take  one  step  back  from  his  offer  ,  eyes slimmed as a warning as she takes  bite  of  her '  gift  ' .  there  is  nothing  quite  like  good  quality  meat  .  smothered  in  sauce  .  .  .  hell  ,  she'd  throw  out  her  dress  for  another  bite  .

“  if  you're  all  that  concerned  .  .  .  just  give  me  another instead  .  ”

｢𓆄｣ Oh, shit. She's wearing white...The brown sauce of the kebab is definitely going to stain that dress if she didn't get it professionally taken care of...

So, he descended from his telephone pole perch and extended a hand.

"Hey, sorry 'bout that! If you want to bill me for the dry cleaning, go for it!"

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❀*ೃ༄  “  hey  !!  "  she barks . it  is  raining  meat  .  except  that  it  is  not  and  shionne  just  so  happens  to  fall  prey  to  a  stray  falling  kebab  that  stains  the  white  of  her  dress  .  .  .  which  would  piss  her  off  if  only  her  stomach  wasn't  thanking  the  great  spirit  for  the  gift  of  free food  .

.  .  .  and  it  even  smells  good  too  !!

“  thanks  .  ”

｢𓆄｣ He's perched on a telephone pole, partaking in a little treat as he winds down for the night. Though, as he goes to take another bite of the kebab he's been gnawing on, it falls out of his grip all too quickly, and unfortunately lands on whoever happened to be walking by at the time.

Talk about unfortunate timing.

"Sorry 'bout that!!! You can have that if you want!" His voice rang from above as he was preparing to descend back down onto the ground.

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hc + 🧡

❇ ᴛʜᴇᴍᴀᴛɪᴄ ʜᴇᴀᴅᴄᴀɴᴏɴꜱ. ( no longer accepting ) hc + 🧡 for a friendship-themed headcanon

" although , i guess i did have one friend : a really old doll . "

while shionne doesn't remember how she came in possession of her doll , its presence was a saving grace . although a doll is not a " friend " , she used it as a conduit for her innate longing to show love to something .

dolls can't feel pain , so shionne didn't have to worry about hurting the doll by getting too close . a doll couldn't flinch away from her and yell in agony at her touch . it always . . . smiled at her . it let her play dress and share meals together . it would listen to what she had to say . though this doll , shionne could imagine and make-believe what it might be like to share experiences of life with another . this doll was her . . . practice friend .

her doll provided so much emotional support to shionne . it was a very well thought out decision to leave it behind when she left her home and set out to defeat the lords , she didn't want her doll -- the one thing she loved -- to see her resolve . she didn't want her one friend to see her die . just as if it were a real person , she respected her doll that much to spare it that sight .

( uh , and her doll is named "dolly" because she's as creative as a brick !! )

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❀*ೃ༄  maybe  there  is  something  to  it  :  the  way  the  girl  somehow  makes  herself  too  small  to  be  seen  .  like  disappearing  before  your  very  eyes  .  it  .  .  .  almost  makes  shionne  feel  as  if  she'd  made  the  wrong  social  move  .  it  picks  at  her  nerves  a  little  ,  although  so  quietly  that  it  remain  naked  to  the  eye  :  try  as  she  may  to  brute  force  her  way  through  every  interaction  .  .  .  she'd  probably  scared  the  girl  .

for  some  reason  .

“  the  phone  is  my  wallet  .  ”  she  echos  ,  pulling  it  out  of  her  bag  and  examining  it  .  defeatedly  ,  she  exhales  :  “  people  overcomplicate  the  shopping  experience  here  :  if  you  have  the  tech  ,  then  why  bother  staffing  the  place  with  a  human  at  all  ??  it's  pretty  archaic  if  you  ask  me  .  ”

woe  is  her  ,  who  had  to  interact  with  yet  another  person  to  get  what  she  wanted  .  shionne  snatched  her  hanger  close  to  her  chest  and  pivoted  to  worm  her  way  out  of  the  isle  ,  but  something  paused  in  her  .  like  she  was  missing  something  that  had  fluttered  away  without  her  notice  ,  leaving  her  behind  two  hours  ago  and  only  now  coming  to  mind  :

“  thank  you  for  your  help  .  ”

and  with that , shionne  marches  off  to  deal  with  the  actual  clerk  .

The lady says it's fine, but why does she feel like it wasn't. It really wasn't. She did deceive the other, but not maliciously! Hanabi clears her throat, and the other's follow-up question, "R-right! Uhm. You see those people over there? You check out with them." Her question is an odd one though. Has she never gone shopping before?

"Your phone is also your wallet. You should have what you need in one of the apps."

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hc + 📔 !

❇ ᴛʜᴇᴍᴀᴛɪᴄ ʜᴇᴀᴅᴄᴀɴᴏɴꜱ. hc + 📔 for a reading-themed headcanon

while books do exist on lenegis , print has been long seen as archaic by the renans . most libraries are digital , and hosted on devices equivalent to e-readers , with physical books (often old collections taken from dahna ) commonly thought of a "decorations" or "too old" by the renan people . it also doesn't help that the media is strictly controlled and censored in terms of what information and ideas are accessible to the public .

i don't think reading is something that shionne can really escape into . its not something she's particularly been good at doing , simply because she has a hard time identifying with a story and the prospect of reading to learn is . . . a chore more than a hobby . having lived so sheltered and without basic human bonds , even fiction is still more of a reminder of all the feelings and experiences she lacks -- i don't even think she'd fully be able to analyze and understand a character , let alone their motives .