ilarosli

[ilarosli]

Why are capricorns so cold?

Only worthy people deserve our attention.

They stay through the cold.

[ilarosli]

Feeling like wanting to write here again, but not just as posts or stuffs, but kind of my feelings everyday, how I’m feeling or what am I thinking everyday. I have no platform to express my feelings anymore, here, not many know me, I’m just a random person posting random stuff in Tumblr. Nobody will care or if so, I’m remained unknown to everyone here.

If you are happened to see my post someday, if it’s disturbing, please do ignore. I have no other platform to express it. At least, I feel relieved. Thank you <3

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What the outer/generational planets mean to YOU

To see a more personalized approach of these powerhouses, check the house these planets are in AND the aspects they form to other planets/points in your chart.

Jupiter in your chart expands and brings good fortune to whatever it touches, whether it’s aspects with other planets or the house it’s in. It can lead to positive growth and generosity, but it can also lead to exaggeration, self-indulgence, and carelessness if handled poorly. Jupiter’s job is to make you see the big picture and make things grow, so it will do exactly that. It’s up to YOU to make sure it doesn’t end up in something like an inflated ego.

Saturn in your chart brings discipline, control, and limitations to whatever it touches. It requires you to work hard and learn lessons the hard way in order for you to gain wisdom from it. It doesn’t mean being doomed in those things, but it has more of a tough love approach. Saturn wants you to build character by growing through hard situations. Saturn doesn’t just hand you opportunities and blessings like Jupiter does, Saturn makes you earn your stripes. It’s up to you to make sure you keep your determination and motivation no matter what challenges life throws at you.

Uranus in your chart gives a desire for individuality, change, and independence to everything it touches. It can be inspiring, innovating, and constructive, but it can also result in rebellion just for the sake of being rebellious, recklessness, and inconsistency. Uranus wants to break down anything that’s holding you down, so its job is to shake things up, be unexpected and innovating. It breaks traditions and outmoded ideas to bring in new and improved ones. Progression is important, but don’t let it take away your dedication and caution.

Neptune in your chart brings sensitivity, imagination, and compassion to everything it touches. It can result in a drive to connect and empathize, but it may also show itself as confusion, losing your own boundaries, and a tendency to be unrealistic and to avoid these things. Neptune wants to feel everything and everyone, it wants to lose distance and be one with others. Losing those healthy boundaries can make things seem a little fuzzy and ill-defined, so it can cause you to lose clarity of the things it touches. It’s up to you to make sure you stay grounded, tied to reality and realistic while allowing yourself to feel and heal.

Pluto in your chart empowers and transforms everything it touches. If balanced well, it can give you a powerful influence, passion and the ability to reconstruct and renew things, but it also can lead to obsessive, dominating, repressive and compulsive habits. Pluto wants to control and use its intensity to sway the things and people it has influence over. It’s important to realize your power and use it constructively, but it’s also important to remember to do those things WITHOUT obsessing or steamrolling over people to get what you want.

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Lonely

Have u ever feel lonely even there's still people by your side?

That's me.

I lost trust for my friends because they slowly started to become different and show they don't really trust me. My parents have problems and my mother can't stop telling me her problems with my dad. I hate to hear that. Can't they solve by themselves? I'm so tires hearing all of that, it's mentally abuse me. I become drowning in sadness again.

My weight is increasing. I'm not lazy, but I lost hope to become slimmer, I eat because I know I can't achieve that body goals. My face become uglier. People around me saying theres no use having pretty face but with a fat body. I give up.

The old extroverted me change to pessimistic and introverted person. I'm afraid of social interactions, new people and surrounding. I'm going to go to a college by next week and I have this fear to socialize. I have too many weaknesses. Sometimes when I speak I stutter because I'm not confident with what I want to say. Sometimes while I'm talking my mind tells me that what I'm saying is wrong.

My family was strict before. I'm not like other teenager. Who can go out and play with their friends, have guy friends and can sometimes hang out to chill. I still feel burden to have less trust by my own family. They think twice of what will I do. They don't trust me.

I don't trust people easily too. Once, my friends backstab me when we were only 12. They make my teacher hated me and I had troubles back then. Then, I went to high school, I was afraid I can't make new friends because I was kind of pretty and some girls be mean to me and create fake stories, at first everything going out well but it was not like I thought. They faked some stories to teacher about me and I got hate by both friends and teachers. My aunt who also a teacher there always nagged to me whenever I went back with her car. She told me I wasn't pretty like others and fat, don't be an attention seeker and so on. I had low self-esteem and still have it. I'm still afraid meeting new friends eventhough I'm ugly and fat now.

Help me. Once, I suffered severe depression because my bestfriends left me alone. I had no friends and at that time my parents had fights and my mom told me everything I'm not supposed to listen. I got my first depression at that year in 2016 after so many years I've been getting down grading shits, fat shaming, other unneccesary shaming and other stuffs. I lost hope to live. I had suicidal thoughts but because of my belief I was afraid of dying and how hurt it would be if I die. I tried become tougher and in 2017 I made new friends, I went out with my friends more because that was the only source of happiness. I thought it had ended. But this year when my high school ended, lots of things going on.

My friend got a new boyfriend after getting trouble with her ex boyfriend and mistreated me and my other friend. My other friend is busy and has other friends, in other words she is an outgoing person and make friends easily unlike me. My mom is still telling me things abt my dad and I'm stressed to go to new college. Meeting new people. I'm so afraid I feel like I want to cry yet my family still tell me that I'm weird. They don't understand. Slowly I feel like I want to die again.

Help me.

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solar system: what is the driving force behind your good deeds?

- hardwork and passion

earth: rivers or seas?

- seas

moon: do you play any instruments?

- no

jupiter: how tall are you?

- im 5'5

sun: if you could live in any past decade, when would it be?

- 90s

mars: do you believe in life on other planets?

- yes

saturn: favourite song?

- halsey's colors

venus: are you religious?

- yes kinda

milky way: what’s your favourite chocolate bar?

-i hate chocs, mint all the way

neptune: what’s your favourite music genre?

- hiphop and something like halsey and bebe rexha. Musics that i can relate and underrated

uranus: sexuality?

-straight

mercury: what’s your favourite school subject?

- literature

pluto: is pluto a real planet or fake?

- fkin real

andromeda galaxy: what’s the farthest you’ve travelled?

- idk its only in my country

ceres: how old are you?

- 18

crab nebula: favourite colour?

- black and pastel colors

asteroid belt: favourite accessory?

- dont like it

pleiades: star sign?

- capricorn

orion nebula: sweet or salty?

- if it's foods i like it salty if it's drink i like it sweet

sirius: favourite fictional character?

- Haku or Howl

eris: what’s your dream job?

- psychologist or psychiatarist

halley’s comet: what’s your opinion on fate?

- it's already destined but it can change with your own action

callisto: do you like ice cream?

- kinda

dysnomia: favourite sound?

- raining sounds

deimos: if you could go to space, would you?

- yes

🌌 25 celestial asks

solar system: what is the driving force behind your good deeds?

earth: rivers or seas?

moon: do you play any instruments?

jupiter: how tall are you?

sun: if you could live in any past decade, when would it be?

mars: do you believe in life on other planets?

saturn: favourite song?

venus: are you religious?

milky way: what’s your favourite chocolate bar?

neptune: what’s your favourite music genre?

uranus: sexuality?

mercury: what’s your favourite school subject?

pluto: is pluto a real planet or fake?

andromeda galaxy: what’s the farthest you’ve travelled?

ceres: how old are you?

crab nebula: favourite colour?

asteroid belt: favourite accessory?

pleiades: star sign?

orion nebula: sweet or salty?

sirius: favourite fictional character?

eris: what’s your dream job?

halley’s comet: what’s your opinion on fate?

callisto: do you like ice cream?

dysnomia: favourite sound?

deimos: if you could go to space, would you?

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sun: what makes you feel like you?

- when I'm happy and not think too much about everything

moon: do you have problem with trust?

- yes. Extremely do.

rising: how/what do people say you come off as?

- cold, distant, unapproachable, selfish, not friendly and these are the stereotypes abt me so i have few friends only and im sure i'll lose one of them slowly

midheaven: what do you want to be when you grow up?

- instead of saying what kind of occupation I want, I want to say that I just want to be happy and satisfied with what I'll get

venus: do you flirt more knowingly or unknowingly?

- unknowingly and it surprises me a lot when I remember it

mars: when was the last time you got mad and why?

- hm yesterday because idk. It stressed me out when one of my family said something bad about me

mercury: who's your go-to person when you need to talk?

- literally no one. If I cant hold on anymore I'll cry or make a status about it then I'll delete it when I'm okay

jupiter: when was the last time you got lucky?

- i dont remember. Very long time i think

saturn: what are you the weakest and strongest at?

- weakest : emotional af

Strongest : my strong willed

uranus: are you rebellious and do you act upon it frequently?

- kinda but depends, if I want it, I'll do it

neptune: what was your best dream and why?

- i met my favourite and he was my boyfriend in it but ofc not happening irl

pluto: what is your biggest aspiration and why?

- to be respected and strongest because i dont want to let down my pride

lilith: what's your biggest turn on in someone?

- when he smirks or when he listens and looks at me in the eyes when im talking

aries: what's your favorite sport to play?

- none but if video gaming is a sport I would like to state it

taurus: are you a dog or cat person?

- cat definitely

gemini: are you introverted or extroverted?

- ambiverted

cancer: when was the last time you cried and why?

- last night i think bcs I remember many bad things I shouldnt have to remember

leo: what makes you the most confident?

- when I have so much knowledge

virgo: what's your strongest subject in school?

- literature

libra: what's your favorite make up brand?

- all

scorpio: what's your most kept secret?

- it's a secret

sagittarius: do you like to party?

- sometimes when I feel so overwhelmed with problems

capricorn: what's the last book you've read?

- memories by lang leav

aquarius: do you believe in aliens?

- yes

pisces: how frequently do you remember your dream?

- 3 times i think

placement asks

sun: what makes you feel like you?

moon: do you have problem with trust?

rising: how/what do people say you come off as?

midheaven: what do you want to be when you grow up?

venus: do you flirt more knowingly or unknowingly?

mars: when was the last time you got mad and why?

mercury: who's your go-to person when you need to talk?

jupiter: when was the last time you got lucky?

saturn: what are you the weakest and strongest at?

uranus: are you rebellious and do you act upon it frequently?

neptune: what was your best dream and why?

pluto: what is your biggest aspiration and why?

lilith: what's your biggest turn on in someone?

aries: what's your favorite sport to play?

taurus: are you a dog or cat person?

gemini: are you introverted or extroverted?

cancer: when was the last time you cried and why?

leo: what makes you the most confident?

virgo: what's your strongest subject in school?

libra: what's your favorite make up brand?

scorpio: what's your most kept secret?

sagittarius: do you like to party?

capricorn: what's the last book you've read?

aquarius: do you believe in aliens?

pisces: how frequently do you remember your dream?

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aries: what are you passionate about?

-Dancing

taurus: name 3 of your favorite books.

- memories by lang leav

- actually that's all

gemini: what was the last text you sent?

-uh couldnt remember not important at all

cancer: if you could choose your child's zodiac sign, what would it be?

- hmm probably libra or cappy

leo: name something you love about yourself.

- long fingers

virgo: what's your #1 pet peeve?

- uh never think abt it but i have so many oet peeves & couldnt even choose one but i can say one that what i'm feeling rn.. someone who thinks theyre right abt everything

libra: describe your dream partner.

-tall, long legs, intellectual, understanding, intimidating look, serious but sometimes shy

scorpio: do you trust easily?

- super hard to trust people

sagittarius: if you could travel to any place in the world, where would it be?

- hmm maybe new york, big cities or besutiful beaches

capricorn: what's your dream job?

- psychologist or psychiatarist or maybe journalist

aquarius: do you believe in aliens?

- yes

pisces: describe someone you love.

- he's super adorable and knows what he wants, he is serious and intimidating but he's an outgoing person, a kind person and humble

sun: describe yourself in 3 words.

- distant, awkward, independant

moon: what's your favorite song?

- frequently changes but rn is Halsey's colors

rising/asc: how would you describe your style?

- I love makeups so whenever I go out, I'll definitely wear those and I wear skinny jeans and trendy blouses. I prefer my hair down. I like an elegant look.

mars: are you easily angered?

- yes but I hold myself to not burst out

venus: what's your aesthetic?

- hmm maybe when it's raining?

mercury: what color do you talk in?

- neon purple

jupiter: what moral do you live by?

- Don't trust too much and be independant

saturn: what's your biggest fear?

- dying

uranus: are you rebellious?

- kinda but i'm a good girl

neptune: share one of your dreams.

- to achieve what I want and be happy

pluto: what's the biggest thing you've learned by far in your life?

- don't be a fool, don't easily trust others and don't love someone deeply unless they show to you first

lilith: do you have any guilty pleasures?

- listens to music while take a look at the outside when it's raining

chiron: have you ever broken a bone?

- never

ceres: are you a momfriend?

- kinda

pallas: do you have a good relationship with your parents?

- kinda

juno: do you believe in soul mates?

- kinda

1st house: are you confident?

- depends. Usually I'm confident with what I've put more efforts to

2nd house: if you could only keep one of your personal items, what would you choose?

- smartphone ofc

3rd house: do you like to read?

- yes but not books

4th house: what does your bedroom look like?

- messy but not really messy, dark with little lights, comfy

5th house: name your favorite movie or show.

- spirited away by studio ghibli

6th house: do you participate in community service?

- no

7th house: if you could choose, what zodiac sign would you like your dream partner to be?

- hmm aquarius or capricorn (i look for stability and long term relationship)

8th house: do you believe in reincarnation?

- yes

9th house: what's your favorite quote?

- dont have one but i like quotes

10th house: are you good at public speaking?

- um no..

11th house: what sign(s) is your best friend/squad?

- i dont really like my squad anymore but theyre a scorpio, a taurus and a leo (with me a capricorn) but i like my taurus friend tho we have something in common and she was right abt most of the things

12th house: do you like to be alone?

- sometimes i do, sometimes i dont

astrology ask thing

aries: what are you passionate about?

taurus: name 3 of your favorite books.

gemini: what was the last text you sent?

cancer: if you could choose your child's zodiac sign, what would it be?

leo: name something you love about yourself.

virgo: what's your #1 pet peeve?

libra: describe your dream partner.

scorpio: do you trust easily?

sagittarius: if you could travel to any place in the world, where would it be?

capricorn: what's your dream job?

aquarius: do you believe in aliens?

pisces: describe someone you love.

sun: describe yourself in 3 words.

moon: what's your favorite song?

rising/asc: how would you describe your style?

mars: are you easily angered?

venus: what's your aesthetic?

mercury: what color do you talk in?

jupiter: what moral do you live by?

saturn: what's your biggest fear?

uranus: are you rebellious?

neptune: share one of your dreams.

pluto: what's the biggest thing you've learned by far in your life?

lilith: do you have any guilty pleasures?

chiron: have you ever broken a bone?

ceres: are you a momfriend?

pallas: do you have a good relationship with your parents?

juno: do you believe in soul mates?

1st house: are you confident?

2nd house: if you could only keep one of your personal items, what would you choose?

3rd house: do you like to read?

4th house: what does your bedroom look like?

5th house: name your favorite movie or show.

6th house: do you participate in community service?

7th house: if you could choose, what zodiac sign would you like your dream partner to be?

8th house: do you believe in reincarnation?

9th house: what's your favorite quote?

10th house: are you good at public speaking?

11th house: what sign(s) is your best friend/squad?

12th house: do you like to be alone?

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Send me

Your problems

Your feelings

Your secrets

Your rant

Anything

Cause I wanna know peoole, and wanna make friends, interact with different kind of people, understand them well, or giving advices if you wanna.

P/s: im bored af too so.. why not