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Hey y'all, I know I've been pretty absent again for a while so I'd just like to give a little bit of an update on just life overall. So I did kind of go through a weird/roughish patch with my partner around our either 5 or 6 month anniversary(idr exactly) but I think we're in a better patch and doing good again and we've been together now about 7.5 months

I dropped out of college, I didn't find myself really enjoying it at all besides friends I made so now I'm trying to find a job rn

And, most recently, I'm going through a bit of a rough patch right now mentally. A distant cousin of mine just passed away earlier this week at 88 years old after being sick for quite a while While she was a distant cousin by blood, she was much more important to me than that. We've always been close to her and her kids. When I was younger(I was still Christian at the time) she taught Sunday school at the church me and my parents attending and I was one of the last two kids she had before stepping back and being replaced by my mother. Now for more background, aside from my biological grandmother who passed away, I either don't have much of a relationship but the little relationship i do have is semi positive(my step grandma) or very toxic and negative and just overall a bad relationship (my living biological grandmother(I could write a whole post about her alone)). But because of that, and just overall negative or practically non existent relationships with most of my family that I've met, chosen family has always been something I've understood and Ive understood that a distant family member can fill a role a close family member can't. So this distant cousin of mine who died was very much an adoptive grandmother figure of mine for my entire life(almost 20 years). She loved me more than my living biological grandmother ever has and ever will and she was, I know in my heart and from her children and even grandchildren(affirmed yesterday at her wake) that she was truly incredibly proud of me and everything I had done in my life and her loss has hit me incredibly hard. I've lost a lot of chosen family in my life and it always hurts. The non chosen family member of mine that first hit hard was my grandmother, then I had a woman who lived nearby who treated me like a grandson(as well as my dad before me) who passed away a while ago(idr how long ago) and I miss her a lot. I had an adoptive brother of mine who died less than two and a half years ago. And now the third grandmother/grandmotherly figure in my life die. As bad as it is to say, sometimes I wish it was the grandmother who I don't really love or care for who died before any of these women who filled in for her, or my other bio grandma who stepped up and filled the role of being the only grandmother I needed. I'm going through a lot of mourning right now and it is very painful and I'm trying not to think about it too much but it's hard not to right now.

Losing chosen family or distant family who've stepped up is one of the hardest things to go through, especially when your abusive and awful close family members stay alive through everything. It's a pain i wouldn't want to wish on anyone truly.

I love you all, and I'll be popping in off and on so please don't be afraid to reach out if you need it❤️

-Josh

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The thing about people saying "masculinity is a prison" and "femininity is a prison" is that both can be true and untrue simultaneously:

anywhere is a prison if you're locked inside.

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bitch this is all you’re gonna get. this life, this face, this body. you better not ‘maybe in another universe’ your way out of everything. sit your ass down and face this. go make tea and have a picnic and read a goddamn book. kiss your loved ones, send that damn text, and hug your siblings. this is all you’re gonna get.

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maybe the single funniest twitter comment I've ever seen

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You are trapped in an elevator with the person on your lockscreen. Who is it?

Reblog with who you get stuck with~

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A cyanometer is a device used to measure the intensity of blue in the sky, often used in meteorology and atmospheric studies. It typically consists of a series of blue color patches or a color gradient, allowing the user to compare the sky’s color to these reference colors.

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Cats logic 🤷🐱🐈

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I’m watching Splash (1984) which is a romcom about a guy who falls in love with a mermaid, and when she chooses a human name she chooses Madison and guy says “that’s not a real name, but alright” which seems to imply that Madison was not a name until at least the 80’s and all girls named Madison are actually named after the mermaid. thought you should know

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feel free to rehog this post

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sorry for how i acted when i was being myself

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The reading comprehension and overall common sense on this website is piss poor.

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And I was there wondering if he’d ever make a chocolate house…

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conservative christians are so annoying because they want to be persecuted for their religion desperately but they live in the most aggressively christian place on earth. so they'll be like "I can't believe you hate me for being christian" and you'll respond "no I don't care what your religion is, I was raised protestant just like everyone else around here, I hate you because you voted for a fascist who wants to kill everyone I love and start world war three" and they'll just keep on with "why do you hate me for being christian" "I literally don't, it's the fascism thing. I'm going to stop speaking with you." "you can try to punish me for my faith but I will never abandon the LORD." "good for you keep it up but could you stop voting for fascists while you do that." "this is just like when the romans fed us to lions."

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Making this a new post so I don't have to Contend with the NileRed coffee post when discussing it.

Behold, the Cooking Allignment Chart!!

If I knew how I'd add a third axis going from Bad Taste to Good Taste. NileRed is Bad Taste, Arin Hanson is right in the middle, and B. Dylan Hollis is Good Taste.