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It`s stupid but I am a woman, 34yo and I don´t know if I am straight, gay, bi or asexual 🙁,I mean,who doesn´t know at 34yo their sexual preference?. I´m a virgin and I never had a boyfriend. I like some women but they are always celebrities, never a woman or a man of my real life. But I also have a strong social anxiety so I don´t know if I don`t have the courage to try to meet someone because of my SA,or that I dont really care because maybe I'm asexual

in my inexperienced opinion, sex & romance are societal expectations and not necessities for happiness at all. if you’re happy living your life as is, there’s no need to look for a boyfriend or girlfriend or try to change how you feel.

 gender and sexuality are both things we can grapple with our entire lives. there’s no shame in still being unsure when you’re 30 or 50 or 80 or 100. 

asexuality is really such a personal label, and i’m not ace by any means so i’m not the best person to ask about it, but i’ve definitely heard of ace ppl being attracted to ideas/fantasies but not real people. i mean i can’t tell you anything for sure. 

all i can advise is, don’t work yourself up into a panic about it all. if you’re ace, that’s great. if you’re not, that’s great too. what matters is that you’re happy in your life as it is, whether that ends up being with no sex or romance, with very little sex or romance, with insane amount of sex and romance, with a girl, or with a guy. it’s all okay if you’re happy, and not being sure what you want is okay too. 

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i was sorting through sideblogs and i came to leave this blog since it’s basically a wasteland but wow it was fun times!!!!!! how can leave behind????? ~A

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Holy crap, I just looked at this account for the first time in what feels like 50 years?? How long has it been inactive like what even?? Anyways if any of you still follow this old dinosaur of an account should I maybe keep it going?? Not sure if y’all wanna hear from me if Arys isn’t here but y’know if you guys have questions I can probably answer them ~Des

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I find a dom/slave relationship extremely appealing. A companion constantly there whenever I need a thing. Sex. A task to be done. To wind down. A cuddle. Someone to look pretty for me.

A submissive willing to be submissive most of the time. Someone to be punished when they disobey, rewarded when they do well. Someone to make dress up for me. Someone to have at my beck and call. But they love it. They love every second of being mine and being owned by me. And I love them and they love me.

Someone who follows the rules I provide them and are punished when they don’t. Someone I know I can do anything to at all, torture, pleasure, punish, reward, anything so long as they don’t safeword. Someone who will submit to me completely, live and breath for me. Be entirely mine.

Or maybe two or three of these submissives. Anything I desire.

They’d call me sir and master. They’d be my little pets on leashes when people would be over. They’d eat off a bowl on the floor. I’d give them treats when they’d been good. They’d lay on my lap as I worked. Be the perfect little pet.

They’d act up sometimes, and I’d positively take all of my anger out on them. Punish them push their limits. I’d spank them and edge them and anything else I saw fit. Anything I wanted.

I’d use them for my pleasure telling them they were just my toy nothing more.

But they’d be good sometimes. I’d pet them and praise them, reward them. Tell them how much I loved them.

I want a d/s relationship like that.

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guys im stressin theres too much discourse in the phandom rn

I know I know I know I hate it ~Des

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How come whenever you confide in someone and tell them you're depressed the only thing they say is "it gets better" like bitch maybe for you, google the word chronic and get back to me

It's hard for people who don't have depression, because the worst they've gotten is maybe a bit depressed, and it got better for them. Although I do wish they'd try to understand... ~Des (woah, I'm back!! And sad!!)

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'how do you know when your period is coming' awkward question cause I just get 10x more horny

I get super depressed but also same ~Des

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I never get any homework done until last minute but today I completed a project a week early, which is great but I neglected all my other stuff to do it (it's cool af tho, it's about bullying and suicide)

well you got something done early n that’s better than i’ve ever done congrats!!! n that’s good! ~A

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Cuz man I'm trans but I think I'm fluid but everyone thinks I'm ftm because that's what I came out as but fuck I have had a crush on this kid since 7th grade (currently a sophmore) and everyone knows he likes me back but if we ever want to do anything I know he won't want to bottom and I'm scared to bottom bc there's like an 80% chance I was molested as a kid and I'm scared it'll bring stuff up if I try plus like is it even a thing for ftm to not mind vaginal sex bc I feel that's not a thing-

And I still want people to take this seriously but I don't want to fuck anything up like I'm cool trying it out but god I don't want people to be like "op well someone stuck it in the thing only girls have so you're a girl you fucking faker" like wtf is that irrational?? Like I know I'm a boy and I know he'd never think that about me but my grandma already thinks I'm faking it and I'm just so nervous. I guess I'm asking if it's still valid for an ftm to have vaginal sex and still be a guy?

Firstly, it’s definitely a thing to still want to have vaginal sex as a ftm guy! There’s absolutely nothing wrong with that.You don’t have to be completely grossed out by yourself all day everyday and never want anyone to touch you. that’s a silly stereotype about dysphoria. But I’d definitely talk it out with this guy beforehand and if you’re really worried it might not be good for your mental state than maybe you guys can figure something else out. Or just wait a while. I hope you figure everything out love <3 ~A

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HELP

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DON’T DIE OMG ~A

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Okay so like a while ago and by a while I mean A WHILE ago I believe you write this hc of neko!dan and he's insecure bout his weight and fluffy smut and yeahhhhh can u link me to it (of u write it or know who did please)

aaaaa i didn’t write this but i remember reading it! i have no cle who wrote it tho ://

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I broke up with my boyfriend because of reasons and he's still a good friend of mine I think but he's been such a douche bag lately and it's pissing me off and I'm not sure I even want to talk to him anymore

Drop him then. He sounds like a toxic person and you shouldn't have that stuff in your life. Just stop talking to him. ~Des

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I feel like it's just me who gets mildly irked about the whole "soft trans boi" thing, like no I don't want to be seen as a "smol precious bean" for gods sake I'm a fucking man hairy man I deal with so much bullshit just treat me with the same respect you'd treat any other man with

I feel that honestly. It's attaching femininity to trans men and that's really stereotypical and dysphoria-inducing. But no matter what, you're still a big ol' manly man, no matter what! ~Des

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Why can't we just all be dogs and gender doesn't matter and everyone's friends and society is set and nothing hurts

Honestly though. ~Des

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There are two very large spiders in the corner of my room and i have arachnophobia pleasehelp

Yo I also have arachnophobia so my immediate answer would be BURN IT DOWN but my serious answer is call someone in to kill it and if no one's around gather your courage and kill it because not that many spiders are like dead poisonous and house spiders usually don't even bite so you should be fine ~Des

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They sent this out to everyone but i think its fuckin funny as fuck 😂😂

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lmaoooo ~A

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Yooooo can i submit the response that tumblr sent to my email 😂😂😂 about the whole restrictions?? I got sassy and they didnt like it 😂😂

omg do it ~A