imnot4writer

[imnot4writer]

It's time to go

pairing: Joel Miller x F!reader (Elisa)

summary: Yes or no?

Warnings: I am not a writer and my first language is Spanish | Angst + Fluff + Bad words and betrayal.

Pov Joel Miller:

Together with Ellie we were living a Jackson for a month, as he ended up getting attached to a girl, so while spending time together with my brother and he told me that someone could better guide me to the university and even further down that path if there is a change of plans.

But now I find myself here:

"No" Is all Elisa says to me. "Why? We just need a guide, I'll pay you with whatever you need, just enough for both of us, you help me and I'll help you" I sigh and she looks at me with bored eyes.

"I have to be on patrol, Joel" She sighs and arches an eyebrow. “Anyway, insistence makes me curious.” Seeing that I don't say anything, she continues speaking. “Ellie would be killed by fireflies if they see her, if they see you, and I'm not going to risk that for pay.” I shake my head but she's already getting up to leave the bar.

"It's hard isn't it" Tommy says next to me, I don't know at what point he sat down but here he is offering me a glass with Whiskey in it.

"I offered her a fair deal and all she says is no, I can't do this alone Tommy" I take the glass and take a big sip.

"It's not that she doesn't want to die over there, but she's looking for her friend, hence the constant patrols" Tommy gives me a somewhat sad look.

"Well, I was thinking of believing that the rumors were true, that I just wanted to be ascended and have the power, but I looked very simple, only that I was angry that I was rejecting me" Tommy laughs and pats me on the arm.

"What's this about him rejecting you?" he raises his eyebrows in amusement and I sigh. "Don't start, you know what I mean, don't take what I said out of context."

Tommy immediately becomes serious, "When she came in she was just saying Sandy, Sandy, Sandy, we thought she had ended this girl's life, maybe because she had been infected but in the end she told me who Sandy was" Tommy comments and takes a sip from his glass.

"Patience" I shake my head. "I don't have much time."

Tommy rolls his eyes and takes one last sip. "Best of luck then, little brother. My advice is to settle in here, because until Sandy shows up, there will be no guide."

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At home with Ellie:

"Old man, I want her to go because you're deaf in one ear and some help from someone who knows the place wouldn't hurt, plus you like her" she smiles amused.

"Ellie, stop calling me old man, and she doesn't want to go with us, not until Sandy shows up."

Ellie snaps her fingers and raises her eyebrows several times.

"You didn't deny you like her, you old flirt" I shut her up with a glare and let out a yawn.

"How about we help her look for it?" Ellie asks me smiling and I roll my eyes.

"It's not easy at all, besides, it's not like she's giving us a fucking ride, her friend might be on the opposite side and..." Ellie interrupts me and sighs exaggeratedly.

"Look, man, I really like Elisa and she told me about her when I got the wrong house, she even gave me a tour and well I was telling her stuff, and so was she."

"What are you getting at with that, are you going to convince her or something?" Ellie denies and puts a hand on her forehead. "No, Saint Joel, you old fuck, you'll do it."

"You little shit, respect me and didn't you hear what I was saying, she refuses" Ellie laughs and then stops to look at me seriously.

"Listen, you old coot. Sandy got lost when she went with Elisa to the college where we have to go, Sandy had heard crazy rumors in Jackson that according to the fireflies she had turned into monkeys, which is stupid, considering I'm a girl, I wouldn't believe it and go on a suicidal path" Ellie comments and watches me expectantly to see my reaction."

"That was stupid, do you know when that happened?" Ellie nods. "Elisa said 2 months ago that's why she wasn't giving up hope, that was too short a time."

"That's understandable, I would try to find my friend too, still don't tell her what I told you and try not to comment on it at length, Jackson's only know that their friend was lost, nothing else."

"Maybe I have another more interesting way to get her to agree, although it might be a little suicidal" She smiles sideways and I immediately deny.

"No, she nor anyone but Tommy will know about your immunity" Ellie rolls her eyes and laughs.

"Well good luck you old fuck, I'm going to sleep" Ellie goes to her room leaving me to my thoughts.

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A day goes by and I decide to try again, listening to a brat, yes, Ellie. I won't expect anything good in this, but I have nothing more to lose and I have little time left.

I see her leaving her horse in the stable and I'm moving towards her until her voice stops me. "No, Joel" She sighed and I frowned. "I didn't even say anything" She turns and looks at me again with those bored eyes. "You were going to, so I'm making you save your breath."

"Funny" I comment sarcastically and shake my head. "I come to offer you something better, something that might interest you and a lot" She laughs and crosses her arms.

"Enlighten me" She says sarcastically and I move a little closer to her so no one else would hear but the horses.

"I can help you find Sandy"

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Pov Elisa:

No, he couldn't have said that.

I freeze and look at him with wide eyes, like he said the most outrageous thing in the world and I feel anger inside me.

"I know it was at the university, but I'm offering to check the perimeter more so maybe we'll find clues, I'm offering you protection too and no arguments."

"What the fuck do you know about her?" I get defensive to his surprise and he tried to calm me down.

"I'm just trying to help" He says but I sigh and try not to throw myself at him, just because he's Tommy's brother and because he's so big he would rip me to shreds.

"You don't want to help me, it's only convenient for you. On top of that I already went to check that perimeter, I wasn't going to leave my friend there without checking well, I've only come with pure disappointments from every adventure, patrol and I'm already tired as it is for you to come in and make your unfunny jokes" My brow furrows and I remain defensive, he looks at me with a glare I've never seen on someone only Sandy and Ellie.

"Don't look at me like that, Joel. You can go back the way you came back, see you tomorrow" I turn to leave but he gently grabs my arm making me look at him again being a little closer.

Well, Joel was a beautiful man and I have even imagined a life with him if there had not been the apocalypse but it's different when you lose someone you try to get away from others so you can avoid suffering through another loss, I know Sandy won't come back, but going back to where he "died" won't get me off the hook (or so I think).

"I'm leaving with Ellie tomorrow morning, that's why I came to ask you" Seeing that I don't say anything, he continues. "Ellie told me everything and I know she is going to kill me but she sees you as her angel and to me you are my last hope" I look at him with softer eyes and smile sadly for the first time to his delight.

"I... Joel, it's not fucking easy, I just want to cry and if I go I'll be being a fucking burden, and worse if I get Ellie killed or you killed, I couldn't live with that" Joel places a hand on my cheek and looks into my crystallized eyes, I sigh as I feel weak before him and surprisingly he kisses my forehead.

"I'm old and of course sometimes I wish I didn't ask this of you, not because I would have preferred it had been someone else less stubborn but it's because it's not just about that anymore, I care about you. I looked for Tommy all over the world and despite the falls, we are together now."

"I can't delay for Ellie, my doors are open, I hope you agree to come with us and all is well, although if you don't agree I would still help you look for her, I just don't have time to do it now as I have to get going" He whispers to me and I close my eyes relaxing listening to him but my "peace" is gone when I hear loud voices at Jackson's gate.

Joel breaks away from me and walks towards the gate, I follow him and listen as they say we can't leave, until they acknowledge us and let us out.}

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Pov Joel Miller:

What the fuck? I watch as Tommy, Maria and other patrolmen surround a civilian the size of Ellie. Apparently no one noticed since it was night and they were only patrolling during the day, still there was a chance they thought she needed help but how did she become such a threat?

I hear a gasp next to me belonging to Elisa and how she whispers something that goes with the wind.

But I also see something else, the look on her friend's face, the tears falling and not out of emotion or happiness.

Something bad was happening and I had to try to stop Elisa.

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Pov Elisa:

Sandy, my friend, my partner in crime, my bad influence, was here and alive, I failed to find her and she found me.

Did I fail her? I don't know, it doesn't matter now, I have her here.

"Sandy" I say low but Joel heard perfectly and dumbfounded he looked back at my friend, she hadn't seen me yet, so I just went and ran to her screaming her name.

"Sandy! Fuck Sandy!" I yelled excitedly, as she had a look on her face that I couldn't decipher as I was so happy to see her.

I was about to make my way towards her until a voice stopped me and arms did too.

"STOP!" Maria shouted. Confused I turned to her and looked behind my shoulder to see Joel, then realized we were surrounded and Joel moving a little away from me but taking my arm, he looked at Sandy and that's where I saw that face too.

Sandy was pale, haggard, watery eyes, traces of blood all over her face and clothes too. Well, she could have suffered until she got here is the clearest, most logical thing, it's not possible to be clean and smell nice if you're out there with infected.

"She is infected, right ankle, we wanted to see how long she lasted to convert and to make it clear before you get mad, Sandy gave her consent if it meant giving her time to see you" Maria commented in an authoritative voice and Sandy shed more tears.

I ignored her and moved a little closer to my friend, but it only brought the patrolmen closer, issuing warnings.

"Let your guard down, shit. She's not even coughing or anything, so please just let me have a conversation with her" I looked at Joel and Joel understood, he looked at Tommy and Tommy looked at Maria, Maria nodded and raised her hand for them to put their guns down.

"I took the blue road" That's what Sandy said as I moved a little closer to have a more intimate conversation, though it was no use having Joel behind me. I shook my head with a frown and lowered my gaze so as not to show my unruly tears.

"Fuck you, Sandy. Shit, I told you, don't go down that road, I told you a thousand times" I scolded in a shaky voice.

"I was reckless since we went to college, it was my fault and shit, I don't even deserve this, to see you, for you to see me like this, maybe I had to just get it over with" She says sobbing, which only makes my heart break.

"No, I don't want you to blame yourself for this either, I was to blame too, shit, I don't want to lose you, you find me and now you leave? I don't want that, Sandy" My gaze follows down and she calls me but I can't see her, my gaze goes to her ankle and I let out a loud sob, embarrassed for the people around. She calls me back but I see her fingers start to tremble and I fear her transformation is coming but that happens too when she has something to say, something hidden, a lie or just something new.

When we were cornered by the infected, I found a way out, I met a guy, Nathan. He was gorgeous, like those guys in magazines, I liked him and he helped me, but I wanted to come back for you, the problem was he told me there wouldn't be room for both of us, then he gave me the choice to come back for you and help you or go with him and save myself, and, shit, you know the decision I made"

I frowned and that's when I looked her in the eyes, showing my face full of tears but now of anger, when she said all that barbarity and betrayed, offended, hurt I decided to move away from her a few inches.

"Don't walk away, please" She tries to put her hand on my shoulder until she hears a growl.

"Don't touch her" Joel says angrily and gives her an intimidating look, enough to make her back away.

"What happened next?" I ask directly and continue with my frown. "We went to a cabin they had, it was hidden, so he introduced me to his group of friends, it was only three including, but one didn't like me very much, then I just tried to be like them, so when I offered to look for you, because I couldn't handle the guilt of you dying or getting hurt, they told me it might be too late and one of them told me I would have to go out and look for you because I wasn't sure and you might have been able to survive but I decided to leave it up in the air and went on with them. They left me later when we were attacked by clickers, just like I left you."

I shook my head and with my eyes already lifeless, I hugged her tight alerting Maria and she raised her hand again so that this time if aimed, Joel tried to push me away but I kept hugging her until I quickly pulled away and spat. "Fuck you."

I turned and ignoring their calls, I went running towards my house, as I entered the last thing I heard was a gunshot and I closed my eyes tightly, I took a deep breath and headed to my basement.

If someone knocked on my door who could think it was Joel, Maria, Tommy or even Ellie, I wouldn't know since I fell asleep.

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Pov Joel Miller:

I walk out next to Elisa heading straight to the stables to leave, until he stops in his tracks and confused I look in the direction he points.

"Elisa?" he says and I get much closer, sure enough, it was Elisa along with a horse and her backpack where she was carrying supplies as if she was going on an adventure or patrol. She was a little puffy eyed and understandably so because of what she had been through.

Have you come to say goodbye or are you going on patrol, darling? I raise my eyebrows and look into her eyes, she smiles with a slight denial.

"I'm coming with you" To my and Ellie's surprise, our eyes widen like saucers.

Ellie nods and smiles. "We knew you were coming, now if Joel won't be so grumpy during the ride" Elisa blushes a little and Ellie laughs. "Ellie go say goodbye to Shimmer."

She rolls her eyes in amusement and goes to the horse, Elisa clears her throat and hesitantly says to me. "So, if I can go or did the offer expire?" I smile a little at her. "I'm glad you're coming with us, you'll be fine, we'll be fine, I was worried about you staying."

"All thanks to you Joel, in fact, I was going to come anyway. I care about the girl and so do you, I don't mind talking to you guys, so I was pleased to meet you even though I didn't show it much because of my shitty attitude" He smiles at me and we stood looking into each other's eyes, without thinking about it I moved a little closer.

"Are we leaving or what, lovebirds?" Ellie pulls us out of our bubble and I nod along with Elisa.

"We're leaving."

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See ya!

[imnot4writer]

It's no better to be safe than sorry - TLOU

pairing: Joel Miller x F!reader

summary: Basically the same thing from the DLC when Riley and Ellie dance but instead Joel and reader dancing "take on me". Wait, Joel dancing?

Warnings: I am not a writer and my first language is Spanish. Fluff + angst.

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During your patrol with Joel they found a shopping center and decided to explore it. First they managed to turn on the lighting, causing them to gaze in wonder at the place. They started looking for useful things and you came across an electronics store, while Joel was putting some comics for Ellie in his backpack, you were inspecting the place.

"Hey, Joel, do you think this thing still works?". You call out to him causing him to avert his gaze to you. Curious, Joel gets up approaching your side and sees a cassette player.

"Well, there's electricity, so let's assume so, maybe you should try it in Jackson, put in your backpack." He commented while he saw the object.

"Of course not, man. We're already here and better see that it'll be worth carrying it and not take up unnecessary space in the backpack." You grinned at him from ear to ear, until your eyes fell on the cassette and you opened your mouth in surprise.

"Girl, I don't think it's best to try it here, we should go back to Jackson." Joel denied and looked at you clutching the cassette. "Wow."

"Yeah, wow" You laughed and watched carefully. "I wonder why the people who were here before didn't take this?"

"Maybe because they were looking for supplies and not music" Joel sighed as he watched you play the cassette and shook his head. "We don't have time for this, we have to go."

"Oh come on man, we won't have time to stick a good dance there, come on" You encouraged Joel in vain, at his refusal and shrugged your shoulders, climbing onto an empty but dirty platform, starting to move to the beat of the music surprising Joel.

Joel watched you a little longer and held back the laughter he got from the situation, along with Ellie you were his weakness, you didn't know it and he wouldn't let you know it, he couldn't lose anyone else or get attached but it was too late now.

"What are you doing girl?" Joel covered his face with one hand and continued to shake his head. "Yes, you really are stupid"

"Yeah, yeah, whatever you say, man, get over here and move your fucking skeleton" You stopped dancing and stretched your arm out to Joel, inviting him."

"No and it's my last word" He shakes his head and sees how you narrow your eyes, he frowns as he sees you get off the platform and look for something in your backpack. "What are you doing?" Confused, he watches as you take a blindfold and put it over your eyes.

"I won't see you dance. Now, help me up again and dance with me" You smiled slightly and again stretched out your arm. "So, are you coming or not?" 1 minute later without saying anything you wrinkled your forehead and sighed. "My arm gets tired."

Joel sighed louder and threw his head back, grunting. "Fuck it" You laughed and felt him grab your arm to help you climb back on the platform next to him, slowly Joel started to move hesitantly until he let go completely, dancing to the music, feeling free after a long time.

Since you couldn't see anything, every time you approached the edge, Joel would grab your arm so you wouldn't fall, an action that made you blush a little. Letting go more you stretched your feet to the rhythm careful to kick him but you kicked something else that fell outside the tent and neither of you noticed the noise it generated.

You didn't even get to think that every action brings a consequence, bad or good, but life decided to let you know again and tell you to your face to stop being so careless in an apocalypse.

Bringing some runners towards you.

You became alert when you heard some shouting and quickly removed your blindfold, watching Joel dance, he was in his own world, but you couldn't stare for long as one runner appeared throwing himself against the shop window and another against the platform.

"What the fuck!" shouted Joel and quickly pulled his pistol out of his pants shooting one runner, you copied his action a little scared managing to kill the other remaining one. As you continued to hear more screams you got off the platform.

6 remaining runners came towards you and you managed to take down one but another one came very close to you and you needed to reload your weapon, Joel while he was taking care of the others, but you were being very useless, so you took a camera that was lying around and hit him in the head, you kicked another runner that was coming but the camara you were going to use to attack him got stuck. The runner again came towards you, knocking you to the ground and you tried to force him not to bite you, he was so close until you heard a shot and a lot of blood splashed on you, you pushed the body to your side and saw Joel at the other end on the ground trying to regulate his breathing.

And the song ended.

They looked into each other's eyes and you rushed over to him. "Shit, forgive me, Joel." You looked down as your eyes started to crystallize and you wouldn't let them see you cry.

"Girl…" His hand wanted to reach up to stroke your hair, but he reached down to your back and patted you.

"No, I know what you're going to say, that I was irresponsible and yes, I know, I was, I accept that, I'm so sorry, Joel" You interrupted him and let some unruly tears fall until you felt him grab your chin to make you look him in the eyes.

"You were irresponsible and I really hope this never happens again" Your tears kept falling and you felt stupid for not holding them back. Joel continued talking and with his thumb he wiped away your tears. "But I know you didn't mean to and you made me feel free after so long, this was what I needed."

His words surprised you and you stamped your lips with his, you didn't know if it was for the adrenaline or it was an excuse to kiss him, after all you loved him but Joel didn't stay behind and sent everything to hell again because he reciprocated your kiss, becoming more passionate and you separated only for lack of air.

"Shit" they said at the same time and started laughing. "We need to get going now and bring the cassette" Joel said, helping you up.

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Reader every time Joel told her they had to leave: