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All I Want - Ginny Weasley x Female Reader

Based off of the song ‘All I Want’ by Kodaline. Lmk your thoughts :) Also if there are any spelling errors please tell me, I wrote this even though my eye is still incredibly swollen from when I injured it a few days ago, so there may be some mistakes.

Warnings: angst

Ginny please come back. You can’t leave me here. You just can’t. I was your first love, I love you. I need you, come back now. PLEASE.

All I want is nothing more

Than to hear you knocking at my door

Cuz if I could see your face once more

I’d die a happy man I’m sure

Flat on the floor, you lay. The ceiling is the only thing in your line of vision. The creaking hub-mounted rotating blades being the only thing cutting the silence of you and your thoughts. Ginny. Ginny Weasley. Or maybe Ginny Y/L/N. Your last name or hers? No, her last name. But she’s Ginny Potter.

The bitterness of the words in your mind, pounding at your skull. Curse you for letting her walk away that fateful day without a strong fight. Letting her love slip away from your trembling fingers. She was all you needed, and she left you.

Ginny has better. Ginny deserves better. You’re nothing. She loves him. You are a mere memory. Get out of Ginny’s life. Fuck you.

You needed her like you needed air to breathe. Like a fish needs water. Like a human needed love. Each day you prayed that the desperation in every word you speak was enough to steer Ginny back to you. But you weren’t enough for her. She was better without you. But you’re not better without her.

You’re only half the woman you used to be. The other half resides in the lost memories of you and the red headed angel that you once called ‘your sweetheart’. No longer though, no longer.

Staring back up at the ceiling, you imagined what it would be like if the world caved in right now. The ceiling was interesting really; so plain yet so vast.

So blank and meaningless but it kept your house from falling down. One wouldn’t look at a ceiling and think anything of it. The way people disregard its use upsets you. Imagine if the ceiling fell down.

So would your house.

So would the furniture.

So would the trinkets and belongings.

Then someone would care.

If the ceiling fell down so would your whole life.

Ginny. When she fell, when she left. Your life did too.

Were you this pathetic? Comparing Ginny to a ceiling of all things. However, she was the only thing keeping you from collapsing into oblivion. You held onto the hope that Ginny would take you back.

Any minute now she’d be knocking at your door, kissing you like she used to. Make love to you like she used to. Touching you like she used to. It would all come back.

Any minute now.

She’s coming.

She’s here.

No, no she’s not.

When you said your last goodbye

I died a little bit inside

I lay tears in bed all night

Alone without you by my side

(Flashback)

“Ginny love!” you exclaimed, skipping over to meet the freckled beauty. The sunlight caused her fiery red hair to appear even more perfect. If it was possible.

The leap of your heart when you saw her face was unmatched to any other expression you had felt your whole life. When you’re with Ginny, the only feeling that courses through your body is sheer jubilation.

A nice feeling, it is; being in love. It was almost as if you gained back all that you had lost during the Battle of Hogwarts last year. Gained back every ounce of exultation that was wiped away from you for a year.

However, there was no denying one fact that was widely known throughout the Wizarding World. The Battle changed everyone.

You had taken painful notice to one person in particular it changed. Ginny.

She no longer had that iridescent sparkle in her eye; it was replaced with a longing look of something you couldn’t quite put your finger on.

You just thought it was the fact that Fred was no longer with us, but hidden in Ginny’s deep aqua eyes, you realized it was more than that.

She had become awfully distant from you; not answering your letters, skipping on your planned meet up times, last week she almost forgot it was your birthday. Ron had to remind her. Ron.

There’s no way she forgot what today was, right? It was the one year anniversary of the day you both said ‘I love you’ to each other. Also the day you both began the most amazing relationship of your life after four long years of secretly loving each other.

That day was burned into your memory like no other. In the middle of the Battle, Death Eaters hot on your tails, you proclaimed your undying love for Ginny Weasley. One which she so genuinely reciprocated.

“Love!” You called out once more, an unknown object held behind your back; your fingers itching to rip it out from its hiding spot and give it to her. Just a few more minutes.

“Oh, hey Y/N.” said Ginny absentmindedly, her red locks being twisted in between her middle and pointer finger. Her attention was captured by something past you,

“Oh I just remembered I had to go do something for Potions.” she lied right through her pearly whites. “You know how Snape is.” Laughing nervously, Ginny began swiftly walking away; her eyes narrowed away from your watery gaze.

“Wait Gin, it’s our-” Your words were cut short by Ginny sweeping herself away from ear shot. You watched as the red head ran over to the seated spot of Harry Potter. The Boy Who Lived.

The Boy You Envied.

Ever since the final battle between The Chosen One and Voldemort, Ginny seemed to be more keen towards Potter. It tore you apart, shred by shred, to see them getting along better than you and her ever could.

But today.

She really did this to you today. A tight pang hit the center of your chest, one that you thought would make you drop to the ground instantly. You clutched the sore spot as tears stung in the back of your eyes; your breath getting caught in the back of your throat.

Standing in the middle of the courtyard, you had to physically restrain yourself from erupting in hot tears. As you pivoted on your heel to make your way back to the dorms, your love called out to you.

“Y/N!”

You whipped your stature around, the tears evaporating and the sharp hit in your chest was replaced with a warm feeling.

She jogged over to stand right in front of your beaming figure, taking notice to the object that was set in your trembling hands. “Yes honey?” You bit your lip in anticipation, awaiting the magical words from Ginny’s angelic voice.

Ginny was quivering; an emotion you were yet to see from her. She roughly cleared her throat. “We need to talk.”

“I most certainly agree,” you sighed in content, preparing to pull the object out from your balmy grasp. “Happy anniver-”

“We need to break up.”

“-sary.”

“I’m sorry.” quipped Ginny, her eyes containing no emotion this time. Just a cold, hard stare. You couldn’t believe your ears. On your anniversary too. You stood there awkwardly, not sure how to react. Ginny’s sneaker-clad feet remained planted on the grass, waiting for a response.

“Oh.” The short word was enough confirmation Ginny needed to turn on the ball of her foot and began bounding away; only to be stopped by your sharp voice cutting through the harsh wind.

“Why?” You seethed, your voice laced with a mixture of hurt and anger. At this moment you couldn’t decide which one was more powerful. Ginny slowly turned her head to meet your puffy eyes.

She inhaled deeply, “I just don’t think we’re good for each other anymore.” Her eyes darted to the almost falling present that was slipping from your palms. “And also,” she glanced back to the raven haired boy looking at her with a loving stare. “I love Harry now.”

Her cold words fell upon deaf ears, except for the mention of Harry’s name. You too looked at Harry, an apologetic smile gracing his face. You felt like an idiot. A damn idiot. Did you really give everything to Ginny, only to have her rip it away from you in a split second?

“Y/N?” whispered Ginny, searching for any expression on your blank face. Gulping down a breath, you cracked out the first phrase that came to your mind before shoving the object that you so desperately wanted to give to her into her soft hands; a bracelet with both of your initials engraved into its metal exterior.

“I hope he loves you as much as I do.”

But if you loved me

Why’d you leave me?

Take my body

All I want is

And all I need is

To find somebody

I’ll find somebody

Like you, oh, oh

Oh, oh

You

Like you

The memory passed just as soon as it came, burning the back of your skull like someone was trying to beat you repeatedly in the head until you accepted the fact that Ginny didn’t want you back.

Why would she anyways?

She had a great family, great wealth due to Harry’s fame, and a great husband. You snorted a laugh to yourself at the word ‘husband’.

Back in fourth year when Ginny approached you to tell you that she had a crush on you, she and you had an unspoken promise that you would wed each other after Hogwarts. Never would you imagine her with that Pothead.

But she’s happy. So you’re happy.

Right?

Wrong. You weren’t happy, you even gave up on trying to convince yourself that you were. But on the off chance that your subconscious would believe it, you repeated it everyday.

Over and over and over again. It’s been two long years without Ginny and you kicked yourself for never letting it go. It was a dull numbness that resided in your body and would never leave until you got the love you needed.

It was truly sickening to feel the way that you did and a part of you wanted Ginny to experience how this felt. You had to understand that your and Ginny’s love was ill-fated. It never would have worked. You two were just too different, not in the good way.

It was only a matter of time before she packed it all up and left you with the remains of your tears and nothing else. You’ll be alright though, there are others out there. So many people. So many people.

None of which were Ginevra Weasley.

‘Cause you brought out the best of me

A part of me I’d never seen

You took my soul and wiped it clean

Our love was made for movie screens

The love you two used to share was one that could only be thought of in fairy tales. And you believed every bit of it. That you both would live Happily Ever After. What a load of bullshit.

The way she used to braid your hair; stupid.

Cuddle with you after a bad day; stupid.

Tell you that you were her one and only.

Stupid, stupid, stupid.

You shouldn’t have believed everything that you heard, it just came back to bite you in the ass. But something that you couldn’t deny, no matter how much you wanted to.

Ginny caused you much pain, but the happiness that she provided you with throughout your years at Hogwarts kept you going. Your head was flooded to the brim with heartfelt memories of you and the youngest Weasley.

And it hurt you to know that you held onto these recollections so tight, the mere thought of them slipping away struck you in your already broken heart. You tried to give Ginny everything that you could; the moon, the stars, and the rainbows.

But what needed could still never be given by you. Even though you never had much conversation with Harry, you still felt as if you were overshadowed by him and what joy he could bring to Ginny.

You saw the longing gazes he directed towards her; a type of look that you wished she would give you.

You wondered each day what life would be like if she was still your love. Glancing over to the fireplace and the recliner perched in front of it, you imagined your head resting on her chest as she smeared adoring pecks to your hairline.

That was something you always did. Or when she laid with her back to your front as you traced words onto her freckled dotted skin, the contact usually making her jump from the tickling sensation.

The laughs you shared echoed in your ears and remained there until you felt them drift off into the distance.

The only fatal flaw in your love for Ginny was that you never thought to give your life to someone else other than her. You should have been able to move on after her just as quick as she did, but you didn’t want to.

You wanted her.

Only she can bring the warmth back in your heart and replace the numbing stab in it.

She has to be the one to pick up the pieces and bring you back to one. Her and only her. Ginny Weasley. You could have been Y/N Weasley.

Almost, but not yet.

Writing this made me sad :( but I hope you all liked it and please let me know if you did!

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improbswriting · 4 years ago

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Insecure

My requests are open 🥰

This one shot contains:

•Body insecurity's

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I looked at myself in the mirror and sighed. How could Draco love me? I had big thighs and a stomach and I probably weighed way more then him. He said I was beautiful but I didn't feel like it. I had chubby cheeks and dracos face was so slender. It hurt to know that he looked way better then me.

I quickly snapped out of my thoughts when I realized that Draco was coming back to my dorm from his dorm. I quickly lowered my shirt and layed back down on the bed. I got back under the covers and then he came in the door. "Hey darling, sorry I took so long, I got you one of my hoodies to wear, i know you would look beautiful in it." He said while sitting down and handing you the hoodie. You looked at it and thought, what if I stretch it out? Or what if it fits me tightly and Draco sees how big I really am.

As you were thinking you realized you started tearing up. Draco looked at you eyes and noticed you were tearing up right away. "Baby what's wrong, did I do something to upset you?" He asked worried. "I-" you started before you broke down into tears. Draco pulled you into his chest and was stroking your hair. "Tell me what's wrong darling so I can fix whatever it is." He said in a soft tone.

"You can't fix the fact that I'm fatter then you draco." You said into his chest. He pulled your head out of his chest and looked at you with sad eyes. "What do you mean love?" He asked. "I weigh so much more then you, and my thighs are way bigger then yours, and my face is chubby while yours is slender, and my stomach. Don't even get me started on my stomach. You have abs but I don't, all I have is fat. Its's just, why are you even with me you could have any thin girl in Hogwarts, why me?"

Draco sighed. "I absolutely love your thighs, I love to put my hand on them, squeeze them, kiss them, and even have them near me, they just bring me so much happiness. You face, is so beautiful I don't even see that you have a "chubby face", all I see is my beautiful girlfriend, and when I'm kissing you I love touching your face, it wouldn't matter it you had cheeks the size of my head I'd still love you the same. Your stomach, oh how I live your stomach. All that "fat" is what keeps you healthy and going, without it, first of all you would die from starvation and second the fat on your stomach or any girls stomach for that matter protects their uterus, so one day a little Malfoy can grow in their. And darling, I don't care about your weight, you could weigh 500 pounds and I'd still be here, I just want you to be healthy and happy, but I want to also be healthy and happy, and the only way I can be happy is if you know how beautiful you are. I love you so much, and all these things that are "wrong" in your mind make you even more beautiful to me. I love you." Draco said with tears now running down his face.

You were now crying too but more happy crying because Draco just made you fell a lot better. "Thank you" you said while looking up at him. "Your so very welcome, now put my hoodie in I wanna see it on you." He said with a smile in his face. You slipped the hoodie over your pajama shirt, and he was looking at you in awe. "You look beautiful" he said while pulling your head in his chest. He then pulled your whole body onto his. And that's how you fell asleep, in his arms. And he enjoyed it just as much as you did.

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Hi loves! I just wanted to remind you all that you are beautiful no matter what, I come from a place of being insecure about my body, I know how hard it is to think your beautiful, but if your ever feeling down about your body tgink about what Draco said in this story. From shifting experience this is exactly along the lines of what he said, he loves all body types and thinks all body types are beautiful. I love you all! Thank you for reading! And my inbox is always open! 💖

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improbswriting · 4 years ago

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hiii <3

Omg hii your like my first mutual 🥰

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PLEASE LETS BE MUTUALS!!!! I THINK THAT YOU LOVE GREYS ANOTAMY TOO!! 🤭🦋🦋🦋🦋😭

hi:) can i request an imagine where draco cheats on the reader and he doesn’t regret it cuz maybe he thinks he’s falling in love with the other person (the girl he cheathed y/n with)??idk if this makes sense :(

wait wait wait I HAVE A REQUEST ?? omg- guys this is a moment for celebration. it’s your lucky day because i’ll make this a long one. and yes that make perfect sense!! i’m so excited to write this especially because i don’t usually write angst but i think you’ll like it.

p.s. a small portion of this oneshot will have quote from a scene from greys anatomy. (2x24) i love that scene and i think it fit in well with the story.

and once again... don’t feel shy to send requests because i get so excited to hear what you guys want !

liar, liar, pants on fire

draco x reader

it had been three months. three months since you broke up with draco. three months since you found that skank in your bed.

people always say, “it will get better with time” , “the pain fades eventually”. they were wrong. what kind of bullshit is that? if anything, it hurts more.

you and draco had been together for over a year. it had started off with secret kisses, him showering you with gifts, sneaking out past curfew. even after being together for over a year it still felt like the honeymoon stage. you never fought. you never got on each other’s nerves. everything was perfect. or so you thought.

you had slipped out your bedroom when your roommate fell asleep and were making your way to dracos room. usually, you and draco would plan what nights you would spend together but you were craving his touch. he had been so distant lately. when your friends had brought up that it seemed you were spending a significant amount of less time together you brushed it off and said it was because he was stressed for the O.W.L.S.

you crept slowly in the halls and found your way to dracos door. knocking silently you waited. after the second knock, draco opened the door. as soon as you saw his face you knew something was wrong. he looked like a deer in headlights. he was obviously caught in the act of something but you hadn’t known how bad it actually was.

“dray?” you heard a female voice from behind him. you immediately froze, locking eyes with your boyfriend. he reached out to you but you snatched your hand back as you frantically shook your head.

you both stood there silently staring. until astoria walked up behind him. you instantly noticed she was in one of his shirts. on of his shirts you had gotten him.

you were never an aggressive or violent person. but in that moment- merlin in that moment you could have hexed her to death. and you would’ve done it with a smile on your face. and you possibly would’ve if it wasn’t for draco slamming his door in your face, knocking you out of your trance.

all those study groups. all those times he cancelled or had some fishy excuse or couldn’t explain where he was- it was because of her. it all made sense. how stupid, you had thought. how could you not have known. it was so clear. blatantly staring you in the face.

that was the last time you spoke to him. that was months ago and still that moment replayed in your head endlessly. multiple times you had wondered to yourself why. why were you not good enough? why didn’t he just break up with you? how many times had he lied to you before? how long had their affair been going on?

you needed to stop making excuses for him. yes, you loved him. but did he love you? you thought back to the many times you had said it to him and he had never said it back. then, you hadn’t thought anything of it. you knew draco wasn’t one to open up easily. you knew it would take a considerable amount of time before he would say those three words and you were okay with that.

he probably loved her. all those times you lay in his arms he was probably thinking of her. all those times he had cancelled plans on you he was probably with her telling her how much he loved her.

you also thought back to what you would’ve done differently. in the moment you found out of him cheating and what you would’ve done differently in the relationship.

i made it to easy for him. i’m too easy.

i wasn’t satisfying him or his needs.

i shouldn’t have been too clingy.

if i were pure blood, he would’ve never left me.

this is all my fault.

the next school year...

it had been months since draco and you had broken up. you still stand by saying it hurting just as much. it hurts like hell. but you have come to terms with it. you’ve come to the realization that is wasn’t your fault. no mater what you did or didn’t do right in the relationship, it isn’t an excuse to cheat. he was the one who lied. he was the one who wasn’t loyal.

news broke out of you and dracos split like wild fire. everyone knew. you were officially up for grabs. many boys had made their way up to you in hopes to take you out. time after time you had rejected them politely. until cedric digory.

you and cedric had been friends for years. you were always fond of his company. walking through the train, looking through the windows, you stop once you see him. “may i join you?”

ever since then you and cedric started spending more and more time together. you didn’t love him but you think you could grow to. you could love him in a different way than draco.

i mean they were durastically different. although draco had always been sweet to you, he was incredibly rude to anyone else. cedric was kind to everyone. and he always seemed to have a smile on his face.

you scolded yourself for comparing the two boys. it wasn’t the first time you caught yourself doing it and most definitely not the last.

it now coming up on your one month with cedric, and your class had ended early. so you were making your way out the empty slytherin common room to meet him outside on his class.

that was the first time you and draco had made eye contact since all those months ago. he had grown quite well at avoiding you. you both stand there quietly like statues until he santurs over to you and stopping only a foot away. he had this aggressive look written all over his face.

“y/n. good to see you’re well. i’ve seen you around with digory lately.” he says formally. “yes. me and cedric have been seeing each other. i haven’t seen you around with astoria? have you hit a bump?” you say plainly with your hands on your hips.

he scoffs and starts walking away but you decide to follow him. “it’s good to know about cedric. you really get around, huh?” he says still walking. you grab his arm and twist him around so you are face to face. “what did you just say to me?”

“it’s unforgivable.” unforgivable? it he serious?

“i don’t remember asking for your forgiveness.”

“so is digory just a faze? who’s next? i heard blaze likes to sleep around.” he says laughing at his own joke, turning once again to walk away.

you run in front of him and grab him by one of his forearms. “you don’t get to call me a whore. when i met you, i thought i had found the person i was going to spend the rest of my life with.” you say with tears now building up in your eyes, “so all the boys. and all the bars. and all the obvious daddy issues. who cared? because i was done. you left me. you chose astoria. i’m all glued back together now. i make no apologies for how i chose to repair what you broke. you don’t get to call me a whore.”

you stares at you with his eyes wide and his mouth gaping. “draco!” you both hear in the distance. you turn to see astoria herself, only a few meters away. “you should go. your girlfriends calling.” you say and walk off.

after all the times you had imagined that moment, you never thought of how invigorating it would make you feel. you left him speechless and it felt damn good.

that night...

you lie awake staring at the ceiling. you felt like you could actually breath. for months, you were living on stored air but now you could actually breath.

you hear a soft knock on your door. you look to the clock reading 1:42, wondering who would be up at this hour. you open to see draco malfoy himself. he has bags under his eyes which you hadn’t noticed before. he pushes past you and let’s himself into your room.

“you were right earlier. and you deserve an explanation.” he says. you nod so he goes on. “when we were together i had been cheating on you for three months before you had found out.” three months? no that can’t be. you would’ve realized.

“and- and i was planning on telling you. but it never felt like the right time.” he said pulling at his hair in frustration.

“the right time? the right time would’ve been before you had even cheated on me. the right time would’ve been three months before i had found out.” you say crossing your arms.

“yeah, you’re right. you’re right.” he says and starts to pace your room. draco had never been the type to admit he’s wrong before so you can imagine how much damage this is actually doing to him.

“i love her, y/n. at first i thought it was just infatuation and i was going to fuck her once and take the secret to my grave but- but y/n, i love her.”

you turn as he’s talking so he doesn’t see the tears fighting to come out. he continues to talk as you cry silently, turned away from him.

“i’m sorry, y/n. i really did care for you.” and then you hear your door shut. you turn to realize you are once again standing in your bedroom alone.

i really did care for you

but he never loved you. he loved her.

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improbswriting · 4 years ago

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That time of the month.

Draco Malfoy one shot.

Summary: you wake up with period cramps and Draco wants to help.

Type: Fluffy, Soft Draco.

Warnings: Mentions of blood.

You woke up in the morning and you could feel the cramps. You groaned as you realized you were about to start your period. You looked don't at your sheets and luckily you don't bleed through your pants, but you knew you needed to put on a pad. You got up, but soon regretted it as you felt a rush from your stomach. You ran to the bathroom and cleaned yourself up and hopped in the shower.

Once you got out you went and layed back down on your bed and decided not to go to class today because your cramps were so bad. You were almost asleep when you heard a soft knocking at your door. "Y/n?" Draco asked on the other side of the door. You groaned in acknowledgment as he opened the door. You had a separate dorm from the other girls so it was just you and Draco. "darling Are you Ok? I didn't see you at breakfast so I just wanted to come check on you." Draco said while walking over to you. You were curled up in a ball, and you groaned as another cramp hit you like a truck.

He sat down on you bed while rubbing your back. "Cramps" you mumbled softly. "Oh darling, I'm sorry." He said while lifting your body up and hugging you. After a few minutes of cuddling Draco got up and said "I'll be right back" while walking to the door. He came back a few minutes later with chocolate, a heating pad, and some medicine. "Darling I don't get periods, but I got some things that might help."

Draco said while waking over to you with all the things. Your mood swings then kicked in as you started crying. Draco quickly put the items down on your nightstand, and rushed over to where you were laying and pulled you into his chest. "Darling, what's wrong? Did I say something?" Draco asked while rubbing you back while you cried into his chest. "I just have a really good boyfriend, and I'm lucky to have him, and I love you so much." You said while crying.

"Aww darling I love you too but don't cry, I don't like to see you cry." He said while lifting up your chin and wiping your tears. He then plugged in the heating pad, gave you some medicine, and then gave you the chocolate to eat. After you were done eating the chocolate you opened your arms and he climbed in bed with you. You got tired very fast and started to doze off, but not before hearing him say "I love you good night baby.”

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