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browser extension that replaces every instance of "normal" with "hegemonic-ideal"

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not to say things on main but it’s kinda fucked up that the mockery and torment of fat people, especially fat kids, is still considered socially acceptable

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sorry to be brave on the internet but I think food labels should list every single ingredient and that there should be harsher penalties for mislabeling and deceptive labeling

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surgeon who says “this will make a fine addition to my collection” after performing your bottom surgery

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so im gonna do that thing where i speak to nonblacks directly and ask that yall especially the ones who wanna be in community with Black Gay and Queer ppl like pls engage in some mutual 4id, please share my post, please engage in some reparations, please put some money, some care, some words of support, SOME MONEY behind all the words. more often than not i see other Black trans ppl sharing my posts and engaging with me in moments when i need help most. i am a person, not a conceptual idea of a person who is always ready to share a mentally optimistic and deeply relatable quote to encourage others to keep their heads up. im a real human being who lives out in the world and experiences racism and antiblackness and transphobia and lesbophobia and a lot of other phobias that contributed to the position of marginalization that led to actual medical neglect for my entire life up till adulthood when that shit manifested in the medical profession. a whole childhood of no vaccinations or regular medical care even when i asked, BEGGED for help. and an agonizing 3 years of debilitating chronic pain and chasing down insurance reps and following up on surgical consultations that have yielded nothing. currently on the wait list for a surgeon that wont even be able to do a consultation until September. it is May. and every single day I am in this pain, doing my work and moving forward regardless man. I know I can keep going, that isn’t the point of this. the point is that there are white and nonBlack members of the community on here who love to engage with Black ppl on here when its a Kii and a gag but never when we are speaking up for ourselves and others. nonBlacks yall have the power to advocate for others, to engage your people in supporting or sharing or donating if you can, but you see us here. you see us as surely as we see you. help the people you claim to be in community with, help us the way we need help. honor our personhood, honor our sacrifices for the community, honor our suffering, honor our lives. don’t wait until there’s a gofundme for my funeral costs, see me. see me here, every morning before the sun is up documenting my struggle and keeping my mind focused on what i know, which is that success is inevitable. i am on my way to everything i have been working for and manifesting, and this is an opportunity for yall nonBlack ppl who claim you wanna be seen and in community with people like me to step up to the plate and behave as though you are in community with us. i won’t compromise my personhood and integrity and authenticity to be in community with people who scroll by my and other’s appeals for support and during pride month will find a way to be entertained by Black lesbians and Black trans ppl and continue to take and take from us with no regard for the protection, support, advocation and uplifting that is required to be in community with us. this coming Pride, I hope every white and nonBlack person on this website engages in some kind of mutual 4id with a Black person in community who needs that, in person or not. Show up. Speak up. Look around! WE ARE HERE!

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If I ever make approximately the same post twice it's not bc I'm chasing notes or anything it's bc thoughts rattle around in my head like loose change for YEARS and whichever ones random fall out when I tip the jar is what I post. And what happens to those ideas? Right back in the jar to keep rattling, baby

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This is who is leading the NYC mayoral democratic primary rn

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hold on something just happened

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It really fucking is all misogyny isn't it

Every fucking thread of transphobia goes back to a fundamental need to cement completely immutable sex categories so cis men can assert themselves as superior on some level

Trans women are seen as perverse degradations of the male ideal, people who "chose" womanhood, who are read as women for persecution but not for protection, who are sexualized and assaulted the same as any woman. "Choosing" womanhood is so unthinkable in our misogynist society that brains scramble to think of why anyone would do it, and every trans woman is living proof that womanhood is empowering

Trans men aren't allowed in the club, because if masculinity can be "earned" instead of granted, it implies that men aren't intrinsically superior but made and maintained, and that someone who could have been a good little baby maker housewife realizes that that's not the fate they want

It's so fucking like. Basic shit. 101. How is it difficult. I'm sorry but I just. Fuck. How is this hard.

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even if sex scenes did only exist to make you horny (a ridiculous take that only exists in the minds of those bereft of analytical skills when it comes to film) ... even if that WAS true

"horny" is still a real and legitimate human experience to invoke. "this scene is there to make the viewer horny" yeah, and? the scene after is there to make you sad. film is just a bunch of scenes trying manipulate your shriveled up heart into feeling emotions, just embrace it

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girls love runes and sigils and rituals and knives and skulls and blood

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twitter liberals kill yourself NOWWWWWWWW

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Gay little idiot

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I took a nap and forgot Belphegor existed, so when I woke up and saw this thing it jump-scared me