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The Ache of Not Creating

So, it’s been a while. Hi. I’ve had a couple of ideas about what I should write here—reflections, lessons, words of encouragement—and now that I’m finally sitting down, all of it feels like it’s evaporated. But here I am. It’s a Sunday night. My phone is far away from me, and I’ve got time. Just a while ago, I spiraled into a stretch of unkind thoughts, until my head ached and my neck…

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The unprecedented search and rescue

The room felt stuffy, so I decided to freshen it up by vacuuming and changing the bed sheets. Now it feels light. Crazy how a few adjustments in the environment can make all the difference in one’s mood. I took the opportunity to clean my room since I had some free time tonight. Ate Mae Ann was cooking for dinner (usually it’s me), and cleaning my room beforehand means that I would have more…

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After the war

For a while I thought you had the tendency of bringing out the worst in me, especially in our arguments, and this is reason enough not to continue pursuing what we have. After all, shouldn’t love bring out the best in a person? But you actually reveal the worst in me, setting fire to my triggers, exposing my deeper layers, and unmasking all the shows and smiles I’ve put on for so long – my…

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14th Nov 2021 thoughts

When you submit yourself to someone, you become so fragile that you give them the permission to completely destroy you – body, mind, and soul. Yet you trust them enough to nurture you like a flower. You give them everything there is of you to give. You strip your masks off, expose your scars and imperfections, all the while believing that they will accept you with the kind of love that will heal…

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For Nicole

Written on 14 June 2022 Some friends come Some friends go Some will leave a lesson for you. Some friends stay When everything’s okay The grey skies tell whoever’s true. But once in a while You find a good fellow Who sees through what you put on show And when they defer Despite the weather Keep them close to your heart.

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You don't need to frequent my Instagram stories.

Written on 20 June 2022 You don’t need to frequent my Instagram stories To see if I merely mask my merry miseries My life is swell—can’t you tell? Three years passed since your aftermath. You don’t need to fantasize of an alternate universe Where all is well and never more marvelous You played all the right cards to get to me But got lost in the shuffle of this reality. You don’t need to skim…

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The Other Side of the Pain

Written on 10 December 2022 I’ve often wondered What it feels like To be on the other side of the pain. Perhaps you’ve wandered, Sought for sunlight, Only to be caught in the stone cold rain. Perhaps you’ve carried The trauma into your skin buried Now it’s crawled out to collect its dues, And you’re baffled why it leaves you furious When they pry apart your scabs Who knew treachery could cause…

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Last year, I pushed myself to get back into making art after years of being in a slump. Full story here :)

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i am so sick of backhanded jokes

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Michelle Yeoh for GQ

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Know what I just thought about?

Jobu Tupaki Joy going into the donut wouldn’t have killed every Joy, just her. We see in the other universes that Joy is still there after going into the donut so it wasn’t the fate of every Joy at stake, just that one

Which just makes the ending more emotional. Just like the Evelyn we follow is the “worst” Evelyn, this Joy is arguably the “worst” Joy given the nihilism and murder and such

We hear Evelyn earlier ask isn’t it ok to lose some universes, and say all she wants is “her” Joy back, aka her version of Joy in this universe

But by the end she goes through everything to save this one Joy, the “worst” Joy, who is not “her” Joy, because she doesn’t want to lose a single Joy no matter what version of her she is

Just the idea of unconditional love that says “I would not get rid of any piece of you, not even the worst parts, not even the parts you could argue should be gotten rid of, because they’re still you and I love them as much as the best parts”

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November 12. Remember it. 

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A Journal in My Back Pocket

I keep a journal in my back pocket I scribble to-do’s in receipts, in store pamphlets I hold on to photographs to put in a locket This is me trying not to forget.

I gaze a little longer into your eyes I hug you a little tighter before goodbyes My eyes close to feel your kisses and sighs This is me trying not to forget.

When my memory fails to recite your every detail Will you remind me, my love? Tell me of Mabini St., of roses in the passenger’s seat Tell me of calls past ten, and quiet moments unwritten.

Tell me that your love won’t ever fade How the wind felt as we lied under the shade And the sunlight danced in between the leaves Darling, only you can put my mind at ease.

What good is sunshine in the spotless mind? Let me write about the day our paths intertwined This is me trying not to forget So I’ll keep this journal in my back pocket. - Written by Angela Corpus on 25 October 2021

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Say it with me:

THE 👏🏻 RIGHT 👏🏻 PERSON 👏🏻 WON’T 👏🏻 LEAVE 👏🏻 YOU 👏🏻 BEGGING 👏🏻 FOR 👏🏻 THE 👏🏻 BARE 👏🏻 MINIMUM.

“You’re too good for me.”

Then step up?

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It’s been a while, Tumblr!!! And wow. This post is about to turn two this December. It’s crazy to believe that I’m in a much different place right now - older, wiser, happier - and yet it’s true.

I thought I’d never get out of the woods. I thought I’d miss out when I cut off toxic relationships and habits, but it seems like I’ve gained so much more. My heart is at peace. 

Life still is imperfect. The anxiety and trauma still hit me at the most random times, but lately I keep finding myself thankful for the here and now. For the God Who gives me grace everyday. For my family. For the friends who truly care for my existence. And for the man who holds my heart.

18 October 2021 • Monday

I am so tired of hurting. I am so tired of caring for people who do not see my worth, who do not see that I am a human of value, who do not care for my well-being. I am so tired of stooping down or going out of my way for people who won’t do the same for me.

I did not come this far only to be broken down so easily. No, I won’t allow that. It took me a lot of strength just to get through one day after another, just to be happy again on my own.

This 2020 I am choosing myself. I am choosing happiness. I am choosing peace of mind. I won’t wait around for someone who only sees me as a pillow to cry on, an emotional punching bag, a sponge to absorb negativity.

Goodness!!! I’VE HAD ENOUGH. My kindness will go only so far. Abuse it once and you’re going on my blacklist. You have been warned.

26 December 2019 • Thursday

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Everyday I’m more and more convinced that I shouldn’t have pursued Accountancy.

I feel absolutely dreadful doing audits or any accounting-related work. The pay is okay though, it helps me with the bills.

But it really feels different to do something I ACTUALLY love, something I actually enjoy doing. And to get paid for it? That must be nice.

I promise I won’t stay in this career for too long. I gotta get to the other side.