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When trans women are mocked and made into jokes in the media, I get very upset, and I am often told “Kay, you can’t go through life getting offended every time someone makes a joke.” And I sputter and object but they don’t hear me. So I want to be clear for once, about why the jokes make me angry.

I learned to hate myself for being transgender before I knew I was transgender. I laughed at the jokes in stand up comedy routines, and prime time sitcoms, and animated comedy shows, and in the movies, and in books, and in games, laughing at trans women for existing, about “men in dresses”, about people who “got their dicks chopped off”, and I learned to think that was worthy of ridicule.

And then a day came when I felt a pang of envy at what my female classmates were wearing and I repressed it, and felt guilty, and a day where I felt incomplete because I had no breasts and I repressed it and I felt disgusting And a day when I realized the only images of romance that made me feel anything showed two women together and I repressed it and I felt like a monster And a day when I realized I felt sick when I looked at myself in the mirror after every shower before work and couldn’t bear to look at my own face, and I hated myself. And then there came a day when I hated myself so much, and I thought I could never understand why, and so I just wanted it all to end. And it was just a miracle that I swerved my car back into my lane in time.

And all of it started with a joke that I heard on TV, and then kept hearing from all the voices from the ether, over and over and over, worming an idea into my mind before I was old enough to realize I was absorbing it, the idea that a man in a dress is funny, and that changing your body parts makes you a freak, and that women who have penises instead of vaginas are liars and hurt men. And they’re still making these jokes. And somewhere out there right now, just like all those years ago, there is a little girl in a t-shirt and cargo shorts with buzzed off hair watching the TV, hearing that joke and absorbing it without knowing it, who will someday have to pry herself apart to tear it out of her head, just like I did.

That is, if she doesn’t kill herself first.

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fanart so upsettingly good it makes you get up and pace around your room in shellshocked silence

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fat, medicated, and jerks off

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make a wish.

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The irony of this new breed of self-righteous AI hunters on AO3 is that they're all just copy and pasting peoples fics into AI detectors, which are all operated by AI and therefore THEY are feeding people's work into the algorithm without their consent and in some cases no doubt circumventing the locks people put on to avoid getting scraped...

Don't copy and paste anyone's AO3 work into third party websites, you're not the good guys in this situation?

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The first rule of cable management is "out of sight, out of mind"

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woke up at 6 to feed the cats and blearily made sure to jot down the "genius post" rattling around in my skull so i wouldnt forget

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🔴 BREAKING: According to The Telegraph (Aug 21, 2025), famine has officially been declared in Gaza for the first time by the UN-backed IPC.

While Israel prepares to destroy what remains of Gaza City, families here are being torn apart by hunger, destruction, and despair.

My own family is among those suffering, with nothing left to survive on.

Please, donate to help keep us alive. 🇵🇸🕊️

Vetted:

(#167 on the verified fundraiser list by el-shab-hussein and nabulsi).

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Title/Name: Ditherjak Wojak Series: Soyjak (Variant) Image by: Unknown Image submitted by: foreveranonymousfa on Tumblr Main Tag: Dither Wojak

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Hey y'all -- I'm making this post on behalf of Sami and his family, who are currently suffering in Gaza. You can find their fundraiser here. I think (especially) in a time where people are experiencing so much cruelty, it's our duty as humans living in the world to try to help others the best we can. We've all wished for someone to be there for us in a time of need, and we can be that for other people.

Sami's family has a lot of young children and I ask you to please consider donating if you have the means-- even something small-- or reblogging to circulate their fundraiser. Anything helps! Thank you so, so much for even reading. FUNDRAISER.

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asking my followers, how did you discover me?

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Top 10 most racist land acknowledgments, ranked by how extinct the author believes the indigenous inhabitants are

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Just realised I follow three different nonbinary people named Maia. The nickels keep rolling in.

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Always thinking about how black women originated the long acrylic nails look and were mocked and insulted for them for years, the look was called ghetto and disgusting... And now the same look is just the default fucking style of nail in middle class America lol

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The anti-trans hysteria du jour on perfidious Albion is that a retail employee who was trans asked a mother and child shopping at her store if they needed any help

That’s it

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The idea of listening to no black music is bizarre to me. Even if it's not rap like no earth wind and fire? No reggae? No moonstomp? No ska? No classic jazz? No R and B? No disco??? No skindred? No jungle? No even like metal bands with a few black members? No gospel? Not even stuff like alors en dance? No blues music? No mo town? No jazz of any kind? No big band? No soul music? Not even a little James Brown?