innercreationperfectionism

[innercreationperfectionism]

29.01.2025

Weight: 94,2

Screentime: 4,57

Water intake: 2,5

Calorie intake: 1845

Workout time: 0

Calories burned: 591

Study time: 0

Work time: 7,25

Steps: 7870

Calorie net: 1254

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28.01.2025

Weight: 94,2

Screentime: 6,6

Water intake: 2,5 l

Calorie intake: 2321

Workout time: 0

Calories burned: 631

Study time: 54 min

Work time: 7,15

Steps: 7932

Calorie net: 1690

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27.01.2025

Weight: 94,2

Screentime: 11,43

Water intake: 2 l

Calorie intake: 2203

Workout time: 10min

Calories burned: 436

Study time: 1,11

Work time: 0

Steps: 5230

Calorie net: 1767

[innercreationperfectionism]

The world is grey and dull,

I finally got it through my thick skull.

The world is ending, burning up,

And still people see it as a storm in a tea cup.

Why should I care, nobody else does,

why is it my burden to see what could have been and what was.

I know they try their best,

but it feels like it’s not enough to just protest.

There are flowers in the arctic, and fascist trying to take control,

but I’m the problem, because under pressure I don’t become a diamond, I remain coal.

If I shatter and my million pieces fly around,

Maybe grazing someone on their way outbound.

I’m the problem my bite as harsh as my bite,

Instead of considering my fright.

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26.1.2025

1. Weight: 94,2

2. Screentime: 9 hrs

3. Water intake: 2,6 l

4. Calorie intake: 2003

5. Workout time: 20 min

6. Calories burned: 358

7. Study Time: 1,11 hrs

8. Work time: 0

9. Steps: 4680

10. Calorie net: 1645

I was just so exhausted today and for no real reason. I hope tomorrow will be better

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I can’t show my emotions, not only have I been continuously taught that they were a weakness, but it actually is.

I want to scream and rage and let my anger consume me. I want to tell my family how much they fucked me up, I want to tell my bullies how shitty they were, I want to tell those fake friends that they are horrible people and I want to scream all my problems out to them. I want to tell them how much I hate myself, how I sometimes can’t get out of bed and how I still think about killing myself.

But I don’t. I swallow it and move on, because that won’t change anything. I will move on, I’ll heal and I will live a good life despite all of them, because now the strength they forced me to have will be my weapon.

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25.1.2025

1. Weight: 95,3

2. Screentime: 6.27

3. Water intake: 3,9 l

4. Calorie intake: 2258

5. Workout time: 55 min

6. Calories burned: 741

7. Study Time: 3,25

8. Work time: 3,5

9. Steps: 9731

10. Calorie net: 1517

Weather was kinda shit, but the rest was fine

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Goals for today: 26.1.

- Yoga

- Work (3.25 hrs)

- Gym

- Wash hair

- do laundry

- clean a bit (maybe)

- study

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Goals:

1. Lose weight

2. Get my degree

3. Keep my job

4. Go to the gym

5. Learn spanish (3rd language)

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