iridescentdollmimi

[iridescentdollmimi]

Taking time to reflect on the year.

Cherishing the good moments everyone had, or given me.

Frustrated at how much neglect I gave myself, and my happiness.

Going into a new year hopefully with a clean slate

[iridescentdollmimi]

It’s been awhile.

And it’s been some time of trying to really find myself , my happiness and peace.

I feel like it’s one for the books. I think enough was said for closure. Enough was said to end an era.

My stomach is in a knot and I’m crying. But I guess that little sign is all I needed to realize that I’ve been living with this bs for way too long.

[iridescentdollmimi]

If h

If heaven had a phone line I’d probably call you everyday.

How did we have a last 24 hours that was so productive and as I sit down to finally relax papas englebert song comes on. The one he use to sing to us. 🥲

[iridescentdollmimi]

Anyone else try to give people a last chance ?

[iridescentdollmimi]

You don’t want the old me back, but yall have asked for her back ✌️

[iridescentdollmimi]

Seven months without you.

Five months til a year.

And a lifetime without you.

Babygirl I have dreams about you still being here.

I don’t know what’s going on with my reproductive system but I think I have to accept this may be it for me.

Thank you for being my guidance. I miss you.

[iridescentdollmimi]

Either I’m pregnant or who knows what

I just dipped my indo mie ramen in powdered sugar

[iridescentdollmimi]

It’s been awhile since I’ve said anything. But I feel like you’re my guardian Angel I’ve always needed. I needed you here (physically) but I know you’re with me.

[iridescentdollmimi]

It’s these days that I’m trying to live up before going back to work on Thursday. I left this job pregnant. Going back with no baby with pregnant coworkers.

[iridescentdollmimi]

Moon and Venus

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It’s me crying at 1:30 in the morning. do you ever just feel alone? As if there’s some random block that you can’t communicate with people you think are your friends?

I just feel stuck. I have so much on my plate and things to take care of. I CANT DO IT ALL. Respectfully, to everyone who’s been blowin my phone up… now is not the time. My mental capacity feels maxed out.

Normal people my age. Go to work .

not me. 60% of the last three days I’ve been running around. not even for myself but helping people out and what trips me out the most… is all that I feel like … is used. I can’t depend on no one else to help me out.. I cant even ask anyone for help… y’all fake.

I’m blown up to do things for others never a “hey are you okay”. it literally takes me red flags for people to check in. are y’all really friends ?

[iridescentdollmimi]

I’m still here though.

[iridescentdollmimi]

I’ve had a couple health issues popping up again. And .. well in the midst of it all. Packed out bags and went out to the desert. Might’ve got stuck on the dunes a couple times , might’ve have a couple anxiety attacks, but I survived.

[iridescentdollmimi]

Wow, I like waking up to surprises. This weather calls for heavy heated blankets and staying inside. In between trying to figure out a happy work place again. Dedicating more time to family. Very well spoiling myself as well.

[iridescentdollmimi]

I have secrets I’ve got to tell.