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“Don’t promise me forever, don’t promise me the sun and sky. Don’t pretend to know you’ll never make me cry. Just hold me now and promise me you’ll try.”

— Jennifer Lopez

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“There’s nothing like deep breaths after laughing that hard. Nothing in the world like a sore stomach for the right reasons.”

— Stephen Chbosky, The Perks of Being a Wallflower

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“Where to, where do I go? If you never try, then you’ll never know.”

— Coldplay, Speed Of Sound

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“If you can’t do anything about it then let it go. Don’t be a prisoner to things you can’t change.”

— Tony Baskin

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How the hell do you make me catch feelings for you then fumble me over some back scratches? Maybe the reason you don't have an answer is because the truth would get your access to me revoked. Maybe the reason you left me all those times was to inadvertently protect me from this lame ass feeling in my chest now. How do I know you'll protect me? How do I know you'll actually protect me and my kids and keep us safe from the world? Safe from you? Who will protect me if and when I let you inside of my world the way I know I need someone to be there. I wanted you baby. I desired you baby. I needed your love, time, care and affection and now I feel that you want me to focus on the fact that you drove out here to South Carolina to make my birthday special for me. I would know that it was special and meant something to you too if you hadn't played all those songs spreading the "I'm the man and fuck women narrative" I peeped every thing you did after we had sex. You didn't seem as into me as you did before you got it. You slapped my ass every time you walked past me but still you seemed different. The sex was amazing but now that I'm speaking to you regarding a particular concern? Why do you feel the need to ask me whether or not I'm leaving you this time? I don't get off on leaving you that's you for me and maybe I need to pick up on that and leave you where you are. I cannot deal with another broken man. The comments about my weight need to attempt to humble a woman right before she lets you inside of her love? Who does a thing like that. You telling me all this toxic shit about how you fucked me like this in attempts to make me crazy. Not because you really and truly love and admire me but because as a man you mean what you say and you say everything you mean. For you to sit here and say you fucked me so good to make me crazy or put me in my feelings it made me feel like you were one of the ones who couldn't live his life without having hurt the one who would never ever hurt or destroy him. Why do I always run into the men who think it's okay to be weird or hurt me. What the fuck did I ever do to you outside of give you genuine energy? Am I really a fool for attempting to know anything outside of pain and contempt for my own race of men.

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clear intentions are sexy as fuck no one has time for that childish shit

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Trusted and preferred

I deeply trust people who have nothing to say.

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Time doesn’t heal all wounds. Some wounds change everything about a persons world and that person is adapting to that change for the rest of their lives. Yes they need time but they also need care and understanding in order to adapt and find peace.

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It’s so important to train yourself to take nothing personally.

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Distance, silence, peace.

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Only focus on what feels natural to you, makes you feel carefree, at peace, guided, love and understood.

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Forgive me because I've been forgiving throughout this life. Remember me because I will never forget you. Remember that I only ever tried to 1up myself and be better than who I was in days past. Lay me down gently as I've been cracked, broken and battered by those who claimed to have loved me most. May you grow knowing that no matter how rotten I was at times that you gave me my heart and that I loved and adored you more than all the words in all of the books. May your lives be long and prosperous because I want that most for you. May you have more than one true friend who will pray for you and lead you through the darkness as I was swallowed whole and alone. And my final wish for you three, my darling children is that you know that momma loved you fiercely and proudly as best I could and that mommy is so sorry if you feel I didn't hug or kiss you enough. Don't let the darkness swallow you whole. Don't let the light leave your lives just because I'm gone. Live hard, love even harder, and laugh in spite of all you may endure.

In'aam, Ih'aab, & Aurora I love you three so very much and this isn't goodbye. Just a see you much later. With love, Your mother.

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“You will always struggle with not feeling productive until you accept that your own joy can be something you produce. It is not the only thing you will make, nor should it be, but it is something valuable and beautiful.”

— Hank Green, A Beautifully Foolish Endeavor

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“Don’t waste words on people who deserve your silence. Sometimes the most powerful thing you can say is nothing at all.”

— Mandy Hale

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“Sometimes you have to forget what you feel, and remember what you deserve.”

— Unknown

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Can't it be both?

Vincent Van Gogh

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She may tell you a joke... But baby never a lie

It’s better to have nobody than someone who is half there, or who doesn’t want to be there.

Angelina Jolie