is-it-normalness

[is-it-normalness]

If only

✨ no thoughts ✨

😌 head empty 😌

[is-it-normalness]

It okay to think about yourself sometime...

[is-it-normalness]

Tell me if this is normal...

Trying so hard to be the best person you could, while making those stupid mistakes, hitting against the wall head first but you still get up. "I HATE MY LIFE" are the word you tell yourself cause you need someone to blame, and you're tired of it cause is that how you really feel? Why do you have to go through these things you didn't ask to be here, you didn't ask to have a mind that feels like it can't be trained. Everyone criticizes you every day, do they even have the right to assume who you may be or what you are capable of? They are so curious that they test you in many ways, pushing you to your limits to know how far would you go, "you want to be happy right " they quote "here are the steps follow these" they continue, but you don't want steps, you want one answer one that can make you feel like you do anything and be free. So the question is, do you think this is normal?

Not THE BEST AT WRITE BUT I BASICALLY USE THIS PLATFORM AS MY DAIRY...SO I JUST WRITE WHATEVER COMES TO MY MIND.

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Normal love

The ones that we afraid of , the ones that makes us feel wanted now and tomorrow you ask "is there something wrong", for hours on end constantly questioning your existence wondering are you good enough for someone that is not good enough for you? ,or wondering should I leave this and never turn back cause am not losing anything but my integrity or maybe my sanity, that's better cause I depended on you when depression walked through my front door I made you teddy cause I was too scared to look within the dark room called myself. "Will you help" I shouted to you more like commanded cause I thought that once someone come into your life they were suppose to heal you, they were suppose to come into that dark room and light it up . Maybe its normal to ask or command you to love when I clearly see am not the one you want, maybe its normal for you to lose yourself hoping, just hoping that I will come into that room with you and keep you company. I thought I was loving but I was hurting. "Am sorry " are the words we're always quick to say cause what can we say when we don't really mean it I want you to love me I guess it normal for me to be selfish so why am I being selfless. I guess that's normal.