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Who sets the mood when the mood maker isn't in the mood?

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"dapat sainyo hindi binibilhan ng *insert objects here*"

I've heard it many times but I don't think I'll ever be able to know how to react to such statements. Lately I get thoughts of planning a clean exit where nobody get inconvenieced, but at the same time I get strong urges to connect with more people.

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Monster, Naoki Urasawa

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Long time no post. First movie sa sinehan for 2023! I don't know how much I stopped my tear ducks in the cinema while watching #SuzumenoTojimari yesterday. I highly reccomend! Lalo kung nagustuhan nyo yung Kimi no Nawa. Also siblings day out. I was holding my tear ducts on the first door while chair guys was doing his chant but realizing mid movie what day it was yesterday, also March 11 didn't help. I managed to hold the tears but the snot, oh the snot. 😭 The urge to watch it again is stronk. https://www.instagram.com/p/Cprp2mlPSwJ/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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When they fail to see na yung pagrereklamo nila dati yung dahilan bat nagkaroon ng problema ngayon.

Initially Khiel was a house cat. Di sya nalabas kahit nasa may gate kami. Kaso ang kuda ng tita kesyo ganito, ganyan so pinadala si catto sa bahay nila ate. Napabayaan sya doon kasi ayaw ni mama ng pusa sa loob ng bahay, busy mga tao dun. Ever since college ako lang naman nag-aasikaso sakanya on a daily. I don't bathe him though kasi nangalmot si Khiel at matagal gumaling sugat sakin so si ate nagpapaligo sakanya. Minsan papakainin sya nung iba, pero they won't even try to clean litters. 🤷

So napabayaan sya doon tas natuto syang gumala labas ng bahay so definitely nagkaroon ng garapats yung pusa ngayon medyo mabagal pero unti-unti kong inaasikaso kukudaan ako ni tita, alisin daw yung pusa nakakaperwisyo. Like kung di ka nag-inarte dati sa sitwasyon nung pusa edi sana ngayon mas konti o mas di nakakaperwisyo sayo yung problema. Lagi syang may reklamo sa hayop pero sya rin yung di sumusunod sa mga bagay na di dapat gawin para di mamihasa yung mga alaga. Nakakapagod yung passive-aggressiveness nya sa pusa. Minsan bibilhan nyang gamit at pagkain, madalas puro kelamo, minsan "lalasunin ko yang pusa nyo." Nakakastress sya. Like parang gusto nya itapon ko yung pusa na parang gamit. Ganun sya trumato ng alaga pag inconvenient na tapon na.

Nakakapagod tong bahay na to. Hindi sya mabait sa mga bagay at taong mabagal o maliit yung progress. Hindi rin sya nurturing na environment, never was. Paboritong preaching ay "humungi ka ng tulong pag may kailangan ka" pero the moment you have the courage to ask, they gaslit you as to why you don't deserve their help.

Sorry, I just really need to vent this out.

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[mafia AU] Spice

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Full moon from my window. 🌝 Dirty lens I know, I know. Pero iba din kasi yung nagandahan ka tas it made you feel things ya know? https://www.instagram.com/p/CiXhpa4PlLl/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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Spent yesterday half on waxing sesh at home w/ le bruddah and half on playing COD while eating coffee & donuts. She goaded me to bring out omanjuus and take a photo so hence this post. Wala lang, I just felt like sharing this rather good mundane day of mine. Ismol moments ba. https://www.instagram.com/p/CgkAOeZP4Hs/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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Baroque coffee photography. Two coffee, both alike in cooling quality In fair hellish PH summer we lay our scene From ancient iced sipped, break to transmuted milk ice coffee Where well bred tenders and labels civil hands unclean #neverforget https://www.instagram.com/p/Cfgd6uqPm9k/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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Nakalimutan ko na may IG ako so will be occasionally dumping some photos taken earlier this year. Starting off with the first photo of 2022. Will be jumping back and forth to past and present since mahilig kayo sa mga multiverse at quantum theory kineme. https://www.instagram.com/p/Ce8v3kzvLYG/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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Another #ootd attempt. Excuse le fat thighs nakalimutan nating pumose for that. https://www.instagram.com/p/Ce6Ri36vZ2L/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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I haven't been optimistic lately and if I am to do so more often then I'm sorry in advance, it's just that, that too in itself for me is a sign of being optimistic. Being able to open up and or not bottle up for me is an optimistic move.

It feels like I'm choosing to let go of the irritable energies I have within me when I choose to vent or rant or even just post about them here. Choosing to write about them, choosing not to forget the feeling of frustration, it's being able to free myself a little of those negative thoughts, making more room for more brighter optimistic ones.

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Keeping them at bay, at arms length not because you still hate them. No, you're concerned about them but because you still remember the pain they inflicted on you, you only give them crumbs. Crumbs of your time, abilities, and affection. No, you do not feel that they are deserving of the pleasure of your undivided focus. You're amenable, but not naive nor forgetful.

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“Hearts can break. Yes, hearts can break. Sometimes I think it would be better if we died when they did, but we don’t.”

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Old nail photos I forgot to upload here. I tried that sponge technique using old regular sponge. Kinda works? Haha, maybe a new color tomorrow? 🤔 #nails #nailart #nailsofinstagram #nailpolish https://www.instagram.com/p/CXD4tFKvfqF/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Rare instances where I ask for help and umoo yung tinanungan ko pero mukang pushed backed nanaman yung plano ko dahil nga humingi pa ko ng tulong, now I have to keep waiting for them to move. All while my plans are becoming more and more impossible to be done by the day.

Can't really trust them with my big plans. Then they'll ask me why I don't ask for help at all? 🤷