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Sue Zhao

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The odd reality is that people will regret their mistreatment of you when you are dying

The irony is that it takes that much for it to happen

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Some moments crash into you and remind you-

C-PTSD is a powerful force that never goes away. It’s beyond our control, beyond reason, buried deep in your subconscious, hidden in the depths of your bones.

I had a really good day today. A beautiful day.

It still happened. Stronger than it has in months.

It’s a fear and panic so deep, you leave consciousness behind and all your brain and body can do is hold on and wait, helplessly try to survive the storm, as everything falls away…

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It wasn’t your fault and you did the best you could do.

Source: sarajayne.poletti

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The cruelest thing cancer ever did to me was take away my ability to dream. When I thought about the future, there was none I could imagine.

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No one can comprehend the mental fortitude and anguish it takes to push aside your own terror and accept the cards you’ve been dealt to help ease the burden on everyone else.

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I’ll do anything to avoid having a thought

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It’s all too much. I have been ravaged by the brutality of my cancer and it’s been almost 3 years since it all happened but I continue to be plagued by physical “disabilities” if you want to call it that. But beyond that is my crippling PTSD. It’s hard to imagine I will ever be free of this demon.

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No one can comprehend the mental fortitude and anguish it takes to push aside your own terror and accept the cards you’ve been dealt to help ease the burden on everyone else.

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