ivylynnconroy

[ivylynnconroy]

Ivy’s set up over here. Multi-muse rp is still on a trial period since idk if it’s for me so she might end up back here but if you need to reach me I’ll be over there. Also if orchestrahearts follows you, it’s me. I just feel like I can’t quite justify one thread at a time every few weeks to have a fully fledged blog right now.

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Still thinking about moving Ivy over to my multi blog, especially since I only have one thread at a time here. I’m gonna start setting her stuff up there but I haven’t really made up my mind yet since Ivy and I have been here together since August, 2013 and I love this url.

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In the heights, I buy my coffee and I go Set my sights on only what I need to know In the heights, money is tight But even so, when the lights go down I blast my radio

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ignore the theme, I’m trying a new thing.

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outofthelight

“I do, I eat. I’m not, I eat.” And he did. Technically. He wasn’t necessarily starving.

“I don’t think a word of what you just said made any sense.” She furrowed her eyebrows, trying to make sense out of it.

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outofthelight

“I don’t…I don’t ever have much of an apatite.”

“Yeah, we noticed, but eating like a bird is different than just… not.”

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outofthelight

“I told you I’ve just been sick…” But she didn’t believe that and he knew it. But was it his fault if he had no apatite?

“Sure, okay.”

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worried starters

trigger warnings apply! ( mental illness, drugs and alcohol use, self-destructive behaviours, and vomiting )

“You haven’t slept for days, have you?” “Are you eating properly? You don’t look it.” “Why do you keep stumbling over your words? Just how tired are you?” “You need to think about yourself every once in a while.” “I know your work is important, but you’re going to end up in hospital if you go on like this!” “You haven’t even touched your food. What’s going on?” “You look so… empty. I’m worried for you, please talk to me.” “Are you alright in there? You’re so quiet.” “How did you get these bruises? Please don’t lie to me.” “There’s something bothering you that you’re not telling me and I can see it slowly destroying you. What happened?” “You’re sleep deprived and you haven’t been eating. Why do you think you’re feeling dizzy?” “I can give you some pills to help you sleep. They aren’t healthy, but this is even less healthy.” “If you didn’t just blink I would’ve sworn you were dead, that’s how sickly you’re looking. Go to bed, please!” “Have you drank all of these bottles in one weekend?!” “I know you don’t want this, but it’s for your own good. Sign the papers so they can pick you up tomorrow and you can get clean.” “What the hell are you doing?! Did you do that to yourself?!” “When was the last time you left the house? Or opened the curtains for that matter.” “Here, just keep breathing. It’ll be okay. Better out than in…” “This can’t go on like this! You’re not eating, you’re not sleeping, you barely talk!” “I’m sorry. I went through your room and found this. Explain what the hell this is doing in your room!” “I thought you’d quit! How long have you been lying to me?” “I’m only trying to help and right now I think I have a much better idea of what you need than you do.” “Did you take anything? Why are you passing out? Hey! Stay with me!”

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Reblog if you adore your muse

I just want to see how many people are being characters they love~

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` ° • ✧ MARILYN MONROE PROMPTS.

❛ Fear is stupid. So are regrets. ❜ ❛ It’s better to be unhappy alone than unhappy with someone - so far. ❜ ❛ I am not interested in money. I just want to be wonderful. ❜ ❛ If you can make a woman laugh, you can make her do anything. ❜ ❛ The real lover is the man who can thrill you by kissing your forehead. ❜ ❛ I restore myself when I’m alone. ❜ ❛ I don’t mind living in a man’s world as long as I can be a woman in it. ❜ ❛ Give a girl the right pair of shoes and she’ll conquer the world. ❜ ❛ No one ever told me I was pretty when I was a little girl. ❜ ❛ I am good, but not an angel. ❜ ❛ I do sin, but I am not the devil. ❜ ❛ I am just a small girl in a big world trying to find someone to love. ❜ ❛ All little girls should be told they’re pretty, even if they aren’t. ❜ ❛ When it comes down to it. I let people think what they want. ❜ ❛ I already know I’m better than them. ❜ ❛ If I’d observed all the rules, I’d never have got anywhere. ❜ ❛ I don’t know who invented high heels, but all women owe him a lot. ❜ ❛ A career is wonderful, but you can’t curl up with it on a cold night. ❜ ❛ It’s not true I had nothing on, I had the radio on. ❜ ❛ Success makes so many people hate you. ❜ ❛ Dogs never bite me. Just humans. ❜ ❛ It’s all make believe, isn’t it? ❜ ❛ I’m very definitely a woman and I enjoy it. ❜ ❛ I’m selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. ❜ ❛ I make mistakes, I’m out of control, and at times hard to handle. ❜ ❛ But if you can’t handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don’t deserve me at my best. ❜ ❛ It is wonderful to have someone praise you, to be desired. ❜ ❛ I am trying to find myself. Sometimes that’s not easy. ❜ ❛ Millions of people live their entire lives without finding themselves. ❜ ❛ The nicest thing for me is sleep, then at least I can dream. ❜ ❛ A sex symbol becomes a thing. I just hate to be a thing. ❜ ❛ We are all of us stars, and we deserve to twinkle. ❜ ❛ You know, most people really don’t know me. ❜ ❛ I enjoy acting when you really hit it right. ❜ ❛ I believe everything happens for a reason. ❜ ❛ Friends accept you the way you are. ❜ ❛ We should all start to live before we get too old. ❜ ❛ If I’m a star, then the people made me a star. ❜ ❛ I am not a victim of emotional conflicts. I am human. ❜ ❛ It warms you a bit, but that warmth is temporary. ❜ ❛ An actress is not a machine, but they treat you like a machine. ❜  ❛ I had never belonged to anything or anyone else. ❜ ❛ I learned to walk as a baby, and I haven’t had a lesson since. ❜ ❛ Sometimes I feel my whole life has been one big rejection. ❜ ❛ The body is meant to be seen, not all covered up. ❜ ❛ What do I wear in bed? Why, Chanel No. 5, of course. ❜ ❛ The truth is, I’ve never fooled anyone. ❜ ❛ Respect is one of life’s greatest treasures. ❜ ❛ Someday I want to have children and give them all the love I never had. ❜ ❛ I don’t feel like Spring. I feel like a warm red Autumn. ❜ ❛ I wish I knew why I am so anguished. ❜ ❛ Sex is a part of nature. I go along with nature. ❜ ❛ I know from life one cannot love another, ever, really. ❜ ❛ I’ve been on a calendar, but I’ve never been on time. ❜ ❛ I have feelings too. I am still human. ❜ ❛ Having a child, that’s always been my biggest fear. ❜ ❛ I want a child and I fear a child. ❜ ❛ I think I have always had a little humor. ❜ ❛ I often wake up in the night, and I like to have something to think about. ❜ ❛ I’m one of the world’s most self-conscious people. ❜

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Angst Starter Masterlist

" Aren't you going to say something?"

" And I thought I loved you."

" And I thought you loved me."

" Angry. I'm.. I'm angry."

" Aren't you even going to cry?"

" Are you going to cry?"

" Are you crying?"

" Are you okay?"

" Ask if I'm okay. Just ask."

" And this is why I don't want to stay anymore."

" Addiction isn't the way to go, ___ "

" Are you angry with me?"

" Are you afraid?"

" And now is the part where we say goodbye."

" And now you're going to leave me!"

" Are you just going to leave me?"

" Be friends with someone else."

" Boy/Girlfriend? Is that what you thought I meant?"

" Because you're such an ass and I- I just hate you!"

" But I've changed."

" But you've changed."

" Buy yourself something nice. Because I don't want this ring."

" But.. you're still alive?"

" Can't you just let me be happy for one?!"

" Can't you be happy for once?

" Can't you just be happy for me?"

" Come on, leave already!"

" Coward. That's all you are. A coward."

" Do you even know what you've done to me?"

" Do you have any remorse? "

" Don't you dare close your eyes on me!"

" Don't you dare die."

" Don't you care about me/her/him/them anymore?"

" Don't give me that look"

" Don't you want me to be happy?"

" Dammit! Everything was just starting to get better and then you do this!"

" Damn you."

" Don't lie to me."

" Don't like to him/her/them."

" Dammit.. Fuck! Fuck, fuck, fuck! You fucking ass!"

" Everything is fucked up now- everything is fucked because of you!"

" Everything's gone to hell."

" Everyone hates me."

" Everyone hates you."

" Everything hurts."

" Everything's going to be okay."

" Everyone loves you, not me."

" Everything is falling apart."

" Everything fell apart and I can't pick up the pieces anymore."

" For someone whose dying, you seem kind of happy."

" Friends forever, right? Isn't that what you said?"

" Fuck off!"

" Fuck you!"

" Find a new place to live."

" Find a new girlfriend/boyfriend."

" Find a new best-friend."

" Fine. I'll leave."

" Forever and ever. That's how long I said I loved you. But you never said it back."

" Fucking hell, I hate you!"

" Get lost!"

" Get a job, you ass!"

" Get out of here!"

" Go get a life."

" Go. Just go."

" How are you still alive?"

" How long are you going to keep this up?"

" How long until you finally get lost?"

" How about I just leave."

" Hold up. You're breaking up with me?"

" Heaven doesn't exist."

" Hell is the only place we're going to be going."

" How about you leave now?"

" Is this how you're going to treat me?"

" I can't believe you."

" I'm a monster."

" I killed someone."

" I want to kill myself."

" I want to kill something."

" I'm running away."

" I'm leaving you."

" I can't look at you right now."

" I hope you die!"

" I don't understand."

" I'm so angry/sad. But you don't care."

" I can't hear anything."

" I'm dying."

" I have cancer."

" I can feel the darkness coming."

" I can't breathe."

" Just joking, I don't love you."

" Just go."

" Just leave me alone!"

" Just fuck off."

" Kill yourself. "

" Kindly get the hell away from me."

" Kids? I don't want kids."

" Kind. That's the one thing you can never manage to be."

" Lie. Just lie."

" Lie to me."

" Life is not worth living."

" Living isn't possible."

" Like I give a shit about you."

" Lies are all you're capable of."

" Lay down. It'll all be over soon."

" My heart is broken. "

" My.. everything hurts."

" My girlfriend/boyfriend left."

" My ____ is dead."

" Man, you're an asshole."

" My lies aren't working anymore."

" Mutt."

" Many times I lay awake and wonder why I'm alive anymore."

" Never again."

" Never speak to me again."

" No. I won't do it."

" No, I don't like you like that."

" No way in hell!"

" Now, now, is there really any reason to cry?"

" Now and again I really start to hate you."

" No. Stop crying, just stop it."

" Not how I wanted to spend my life."

" Never look at me again."

" People hate me."

" People hate you."

" Person? No, no. You're not a person. You're a robot."

" People like you sicken me."

" People like you deserve to die."

" Perhaps you should just leave, then."

" Piss off."

" Question: why are you still here?"

" Quiet. I'm getting sick of hearing your voice."

" Run away. That's what I'm doing."

" See? I hate you."

" See? You hate me."

" Sometimes I wonder why you stay with me."

" So.. you hate me, then?"

" So this is how it ends."

" Shoot me."

" Shit..."

" So why are you still here?"

" Sometimes people lie to me."

" Stories are just that. Stories."

" Took off with everything I had!"

" Time to go."

" This is the end. It's done."

" The story is ending now."

" This is the end."

" This is why I hate you."

" Then why do you say you love me?!"

" Unlike you I have friends."

" Unlike me, you have friends"

" Under the bed is were I have to hide from you."

" Underwater is where i want me coffin to be."

" Utter it again and I swear I'll kill you!"

" Very mature. Cunt."

" Why can't you row up?"

" Why cant you care about me?"

" Why do you hate me?"

" Why do I hate you?"

" What do you mean?"

" What?You're dying?"

" Why can't you just be you."

" When am I supposed to get my time to be happy?'

" Well. This isn't how it was supposed to end between us."

" Whatever, you asshole."

" Whenever you decide you can stand to talk to me ago, please do."

" Well. I hate you now."

" Well, you hate me now."

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fuck sentence starters.

’ i dont know if i need a hug or to fuck. ’ ’ you know what? fuck this shit. ’ ’ are you out of your fucking mind? ’ ’ do i look like i give a fuck? ’ ’ i wish i had a fuck to spare but i don’t. ’ ’ you’re fucking stupid, honestly. ’ ’ you know what, fuck you dude. ’ ’ fuck you right back. ’ ’ you did not just say that, you fucker. ’ ’ what do you think i am, just a fuck? ’ ’ i’m just another fuck to you, huh? ’ ’ i really just want to fuck right now. ’ ’ please stop using fuck in every sentence. ’ ’ you use the word ‘fuck’ a lot, you know. ’ ’ you are a fucktard but a cute fucktard. ’ ’ you have lost every bit of my fucking respect. ’ ’ if you say ‘fuck’ one more time, i swear. ’ ’ do you wanna fuck or what? ’ ’ someone else wanted to fuck you? ’ ’ please stop telling me about your fucks. ’ ’ do you ever not go around and fuck? ’ ’ all you do is eat, sleep and fuck. ’ ’ seriously, how to you stand to fuck that much? ’ ’ did you fuck anyone last night? ’ ’ i know i’m a good fuck, so whatever. ’ ’ i will fuck you up, don’t even try. ’ ’ don’t get fucked up today. ’ ’ you will get fucked up if you don’t shut up. ’ ’ what did you just fucking say to me? ’ ’ why don’t you fuck off? ’ ’ seriously, fuck you. ’ ’ fuck you, fuck you and fuck you. ’

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outofthelight

“N-noticing…” Other people were seeing that he wasn’t eating? Talking about it? About how awful he looked? Oh god. He could feel the color drain from his face. “S-so everyone thinks that I, that I don’t eat?”

“I mean, it’s not like people are watching you or something weird like that but people start to notice when it looks like someone isn’t eating.” This was something Ivy often found herself resenting.

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outofthelight

The way his stomach was churning there might as well have been. “Wh-why are you so worried?” It wasn’t accusatory and only mildly defensive. Did he really look that bad?

“I’m not.” What a lie. “I’m just not blind. I’m not the only person who’s noticing.”

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“Sure, okay.” Ivy rolled her eyes. “Let’s just pretend there’s a bug going around.”

@ivylynnconroy (cont)

“I’m fine. Please, just don’t worry about it.” He really didn’t want to have to explain. “I had a, a um stomach thing but it’s pretty much passed, okay?”

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“Please, you look worse than just a little under the weather.” She eyed him, crossing her arms. 

❝I can tell you haven’t been eating. You just look sick.❞ - ivylynnconroy

“Wh-no, it’s…I’m fine.” It may have been a particularly long streak of low apatite but he was alright. He wasn’t just, it wasn’t like he was refusing food, right? “It’s nothing, just been a bit under the weather, but it’s not a big deal.”

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