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chill out season 2 jon... it's all in your head...

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oliver would love when harry met sally and mags would like the incredibles i think, thats all i got

I’d love to hear if you’ve thought about what some of the bright sessions characters’ favorite films are! Ngl I’m especially curious about Damien’s favorite films 😅 The first thing I thought of was him crying over Mulholland Drive. What kind of movies does he like?

ooh yes, Damien would so be into David Lynch movies, I totally see that! as for other characters, we know that Joan and Mark grew up with and love old movies, Clockstoppers was formative for Sam, and Adam and Caleb were definitely into the MCU growing up! also, Tom Hardy movies lol

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so what if I want to have total control over every single thing at all times. just let me lol

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all the bright sessions playlists ive made over the course of two years because i am insane

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Sam

Damien

Joan

Mark (season 4)

Oliver

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Ship playlists:

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Caleb/Adam

Sam/Mark

Damien/Mark

Oliver/Mark

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adding songs from musicals to character playlists is so stupid like yeah this works just ignore some of that really specific stuff

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I’m so bad at sex I got an F in sex it’s even on my drivers license

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Hearing other peoples' stories about when they were in school confirms my suspicions that some people only become teachers because there's a limited line of careers where it's socially acceptable for a whole grownup to be personal enemies with a 12-year-old, and they lack the creativity it would take to become a saturday morning cartoon villain.

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thinking again about the narrative of control in tbs thats just weaving itself through every season. especially damien, whose entire deal is trying to keep control with his ability, and mark who was so stripped forcefully of every sense of it by the am, only to acquire damiens ability. hes still choosing to be a good person about it.

and how sam and marks relationship fell apart because sam couldnt live without some sense of control, because her ability already controlled her most of her life, so she ends up falling into a role of controlling mark and going behind his back. "thats not something you get to control and ive had enough people trying," being one of the last things in their relationship that mark tells her, because she says she wants to keep him safe.

her and joan are so similar in that regard, because they both dont trust mark when he needs it, they have their ideas and act on them without considering how life can and will change.

the problem with all these relationships and mark was the narrative of needing to control something. damien with his ability, how people act, how they are useful. sam with her anxiety and lack of trust (in herself and mark), joan because she cant let go of the way it used to be, because she hasnt been with mark in so long.

the only deeper relationship to someone else mark forms thats kicking all of this into exactly the other direction is the one he has with oliver. because oliver doesnt know him from before, and he pulls away when things get hard, instead of pushing. its funny, because youd think itd be a relief, but instead mark instantly ends up panicking. hes so used to being monitored in some way or the other that he cant handle the thought of oliver not telling him everything, or pulling away, or communicating.

when they talk about control, and oliver says they dont have it, mark says running away isnt control when its from yourself. but he ends up needing to control the one person that doesnt want to control him back because hed rather push away and self destruct.

its interesting to me how mark ends up a little bit in sams situation with oliver. just because the one time there isnt a motive he ends up immediately panicking.

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“why do you ship them? I thought the ship wasn’t canon?” bro we’re talking about fictional characters, who don’t actually exist in real life, from a media that focuses solely on fictional events that are not real either. so what if these two made-up characters didn’t kiss in their source material? they have lots of nasty gay sex on archive of our own and thousands of novel length slow burn enemies to lovers fics written about them. the fanon content at this point far exceeds the whole canonical franchise. the problem isn’t “it’s not canon” the problem is that you don’t allow yourself to let go of canon and enjoy the wonder of fan contents that are just as good / valid

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be honest:

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what real suffering looks like

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its just embarrassing when you make a fandom related post and it doesnt get any notes like okay. so no one want to play tuoys with me. no one wants to play with our little guys together. okay thats fine. yeah its cool... puts my hands in my jacket pockets. kicks a beer can that was on the side of the road a little

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i am about to create an au SO self indulgent. the target audience is 1 person and that person is me

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born to be a lover girl, forced to get unhealthily invested in queer ships that technically never happened