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[jadow13]

Good Afternoon ☀️

It just now dawned on me that I missed posting something last Wednesday 🥲 that was def my bad…just thought I’d let the accountability settle in a bit before continuing 😅

So, this week I finally got my sleep schedule just about corrected after springing forward an hour the week prior. It really rocked me this time around and idk why 😭

Currently at work and they have my desk and area around my desk all outta whack to prep for construction. Too many machines and not enough room to run them lol

Gotta get back to work now 🫡

[jadow13]

Gm ☀️

I’m trying to include more visuals in these weekly post whenever I can but my taste and tendencies when it comes to photos will vary greatly 😅 but I play Pokemon Go a bunch so be prepared for a lot of that lol

As these days creep by in the quickest manner that I’ve ever felt, the uncertainty of what the world will look like grows more and more…making a plan is difficult and finding the motivation is daunting sometimes but it doesn’t stop. Have to keep going to try and make something happen to hopefully put ourselves in a better position in the future.

So I will stay as positive as I can. I will exude as much positive energy as I can despite my hardships. Because I believe I am a kind person and I am worthy. May the Goddess of Fortune bless me when I least expect it while I do the actions to gain her grace 🙏🏾💯✨

[jadow13]

Gm ☀️

This past week has been pretty meh to say the least… here’s the finished result from last time btw 😉👍🏾✨

The 9to5 has been steadily ramping up with the amount of work I’ve been having to do lately. Which is good in the grand scheme of things cause the uncertainty out here rn is at all time highs so us getting work is good but man keeping up with all of it is getting tough 😅🥲

The “side hustle” of hobbies I have going on in the background still hasn’t seen any real traction 🫠 but still gonna keep at it in hopes that I’ll make that one right move to get myself put into a prime position to do something. What that something is, I have no clue 😂 I just want to connect with MY people/tribe ya know? So we’ll keep on with the keeping on and hopefully something will play out…

Probably wouldn’t hurt to develop a better plan but how things are looking, I don’t know what to plan for anymore 🤷🏾‍♂️ maybe that’s the next step…

Just Another Day Of Whatever…

[jadow13]

😭

Definitely missed yesterday’s post but DONT DWELL! Be accountable, and keep it moving.

Gm btw ☀️

Yesterday was eventful tbh...Started off with me waking up too early for one 🥱 but decided to use the time to start painting the piece I started for my wife. Valentines gift high key lol but during the painting, power goes out 😑 come back on and out again. And then I hear fire alarms going off from the bldg across from me. Have to give the fire dept here where we stay props cause they was here quick. Yes I was nosey 👀 but didn’t seem like anything was going on life threatening and the power came back on so I was back to painting. Hopefully no one was hurt and everything turned out ok. Took a little break to lie down and before I knew it, was running late to work 😅 spent most the night after work trying to finish tho almost done 👌🏾 soon… but anyways, it’s Thursday so I gotta get to Twitch for the stream ✌🏾

[jadow13]

Gm ☀️

Found myself back here again. Keeping up this habit as best I can to get my discipline up. But also just to give small glimpses into my day cause I hope to connect to the right people one day.

Time passes ever ticking by as we move through the days which lately have felt a bit thick with dread. Still looking to find people I connect with naturally but having the time and resources proves difficult. Yet, we push forward with the hopes that it’ll work out. It has to cause I’m manifesting it to do as such.

Leaning into my inner child and figuring out the person I truly am and what it is I’m really wanting to do or gain from the this experience called life. May the Goddess of Fortune always watch over us and bless us when we least expect it ✨

[jadow13]

I have not the slightest bit of know how when it comes to writing or how to structure out my thoughts…

Nor have I been the type to subscribe to a newsletter or weekly blog so me trying to stumble my way through these weekly updates and post are pretty much shots in the dark 😅 if it finds you, I hope it hits.

Finally evolved my buddy! And got a super random shiny in PoGo. It never ceases to amaze me just how much more play time I put into this game. It’s one of the biggest connections to my childhood within the sphere of gaming as a whole I think 🤔

I’ve just about got a system now on how to grab clips from when I stream on twitch and make shorts on TikTok now. I wouldn’t have believed you if you told me I could make this much of a digital footprint of the person I am using just a mobile device. How far we’ve come is beyond my comprehension lol

And lastly I’ve noticed something about myself this past week… the way I create that I can best describe is that there’s times I’m UP on that sh!t. Content ideas flowing. Like I NEED to draw or paint or edit a video, but there’s also times when I just want to be a vegetable in front of a screen and I have to allow for both without being overly hard on myself for not being “productive” all the time.

Do it as it feels right just be sure to do it…or something like that 😅

[jadow13]

Just to be clear,

I may have fallen back into old habits and almost missed the window for making this a weekly occurrence, however, I feel like truly teaching yourself discipline is one of the challenging aspects when it comes to learning about oneself. So, proving it to myself that I can still keep up things that are net positive in my life might set me up for just a bit more opportunity.

Keep showing up as your most authentic self while at the same time offering value when you can.

It might not be all the time but when you can.

[jadow13]

The air is different…

It’s technically still the same but the way it is interpreted now just isn’t the same…my trust in what’s real in the world is the lowest it’s ever been cause where do you turn when you KNOW the actual truth is being kept behind a veil you can’t access?

“Just pull yourself up by your bootstraps”

“Just work hard and you too will make it out”

Fallacies. The whole lot of them.

Still, I have to adapt. I have to persevere. Cause if there’s was ever clear evidence that no one is coming to save you, this past week has shown me 100% just how true that statement really is…

Optimism please don’t let me slip any further into a pessimistic position and please fill my body with resilience. Not just for me but for anyone like me struggling to see a way forward.

[jadow13]

Gm ☀️

Another week passes. Winter made an appearance for a couple days when they dropped a few inches of snow and had me inside. Which, I won’t say wasn’t bad to have a 4-day holiday, but might come back to bite me in the ass later 🥲.

But anyways…that bit of time off let me think a bit about my use of time I have and my plans for the future…this balancing act is so tricky. My life, although not amazing, has me so content and grateful while at the same time part of me is longing to be part of something bigger than myself…is that because of my own aspirations? Is that the background pressure of society and its economic fuckery? I’m not entirely sure…

I do know that I’m going to keep my eyes open for any opportunities that move me closer to fulfilling this feeling of longing. Maybe it’s right in front of me and my methodical nature makes me miss seeing it…what is it…🧐

[jadow13]

Good Morning ☀️

And just like that we are a week into the new year. Time really does fly by. My first week into 2025 has been pretty tame to say the least. The world around me however is ever changing and growing more and more towards the side of chaotic. Temperatures have dropped into what feels like the teens which has really been a shock to everyone’s immune systems cause it seems everyone around me is getting sick. *Knocks on wood*.

I was able to get a little painting in this week tho. Love me a Pokemon paint session lol. Which I think taking the time to explore my hobbies should take bigger precedent in my day to day cause creating something does feel better than I can give it credit.

I understand my writing composition is trash right now but it’s still early in my process and I’m sure after consistent work towards these entries is done, the confidence within shall come to the surface eventually…

Until then, May the Goddess of Fortune continue to watch over us and bless us when we need it most and least expect it.

[jadow13]

Happy New Year 🎊

I told myself that this year was going to mark a new chapter in my life where I replace time for things that distract me to time to get my thoughts together. To time sharing my experiences with others. To time creating things instead of consuming them. So, starting today and every Wednesday going forward, I’m holding myself accountable to posting something here on Tumblr.

I’m still working through the topics exactly and for now I’m telling myself that’s fine. Just Do things and sooner or later I should figure something out. Maybe even get some help from the people I meet along the way. That could even be you if we being fr 😏. But only time will tell…

I hope you’re here to see and share the progress with me. Let’s make this OUR year 💯

[jadow13]

I watched the sunrise this morning. Coffee in hand with some fruit and toast for breakfast. The rays from the sun warming my skin as the time passed. The slight breeze rustling the leaves just enough to make the calming noise of leaves in the wind.

Serene.

Moments like these relieve all the pressure felt while trying to establish my place on this rock floating thru space we call earth. And right now in this moment I feel peaceful. Therefore, I will cherish this blink in time.

~ JADOW ~

[jadow13]

I draw sometimes…

[jadow13]

I draw figures sometimes…

[jadow13]

Sometimes I wonder if me doing social media content is actually progressing me on a path towards some sort of success or not…cause I feel like I’m grasping at straws, but coming up short every time…I guess I just need that one breakthrough for someone to notice the value or the potential I can bring or have and it just hasn’t happened yet…

Stay disciplined…stay focused…do more…keep going…one day it’ll pay off…just don’t quit…

[jadow13]

Friday. Payday. Yet…my funds are already depleted…credit card debt is creeping in slowly…I have to mitigate this debt somehow before it consumes me…but what to do?

[jadow13]

~ Just Another Day Of Whatever ~