jasmindci
jasmindci
the beauty of adulting 🌞
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jasmindci ¡ 10 months ago
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It’s been months!!! What’s up, Tumblr!!! Currently at home in Bulacan and spending the long weekend here!
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jasmindci ¡ 3 years ago
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Before I sleep, I want to share how beautiful my/our day was yesterday. I feel like I've changed 180 degrees. I used to like being with people (old and new friends) but these days I appreciate lone time. I appreciate the quietness. Yesterday, Renze and I bought ourselves 1 large fries from Potato Corner. We were supposed to buy Big Scoop but it's too far (2 blocks away from our condo) so we opted for ice cream Sunday instead. We enjoyed our snacks and at the parking area - our favorite spot - P5.
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Here's me feeling the golden hour ☀️
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Then, here's a timelapse of how it went:
Just simple beautiful moments like this. ☺️
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jasmindci ¡ 3 years ago
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Post-quarantine is such a difficult phase
People started to socialize again, friends are reconnecting and I can't seem to keep up. Don't get me wrong - I looked forward to this day as well. To finally see old fellas and meet new ones. But this new found anxiety of sitting on a table with people and having to talk for hours is killing me. I get shivers. I get anxiety attacks. It makes me weak. And it's weird because only now did I get to ask and answer myself.
It feels like I am not myself anymore. I have so many interests that I can share before. But during the quarantine, it faded. My mind is always floating. I feel numb. And I am not the type of person who just sits and not talk. I want to.. but I have nothing to share. I stopped reading books, I stopped writing, I stopped doing my makeup, I stopped learning. Just the thought of going outside and seeing the guards in the lobby creeps me out.
This is not my system. I want to do things but for some reason, I feel like I am prisoned but where? How?
It's almost 1 in the morning already and I wanted to break the cycle already.
I am making an agenda for tomorrow:
7 am wake up and get some sun ☀️
7:30 cook my breakfast (pancake, hotdogs and eggs)
9-10 read a book/article
11-12 prepare my lunch
1 pm work
SMALL STEPS
LITTLE ONES BUT THE HARDEST
I WILL AND I CAN
Forgive me for being all over the place. This is how my mind is right now. Restarting with the hopes that to get back on track.
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jasmindci ¡ 7 years ago
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Currently
So, how are you?
Before I share my currently, I would like to show you a picture of me earlier from grocery.
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I feel so alone. It's okay and it's not ok at the same time.
So.. it's now 10:45 PM. I know it's late already and yet here I am in the unit....
Wearing
White shirt with Superman print and white short. Ready to hit the bed.
Listening
To a playlist I just found on Spotify. It's named Feel Good Dinner. Literally feels good hearing the songs in it.
Eating
Yes. I'm still munching. I have here Hershey's Kisses almonds I bought in the grocery earlier 😇 I've been craving for almonds!!!! I even ordered chocolate ice cream with almonds in DQ before eating this!
Thinking
Resigning. Simply because I need to earn more. Because I want to study. I will study. Again.
Business. Online business. Again?
Transferring back to Laguna. It's my home. But at the same time, I am thorn between staying at home and playing outside my comfort zone.
Random thought: So it's a Monday and obviously, may hang over pa ako sa weekend. I spent my days off in Liliw and I felt normal again. Free from worry. I know Liliw has always been my home. I may want to see new places and would like to meet new people but I know my heart will always go back to this place. Pero ayun nga. I can't stay there.. Yet. I can't. Can't figure out what to do.
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jasmindci ¡ 7 years ago
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2017
Last night, I started writing my entry. My first draft was dark, dramatic, lost with no direction. I cannot find the perfect words to describe how the year was. You know those days when you are just okay and then suddenly you will feel sad, lonely, and regretful. So, I decided to delete it and sleep.
This morning, I prayed. I asked for God’s guidance. Nothing else. Only peace of mind. And then I emptied my heart from all the trouble.
Me and my roommate will always have this kind of talk in the morning (or even at midnight) about anything and everything and then would eventually boil down to life lessons. And as our conversation ended, I realized the past year was all about learnings.
In my experience, important lessons in life are product of poor decisions. I mean I hope there’s other way but since I WAS hardheaded, I had no choice. I thought there’s nothing wrong in trying everything. Apparently, there is. Especially if you knew from the very beginning how things will work out (or will not).
Here are the major lessons I picked up from last year:
Dream job
This year has thought me how to value what I have. My job and the company I am working for is not my first choice. At times, I envy the people at my age who have accomplished a lot while I am just here in our boring office. I hate how stagnant my life is. But as I look back, this is actually by far the best experience I had. I met people who became friends. It’s rare to find genuine people in the corporate world. I learned professionalism. I learned how to value time. I learned that in everything I do, I must put my heart in it. And though this is not my “dream job” yet, I have learnt that this is part of the journey and I should keep going to reach the destination.
Relationship
I came from a toxic relationship. The break up is still fresh and I would be lying if I say it doesn’t hurt. Man, I was so in love. I can give him the world but he turned out to be someone else. But at the same time, I am thankful it ended. I no longer have to compete with everyone just to feel loved. I no longer have to be with someone who only wants me because he needs me.You shouldn’t lose yourself when you enter a relationship. You don’t complete each other. You should be complete, alone. A partner should help you grow and become better. Otherwise, you are with the wrong person. And most importantly, you have to learn to get up from the table when love is no longer served.
Self-worth
I seek love in wrong places and wrong people. I pleased people. I hate to admit it but at one point in life, it’s the only thing I did. I would wake up to show the people who hurt me how I am doing well. How I can do better than them. That I am better than them. I have nothing in head but insecurities. But eventually, I realized that what people say doesn’t matter. As long as you do nothing wrong to others, it doesn’t matter if they will accept you or not. Do what makes you happy.
It is pure joy when you are acknowledged and appreciated. But it is better if it’s not forced.
Faith
Each day of last year was a test of faith. There were times I was knocked down. But prayer is my armor. And faith is what keeps me going. I don’t walk blindly. Faith can turn your trouble into blessings. Have faith and follow God.
I may have had encountered more failures than success in 2017, but I realized there is also success in failures. And those are life lessons. I failed, but surely those experiences taught me to become a better person.
Be grateful for friends who keep you motivated and learn to remove people who bring nothing but pain in the ass.
Forgive and be thankful also to those who hurt you. Wish them well. I hope that the pain they caused will not change you.
I look forward to a better year, a better perspective in life and better decision-making skill (hehe). I look forward to finally start discovering new places, food and people. I hope to rekindle my love for writing and to spend more time with loved ones. Less gossip and nonsense convesations. To share love and faith. Accomplish more goals and never ending self-growth. I hope to do what my heart wants, finally. 💛
Above all, know that God knows what’s best for us. Trust Him because..
“Many are the plans in a person’s heart, but it is the LORD’s purpose that prevails.”
Let’s claim that 2018 will be a great year for everyone! Have a blessed and prosperous new year!! 🎆🎉
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