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i am TIRED of the cycle repeating. *repeats the cycle*

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O got older and achiviening gambling addiction in Obey Me! N Love n Deepspace which isn't even the worst thing that could happen to me

But quick question: am I supposed to be unreasonably mad? Is that like human trait I wasn't alerted about? Like, I've felt angry before n I get mad regularly(twitter) but I'm still curious why im mad right now bc nothing really happened

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It into Postal after this btw

Then MGS n DMC

And now ff (just starting)

Clearly I don't take my own advice

If i am easily influenced, im better get influenced by good media.

And i don't mean just media that is written good, not making good points about bad things. Just a good show with lighthearted story and no violence. No bad people, no nothing that considered problematic or criminal or illegal, just silly show. I don't want to see bad parts of fandom but my brain wants the thrill of disgust and i hate it.

I need to find a good role model.

But as much as i rationalize myself im not changing, i need to start making habits and stop acting like im not the one to blame. I am, im not responsible and i whine all the time about absolutely nothing. I can't stop crying no matter how dehydrated i am. I dont know who am i and i know ill find out eventually.

How do i get rid of mental ilness and bad habits before my brain fully develops?

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What if shifting in those school Dr like hogwarts or teen wolf or anything like these, is just shifters trying to go back to those familiar things in their life because they either never experienced them properly/"normally"?

Like if lockdown, bullying, poor mental health, abuse, anything of these sorts that ruined their formative years - n thats why they want to re-expirience the life that was took from them by external or internal reasons?

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I should probably stop getting in fandoms and expect my friend to NOT call me autistic bc of it

I promise I'm not, I just had 3 month brainrot for Postal and it let go a week ago and now im in Debil May Cry hell.

Please shoot me

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Я стрімлю майнкрафт з друзями!!!

https://www.twitch.tv/tetriswithtea?sr=a

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Я стрімлю майнкрафт з друзями!!!

https://www.twitch.tv/tetriswithtea?sr=a

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Good luck on your shifting journey :D

OMG

THANKS!!!! GOOD LUCK TO YOURS!!!!

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guy with telepathy but he can't use it because every time he tunes into someone else's mind their unique perception of all of reality is so fundamentally different than his own and so incomprehensible that he just immediately passes out like a lovecraftian horror protagonist

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*"stress dream" = dreams you get when under large amounts of stress or anxiety irl, that may or may not relate to your current situation irl.

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Tube escape! Ft. Smouldering allergic reactions!

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HLVRAI demon au, but its Boomer and Bubby is angel while Dr Coomer demon

Tube made Angel Bubby who runs away and meet Coomer who also runs away from Black Mesa

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i’m gonna drop an art tip here

i think an important thing to learn, especially if you start out with drawing anime, is that faces don’t necessarily have to narrow from top to bottom

i like to think of wide top, wide middle, wide bottom, and rectangle-like as the 4 main face shapes

what you should keep in mind about them:

you’re only halfway done: the jawlines, the width-length ratio, the amount of fat in the cheeks, the intensity or subtlety of the face’s curves are all important components you still have to decide on after choosing the shape itself

none of these shapes are exclusively feminine or masculine, don’t hesitate drawing them on any gender

most people in real life have some variation of the wide middle type

if you are trying to draw real people, getting the shape of their face down is the first step

i’ve seen tutorials say the shape of the face can tell a lot of the character’s personality - you don’t necessarily have to live by that rule. as long as you aren’t unrealistically drastic about their proportions, their face shape determines their inner qualities as much as it would in real life (not at all)

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what should i do

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i wasn't active here in a bit

my dog got bigger

I'm older on one(1) year

new year still in this town

my grades are okay-ish

my shifting journey got an update that is called multiplayer, but still un successful but my motivation didn't die out