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Y'know - just silliness.

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I got this idea from the second episode. When Pomni was mentally saved by the human connections she makes in the Circus during Kaufmo's funeral.

I'm playing with the idea of how connection could help Jax.

Jax disappeared after his explosion at Ribbit being added with the NPCs. He attempted to play it off. This didn't bother him. It wasn't supposed to bother him. He was the funny one.

He walked back up to his room, stood outside of the door and stayed there. He couldn't go in.

It was where it happened.

That happened.

Jax turned leaning his back on the door and slid down. It felt like he was dying.

Jax!

No no no. Go away. He wanted to tell the uninvited guest as he collapsed. But he couldn't breathe.

“Jax?” Another voice echoed. “It's okay we’re here.”

“Leave me alone.” He managed between breaths.

Pomni and Ragatha looked at each other torn between respecting his wishes and not wanting to leave him like this. Ragatha nodded and Pomni moved to his other side. They both sat with him as he slowly regained control.

“Oh man I must be pathetic when the jester and the doll are worried about me.” He laughed bitterly

“It’s fair that you would be upset at seeing him again.” Pomni countered.

Jax rolled his eyes and pulled himself inward wrapping arms around his knees pulling them to his chest.

“You say that we are all archetypes. I’ve seen Gangle happy, Ragatha sad, Kinger sane, and Zooble being kind. I think that means we are still human.” Pomni spoke hoping it would connect to him that he was human too. That he's maladaptive coping for this Circus was not only hurting others but himself as well.

Silence followed as Jax hid his face in his knees ashamed of the tears he hid.

Ragatha stared forward collecting her words. She swam in the memories of how they got here. Her overbearing and him withdrawing. She remembered what Kinger told her. If there was a time to reach out this was her chance and she wanted to.

“I'm so stupid.” Ragatha started. Jax snorted, agreeing with her.

“I-I was so worried when Ribbit abstracted…” I can do this even if he does hate me. “...that you would follow him.” Ragatha looked up trying to blink her tears away.

“I wanted to make sure you were happy that everyone was happy. I just pushed everyone away. I didn't consider what you needed.”

Jax looked at her releasing the tight ball he held.

“I'm sorry Jax.”

“We're still people.” Pomni added all three of them looking at the wall across the hall. “We think there for we are. But we feel too. We can't pretend that we don't. It's not good for us.”

Jax sighed. He was tired of talking. He reached for a hand on each side. It surprised both of them. Jax was not known for affection. They accepted his offer and the three of them sat quietly.

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Shot 4 Update

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I promise.

A phrase from the charity stream.

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Loved episode 6 can't wait for the rest

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Random Art Dumpies!!!

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My idea of Verosika processing her break up with Blitz and coming thru on the other side.