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To anyone who suffers anxiety

I guess I am a little older than your general Tumblr user then again I don’t really know the statistics. I’m 32 years old I’ve suffered anxiety now for about 14 years… at least four of those years I was undiagnosed and I had no idea what anxiety even was. For those four years I suffered almost constantly with anxiety attacks I was pretty much housebound and found it difficult to leave my room.

I’ve now gone through a hard stage of either being on medication or just trying to deal with it using techniques that I’ve learnt along the way. To say it’s hard is an understatement and to anybody who is suffering from anxiety, I want you to know how strong you are. Not everybody could cope with this and no matter what you’re coping strategies are provided they’re healthy, for your own sake, you’re doing your best. You should be proud of that.

Sometimes I wake up in the morning and I feel fine,I feel really good actually, I wake up I go downstairs and I figure out what I need to do for the day. Sometimes it’s a busy day sometimes not so much, sometimes I have to go to work. Then I start doing what I need to do whatever that may be, and all of a sudden I’m not fine, I don’t feel fine any more I feel panicked, I feel shaky, I feel uncertain, I feel scared and sometimes I don’t know why. It can be simple as the weather is hotter than I was expecting so my body temperature changes, it could be that the place where I am is so crowded that for some reason that scares me, it could be that for an unknown reason my hands are shaking my body is doing something unusual and I’m taking notice of it and that makes me panic. Everybody has different triggers everybody has different reasons for an anxiety attack to come on, the worst part about them is that they can happen anywhere at any time and sometimes you don’t even know why. It’s scary, it’s confusing, and it makes you feel like shit because you feel like you should be able to control it. Sometimes you can control it, and then sometimes you can’t and when you can’t it makes you feel out of control, scared.

The reason I’m writing all this is because anybody who suffering anxiety just like I am I want you to know that you’re not alone. Somebody always knows what you’re feeling somebody has been there as well. And they know that it’s not easy. It’s not easy to do the little things that people seem to be able to do so easily when they don’t suffer from anxiety. They know and understand the feeling of frustration that you get when you see people doing things, just every day things, so easily when it is so hard for you to do. Why is it so easy for them? Why is it so hard for you? If you do see that and it does make you feel bad remember you don’t know their story they could have other Demons, they could find other things hard you just don’t know don’t beat yourself up for something you don’t completely understand.

It does get better, learning strategies to cope with this sort of thing help. It’s just sometimes you have your bad days and sometimes you have your good days just keep faith in yourself that even though you feel this you come out the other side and you’ll still be okay, it’s okay that you have anxiety, it’s okay sometimes you’re not okay. Most of all it’s okay to talk about it.

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Me: *goes to get flu shot*

My head: done this before all will

Be fine body don’t worry...

Anxiety: but what if you die or fit or have a really bad reaction?

My head: but that won’t happen because it’s never happened before so why would it now?

Anxiety: but what if it does?

My head:....

Body: *relases a shitload of unnecessary adrenaline*

Que anxiety attack.

[jester00]

To anyone who suffers anxiety

I guess I am a little older than your general Tumblr user then again I don’t really know the statistics. I’m 32 years old I’ve suffered anxiety now for about 14 years… at least four of those years I was undiagnosed and I had no idea what anxiety even was. For those four years I suffered almost constantly with anxiety attacks I was pretty much housebound and found it difficult to leave my room.

I’ve now gone through a hard stage of either being on medication or just trying to deal with it using techniques that I’ve learnt along the way. To say it’s hard is an understatement and to anybody who is suffering from anxiety, I want you to know how strong you are. Not everybody could cope with this and no matter what you’re coping strategies are provided they’re healthy, for your own sake, you’re doing your best. You should be proud of that.

Sometimes I wake up in the morning and I feel fine,I feel really good actually, I wake up I go downstairs and I figure out what I need to do for the day. Sometimes it’s a busy day sometimes not so much, sometimes I have to go to work. Then I start doing what I need to do whatever that may be, and all of a sudden I’m not fine, I don’t feel fine any more I feel panicked, I feel shaky, I feel uncertain, I feel scared and sometimes I don’t know why. It can be simple as the weather is hotter than I was expecting so my body temperature changes, it could be that the place where I am is so crowded that for some reason that scares me, it could be that for an unknown reason my hands are shaking my body is doing something unusual and I’m taking notice of it and that makes me panic. Everybody has different triggers everybody has different reasons for an anxiety attack to come on, the worst part about them is that they can happen anywhere at any time and sometimes you don’t even know why. It’s scary, it’s confusing, and it makes you feel like shit because you feel like you should be able to control it. Sometimes you can control it, and then sometimes you can’t and when you can’t it makes you feel out of control, scared.

The reason I’m writing all this is because anybody who suffering anxiety just like I am I want you to know that you’re not alone. Somebody always knows what you’re feeling somebody has been there as well. And they know that it’s not easy. It’s not easy to do the little things that people seem to be able to do so easily when they don’t suffer from anxiety. They know and understand the feeling of frustration that you get when you see people doing things, just every day things, so easily when it is so hard for you to do. Why is it so easy for them? Why is it so hard for you? If you do see that and it does make you feel bad remember you don’t know their story they could have other Demons, they could find other things hard you just don’t know don’t beat yourself up for something you don’t completely understand.

It does get better, learning strategies to cope with this sort of thing help. It’s just sometimes you have your bad days and sometimes you have your good days just keep faith in yourself that even though you feel this you come out the other side and you’ll still be okay, it’s okay that you have anxiety, it’s okay sometimes you’re not okay. Most of all it’s okay to talk about it.

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[jester00]

To anyone who suffers anxiety

I guess I am a little older than your general Tumblr user then again I don’t really know the statistics. I’m 32 years old I’ve suffered anxiety now for about 14 years... at least four of those years I was undiagnosed and I had no idea what anxiety even was. For those four years I suffered almost constantly with anxiety attacks I was pretty much housebound and found it difficult to leave my room.

I’ve now gone through a hard stage of either being on medication or just trying to deal with it using techniques that I’ve learnt along the way. To say it’s hard is an understatement and to anybody who is suffering from anxiety, I want you to know how strong you are. Not everybody could cope with this and no matter what you’re coping strategies are provided they’re healthy, for your own sake, you’re doing your best. You should be proud of that.

Sometimes I wake up in the morning and I feel fine,I feel really good actually, I wake up I go downstairs and I figure out what I need to do for the day. Sometimes it’s a busy day sometimes not so much, sometimes I have to go to work. Then I start doing what I need to do whatever that may be, and all of a sudden I’m not fine, I don’t feel fine any more I feel panicked, I feel shaky, I feel uncertain, I feel scared and sometimes I don’t know why. It can be simple as the weather is hotter than I was expecting so my body temperature changes, it could be that the place where I am is so crowded that for some reason that scares me, it could be that for an unknown reason my hands are shaking my body is doing something unusual and I’m taking notice of it and that makes me panic. Everybody has different triggers everybody has different reasons for an anxiety attack to come on, the worst part about them is that they can happen anywhere at any time and sometimes you don’t even know why. It’s scary, it’s confusing, and it makes you feel like shit because you feel like you should be able to control it. Sometimes you can control it, and then sometimes you can’t and when you can’t it makes you feel out of control, scared.

The reason I’m writing all this is because anybody who suffering anxiety just like I am I want you to know that you’re not alone. Somebody always knows what you’re feeling somebody has been there as well. And they know that it’s not easy. It’s not easy to do the little things that people seem to be able to do so easily when they don’t suffer from anxiety. They know and understand the feeling of frustration that you get when you see people doing things, just every day things, so easily when it is so hard for you to do. Why is it so easy for them? Why is it so hard for you? If you do see that and it does make you feel bad remember you don’t know their story they could have other Demons, they could find other things hard you just don’t know don’t beat yourself up for something you don’t completely understand.

It does get better, learning strategies to cope with this sort of thing help. It’s just sometimes you have your bad days and sometimes you have your good days just keep faith in yourself that even though you feel this you come out the other side and you’ll still be okay, it’s okay that you have anxiety, it’s okay sometimes you’re not okay. Most of all it’s okay to talk about it.

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Just don’t

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me: well at least my self esteem cant get any lower

self esteem:

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I wish I was a vampire. I would

: kill rapists and child abusers

: could turn off emotions

: be super fast and strong

: have hot teeth

: be scary

: people wouldn’t fuck with me

: my heart couldn’t break because I’m already dead

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“dont mistake salt for sugar, if he wants to be with you, he will. its that simple.”

— rupi kaur; milk and honey

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When you have that feeling your whole world is about to fall apart

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