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Know too much- Jungkook (pt2)

Genre: Romance; angst; slow burn; friends2lovers; Warnings: strong language; mentions of drinking; mentions of violence; protected sex (wrap it up lol); mentions of sucking, licking, bitting; doggy style; Wordcount: 15k

Ps- English is not my first language so I'm sorry for any mistakes!

Your second year of college had just started and you were already fed up. If it weren't for your dream, you would've given up a long time ago. The teachers gave you assignments earlier and earlier, with subjects that made you crazy and with less and less time for yourself. Right now you were with your head in the books, doing a project on child development when you felt your phone vibrate. At first, you thought it would be Peter, because since classes started, he has been doing everything he could to cross your path and get back together, to which you refused, without exaggeration, about 15 times. However, to your surprise, you came across Jungkook's name on the screen. "Hello?"

"Y/n, hi!" You noticed him struggling with his own words, as if he didn't know what to say. "I'm calling because- I wanted to know if" a deep, deep breath was heard- "Are you busy right now?" You were confused.

"No… I didn't have any classes in the afternoon so I took the opportunity to get ahead on my paper work… Why?"

"No! God, no. It's that- hmmm- I'm here." Your brain froze.

"What do you mean, you're here?"

"Here as near your college." You didn't hear anything else, because you felt yourself panick. What the hell was he doing here? You started to turn off the computer and organize your books silently until his voice came back to break you out of the trance you were in. "Y/n, are you there?"

"Yes, yes, sorry. My roommate came in and asked me something and I got distracted. Excuse me, you were saying?"

"I'm in front of your college. I came here for work and thought why not call and ask if you wanted to have a drink with me. I can wait if you want, I'm in no ru--" You didn't even let him finish the sentence.

"Sure! Give me 5 minutes to get ready and I'll come to you. Where exactly are you?"

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After hanging up, you put on something nicer than the sweatshirt you had before and fixed your hair that was a mess and went to meet Jungkook at the cafe near your college. As you walked there, you became even more nervous. You were friends, you had solved your conflicts and things were finally back to normal between you. A few months ago you wouldn't have felt this way, so why now?

Your mind was a whirlwind of thoughts and emotions you were still unfamiliar with and they quickly got worse when you entered the aforementioned café and came face to face with Jungkook with longer hair than before, black pants that were tighter at the waist, and a simple gray shirt, showing clearly see the necklace around his neck. It was a short-sleeved tshirt so all the tattoos on his arm were on display. You could also see a group of girls way too interested in your best friend and you were hating it. You know these girls hormones were raging, but damn, couldn't they hide it a little better? Assholes

When he saw you approaching, he stood up from where he was sitting and hugged you. With the corner of your eye, you saw some of the girls who were previously staring at him, making an ugly face. 1 to 0

"Thanks for coming."

"Of course. I just wasn't expecting it, what are you doing around here?"

"Job reasons." He scrunched his nose. Gosh how you loved it when he did this. "Me and some other collegues are taking a professional course. It's necessary to keep up with new things from time to time so we can also adjust with clients' changing tastes, they've been very demanding lately. I'm staying at the hotel in front"

"That's great Jk, glad this time you didn't lose your phone." You laughed as you remembered the last time Jungkook traveled for work and the chaos it was.

"Don't mock me, it was a mishap." He answered, laughing too. "How are you?"

"I'm fine, swamped with psychology and advanced math work, but other than that I'm awesome. You?"

"Always fine, as you can see."

"Of course you are. Why was I expecting a different answer from you?" you laughed and he did too, taking a sip of his beer. Every now and then you'd glance at the group from afar and apparently you weren't very subtle, because you saw Jungkook turn his face to look over to where your attention was. He must have noticed your discomfort since the next thing he said was "Do you want to get out of here?"

You didn't hesitate.

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You left the café and went for a walk around the city. You were silent for a while until something came out that not even you knew you were going to say. "How do you stand it?" He looked at you, visibly confused "What do you mean?"

"Wherever you go, you always have people eating you up with their eyes. Doesn't that bother you? How does Sophia not care about that?"

Sophia! Fuck, did he tell her he was with you? Once again you forgot he had a girlfriend and suddenly Rose's words chanted through your head. All of a sudden you felt the need to distance yourself from Jungkook, but when you were about to he grabbed you by the arm and pulled you closer to him gently, whispering be careful. You saw a car speed past you a few seconds later

"What I'm about to say might sound bad, but I'm already used to the looks and the attention." He looked at you briefly. "At first it burst my ego, I won't deny it. I was young, my hormones were out of whack and the only head that worked back then was my dick." You punch him in the arm in protest and he laughs. "It felt good to have female attention, even if it was just physical. However, it started causing me problems with people I really cared about and I began thinking about everything and everyone I lost and hurt with my behaviour."

You arrived at a well-known garden called Doors of the Sun. This garden was known for the best sunsets of all times. You and Jungkook sat on a bench.

"Isn't that how you met Sophia? In the middle of that whole process?" He sighed.

"Yes, she had recently joined the team, we were on a work trip and we ended up getting closer, all without ulterior motives. She had also come out of a complicated relationship and we shared our experiences, she gave me advice and opinions and vice versa. Things just happened I guess. She helped me a lot dealing with my emotional side. I've always been very impulsive and it doesn't always work out. Sometimes it's good to stop and think."

"When Tae commented you were with someone I didn't believe it. I was surprised when I saw you two together. For someone who didn't need relationships and even avoided them, it didn't take long for you to settle. You helped each other and the change in you is noticeable, you're different and I'm happy. Speaking of, does she know you're here with me?" He nods "and she isn't jealous?" He turns to look at you but this time without teasing eyes

"Does she have any reasons to be jealous?" That question caught you off guard. Damn, don't bury yourself Y/n, don't fuck it up.

"N-no. What I meant to say is that usually women don't like to see their partners around other females. It's part of the feminine science. It always causes conflicts and stuff. Couldn't help but notice how chill she is about it, it's… admirable."

"Yes, she's cool about it, there's no reason for her to be jealous, right? I've never had anything with you or Rosé, maybe that made it easier to accept men and women can be friends without having feelings for each other?" He was back to that playful tone, but you somehow were a little disappointed. In a way, he had just confirmed that night, he had just let himself get carried away by the alcohol on his system. Of course he would never feel anything for you, someone younger and inexperienced, full of teenage testosterone. Maybe that was why it was so easy for him to move on while you were stuck only at the thought of it.

"Exactly." You said with a change of tone that aparently went unnoticed by him. Neither you nor him said anything else and just enjoyed the sunset happening in front of you. Sunrises and sunsets were your guilty pleasure, no matter how many times you witnessed it, you never got tired. It brough you an indescribable feeling of peace. Around 10m later, you felt your phone vibrate. It was a text from your roommate saying she was going to spend the night with her boyfriend. Well, another night alone. You sighed

"Is everything okay?"

"Ahh yes. All good, just my roommate telling me not to wait for her today. Speaking of which, I have to get going… I still have to finish some work and it’s getting late” Jungkook looked disappointed but went with it

"Sure yeah let's go. Let's take a cab." You went looking for an avaiable one. Before, the silence between you was comfortable but now it was very noticeable the tension. This time you spoke first

"How long are you going to stay here?"

"Until Saturday"

"That's great. Are these professional courses always this long?"

"It depends… sometimes they take two days, others a week. It depends on what they are about. They might be annoying as fuck yet that's how we learn new tecniques, new equipment and so on"

“What a coincidence you ended up on the hotel near my college. That’s funny, now whenever I feel bored I already know where to go bore someone else too” You said as joke but the look he gave you got you intrigued. You took a cab and in 5 minutes you were already standing at the entrance of your college.

“Thank you for joining me on this little walk adventure, it was fun”

“Thank you for meeting me here. It was great. I missed it.” He gave you a genuine smile. You waved at him and turned around to go inside when you hear him say “Have dinner with me”

You stopped in your tracks and looked at him. You wanted to say yes, you almost did, but you knew you were in the wrong if you did. No matter how much you tried to ignore, it was time to accept your feelings for him were more than just friends. You had to stop being selfish, wanting him all to yourself when you know he has someone waiting for him at home. You were not gonna be that bitch “I’m sorry Kookie i can’t. I have a lot of to do and hmmm…. Maybe some other time."

“If I didn’t know you better I’d believe it yet there’s something else isn’t it?” You chocked on your own saliva

“There isn’t Jungkook I’m just really busy with all of it my paper works”

“That never stopped you from hanging out with me before. It’s not even that late Y/n, just 7:30 p.m, would take you what, a hour and a half tops. If you want to decline that's fine but at least be honest with me”

“You have a girlfriend Jk. You have someone waiting for you, it doesn’t feel right having dinner just us two when your girl isnt around. It looks bad”

“Why are you so worried about Sophia when it’s not even you who’s —” he didn’t complete his setence.

“ I wouldn’t like my boyfriend to have such a moment with one of his female friends. I’d lose my mind If I was dating you and knew you were hanging out with some other girl. I'd think you were cheating on me you know what I mean?”

“Why do you feel like is cheating? We used to hang out a lot when you were with Peter and never did you mention that at all. What makes it different now?” One thing you despised in Jungkook was how he always knew what to say next, leaving you with no answer. How could you say you felt different in his presence? That he would make butterflies appear in your stomach just by looking at you. You ruined your friendship once for being afraid and you know you’re gonna ruin it again if you were honest with him now. You suffered a lot of losses, he wouldn’t be another one.

“I’m just putting myself in her shoes. Besides you have your work mates right? They can keep you company during dinner, have fun, bond. How do you think it’d look like if you chose to dinner with me instead of them? Isn't Sophia part of the team aswell ?”

“Okay, okay. I got it. Not pushing it, sorry”

“Don’t be mad at me Kook, please. Just because there’s no malice it doesn’t mean it’s right and I’d feel awful if you fought because of this. She can be very independent and upfront but at the end of the day she’s still a woman and it goes the same for everyone.” Jungkook sighed and patted your head

“What am I gonna do with you?” You laughed even though he wasn't amused. At all

“Have a good night. Behave! and good luck with your work, try not to be bored much”

You headed back at your dorm. Why was he so addament on having dinner with you? What has he said to Sophia? Did he mention he had seen you? That you hung out for a while?

Everything felt to much and you only has one person to call

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“Hello?”

“I think I'm in love with Jungkook” The line went silent for a few minutes. She was going to kill you

“Are you drunk?”

“I wish i was Rosé. I-I'm fucked.” Rosé sighed

“How did you realize your feelings?”

“I was with Jungkook just now… he’s in one of those professional courses and he called me asking if I was busy and he told me he was here. I met up with him, went for a drink and showed him a bit of the city, then we grabbed a cab together and as I was saying goodbye he invite me to dinner”

“He invited you? Ohhh”

“I know how it sounds! We didn’t do anything I swear! I kept thinking about Sophia the entire time… she’s the only reason I said no. I was so dumb to reject him back then. I’m so fucking stupid! I did this to myself, I should’ve followed my gut and go for it and now I’m watching the guy I’ve feelings for be with someone else.” Rosé was quiet. Too quiet for your liking, as if she wanted to say something but wasn't sure if she should. As for you, your mind was racing. Jungkook was your best friend, if things didn't go as you wished, everything would go down the rail and it'd be over for good.

"You should talk to him, be honest for once. It was because of your lack of courage to face what you felt that things got weird in the first place. If you have something to admit, it's better to do it now before more people get hurt and you know exactly who I'm talking about. Others don't deserve to get hurt because of your messed up minds. Think about it Y/n." You didn't know how to face Jungkook anymore.

Shit

You didn't hear from Jungkook the next day

You had sent him a text asking if everything was okay yet you hadn't gotten a response. Was he upset? Either way, you hadn't said anything bad, you were just honest about your thoughts. Now, almost finishing your psychology class, you wanted to go eat something at Blues, the cafe you went with Jungkook the day before. He hadn't answered yet so you decided not to push it and respect his space and time.

What you didn't expect was to see his silhouette at the door. He had his back against the wall in front of the exit door, looking at the watch on his left wrist. When he noticed footsteps near him, he looked up and saw you. "Thought I missed your exit." He smiled. "How was your day?" You stood still for a few minutes, without reacting. How did he know your schedule? Could it have been Rosé?

"Too long to be honest, thought it was never over. I'm starving." You tilted your head so you could appreciate better the hunk of a man in front of you. "How's your training going?"

"Same as always"

"It could only be." You both laughed. "Do you want to eat something? I'm not kidding when I say I could eat a cow right now"

"Since you're offering it, I won't refuse." You punched his arm and tried to make him fall, but to no avail. When you arrived at Blues, you looked for the best place to sit. You realized one of the girls who was here the other day was here again and you could only roll your eyes. "What do you want to eat?"

"A toasted sandwich with an orange juice." Jungkook nodded.

"I'll go to the bathroom and take the opportunity to order for us. I'll be right back" He got up and actually went to the counter to talk to an employee, then he went to the bathroom. It didn't take long for him to get out, however when you realized it, there was already a blonde with long hair, hazel eyes, black pants, a red top and a warm brown coat talking to him. At that moment you just wanted to get up and throw a chair at her head and shout he has a girlfriend bitch.

Suddenly Jungkook's eyes dart towards you and you quickly look away to the street, trying to calm your fury a little. Not even two minutes passed before he was standing next to you with the order in his hands. "I hope this satisfies your hunger" the toast was huge and you wondered if you could eat all of it alone.

"I guess it will do" - that was really good.

"So" he looked at you in amusement. You frowned your brows "so what?"

"Aren't you going to ask me what she wanted?" you choked on the piece you had in your mouth. You tried to keep calm

"Why would I? It's none of my business"

"That's not what your reaction told me." Fuck. Were you that transparent? What were you going to say now? You ate some more of your food.

"Don't be silly. What reaction? As if" Jungkook pulled your plate towards him so you were looking directly at him, leaning forward on the table, piercing you with his eyes. What was he doing. "Don't lie," he read you like a book. You couldn't try to fool him, he was always two steps ahead of you.

"I'm not lying. It just irritates me that these high school girls' hormones are raging. They can't see someone attractive without sniffing around." Jungkook's expression softened immediately.

"So you find me attractive." You choked to the point you had to take a sip of your drink. "You understood." You were dying to let the subject die there. "Anyway, you didn't tell me what are you doing here. You ignore me the whole day and then show up out of nowhere."

"You're right, sorry. It wasn't intentional.. I was busy and ended up disconnecting for a bit." You hummed and finished you toast and juice. Then you remembered your conversation with Rosé last night and you had to ask

"How's Sophia? Have you spoken to her?" however Jungkook's reaction was completely opposite to what you expected, slamming his hands hard on the table.

"Can you stop bringing Sophia up? Jesus Y/n, how bad does it look for me to hang out with an old friend? It's like it's almost wrong to have friends at all! I can't hang out with you lately because all you ever say revolves around Sophia. Yes, she is okay, yes she knows I'm here with you. She's working and so am I okay?" He ran his hands through his hair before getting up and paying the bill, leaving afterwards without giving you time to react.

You quickly grabbed your things and went after him. He was already further ahead than you thought and you had to do a mini run to get to him, grabbing his arm. "Wait - wa- you're right, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to make you uncomfortable. Honestly, I don't even know why I keep mentioning her I-- sorry." He released himself from your hand and the only thing he said to you was "You should go back"

and you did, feeling like you ruined everything one more time

Friday

It was JK's last day here and you had never seen or spoken to him again, but you were willing to change that today. You remember Jungkook telling you he was at the hotel near your college and your last class ended at 6:30 p.m so you had time to go to the dorm, take a shower and put on something decent to go see him. You just hoped you were lucky and he was at the hotel instead of going out with his coworkers.

After showering, you looked in your closet and shock - you had nothing decent to wear - at that moment you regretted not going shopping with your Alexa when she asked you out until - bingo - A tight black jumpsuit, strapless, with a neckline that flattered your chest, a bit of Chanel No. 5 perfume Jungkook gave you for Christmas and a pair of white sneakers (the more practical the better) and you were ready.

It was now or never.

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Along the way, you practiced your speech a thousand times but when you got there and asked the receptionist about Jungkook, you started to get nervous. That's because the girl in front of you said she couldn't provide any informations about the hotel's guests. You hadn't even asked anything special, just if Jungkook was at the hotel. You even asked her very politely if she wouldn't mind at least informing him he had someone waiting for him in the lobby, to which she stupidly refused.

You gave up on arguing with her anymore. In the end, it wouldn't be worth it and you'd end up getting kicked out, so you stayed there, looking around, finding ways to get to him, checking to see if there was anyone you knew, but in vain. You wanted it to be a surprise, so calling him would ruin that. You decided to wait a little longer. You were starting to lose hope until you heard that familiar laugh. You looked back and saw him with a man who looked older than him, reaching for the elevator.

You almost tripped over your own feet as you walked towards them and you considered giving up on the idea and turning back, but it was too late, you were already a short distance away from them. Your voice sounded strange when you called his name the first time, but he didn't even move. You decided to move a little closer to them and this time, in a firmer voice, you called him again. As soon as he heard your voice, his head turned to looking for you. When he spotted you everything around him stopped.

You noticed how his eyes went from your eyes to your lips, to your body and back to you and you lost the ability to speak for a moment. "Y/n? Wh- What are you doing here?" You didn't know what to say, your mouth opened and closed and nothing came out. Then the elevator doors opened and his colleague told him that he was going up, leaving you two alone. "Are you okay?" He was wearing an all-black outfit, with a beanie and yet he was completely irresistible.

"Yeah, I'm fine." You took a deep breath. " Sorry to show up like this without warning, I hope I didn't interrupt anything."

"You didn't, we just returned from the warehouse where we bought new materials to take tomorrow."

"Right… I remembered you're leaving tomorrow and- well- I wanted, I mean, I want to know if you're free and if you'd like to have dinner with me." You said the last words so quietly that he had trouble understanding them.

"Are you inviting me to have dinner with you? What would my friends say if they saw us together?" He had a mocking look on his face and you knew he was right, he had just turned your words against yourself.

"I know. You're right for being mad at me. I fucked up as always. I just didn't want you to leave without apologizing first." You sighed "and for being a pain in your ass most of the time."

You had taken a few steps back to give Jungkook space to leave, but he approached you and put an arm around your neck, smiling from ear to ear. "Where to? The hotel restaurant has great food if you want to try it." You looked at him and smiled too "let's go then."

When you arrived, you noticed the restaurant's atmosphere was calm and romantic, no wonder it was full. Somehow Jungkook managed to get a table for two and the butler escorted you. Jungkook ordered the filet mignon à la carte and you ordered the same, along with a bottle of red wine. Jungkook hadn't said anything else, he just looked at you and gave you a half smile.

"I hope you enjoyed your stay here," you started making conversation. "There's not much to see, but the gardens are fabulous."

"Apart from a stubborn friend I have here, I have nothing to complain about," he teased. You kick him under the table, to which he complains. "Ouch"

"You wouldn't live without me," you snapped. "I really wouldn't," he confirmed looking deep in your eyes. Meanwhile, your food arrived and you began to eat and drink, with laughter and casual conversation, memories from the past, good and bad. When the bill arrived, you were about to take out your wallet, but he beat you to it. You stamped your foot. "I'm the one who invited you."

"I know, but I want to pay." There was no point in contradicting him, so you just nodded and thanked him. You were leaving the restaurant when you asked, "Do you want to go for a walk?" No answer was needed.

"Remember the night of my birthday?" you said suddenly. Jungkook nodded.

"How could I forget? It was chaos." You sat on a bench nearby

"You were right, you know. About me. Your words hurt, but now I know how true they were." Jungkook sat next to you looking at the river in front of you. He didn't say anything letting you talk. " I was selfish and naive back then. I was such a coward about what I wanted, about what and how I felt, I ended up hurting myself and you in the process. I found it hard to understand it was my fault, when in fact everything was simple. I just had to accept everything I felt at the time but I was just fine running away and in the end I screwed myself over. I saw everything in rose-colored glass when in fact the world is gray."

"I didn't act in the best way either. I was ignorant and didn't think things through properly. I said all the wrong things because my ego was hurt. I wasn't used to rejection, especially knowing what you thought of me. You may have been wrong but I was wrong too. My God, I called you a prude, for fucks sake. I said the only reason I was hanging out with you was because of Tae and Rosé, when deep down it was because you were the only one who fully understood me. I chose to spend time with you and I would choose again as many times as necessary."

Before you could answer, you felt a drop fall on your nose, then two, three, four and five. It was starting to rain. Shit. At that point in time, Jungkook took off his coat and put it over your heads. "Let's go back to the hotel." You don't remember walking as fast as you did that night. As you walked, the rain got stronger and stronger and when you got to Jungkook's hotel room, you were completely soaked. He went to get two towels, handing you one.

"The bathroom is free, in case you want to change your clothes and take a hot shower. I have some of my clothes here , they're loose but I think they'll fit." You thanked him and went straight to the shower, it was freezing cold and that hot water falling on your body would do you good. When you came out, Jungkook was already dressed and ready too, with two cups of coffee on a table. He took one and gave you the other "your favorite". You took a sip and immediately felt renewed. "This is great. I don't have it in college." you both laughed.

Both of you were looking out the bedroom window, watching the pouring rain against it. "Jungkook?" He hummed in response. " I'd choose you too, at every chance I had" You were close, too close. The intense gazes, the pounding hearts and the chemistry between you two was off the roof. "The only reason I keep bringing up Sophia is because, in a way, I'm jealous. I'm jealous she was able to change you to the point where you felt safe in a relationship when back then you always ran away." I wish it had been me you wanted to say. His gaze was lost in your eyes. Had he drink too much during dinner to the point of imagining things?

"What do you mean by that?" You closed the distance between you a little more.

"What I mean is that I liked you back then and not just as a friend. Deep down I've always liked you, but I was afraid… afraid of what I wanted, of what you wanted, how I perceived life and how you lived it. I wanted to kiss you the night of my birthday, but I panicked and pushed you away. I know after tonight things won't be the same for us, but like Rosé told me once I have to trust: trust myself, trust you and trust in what the future is willing to bring, wether it be good or bad." Tears started forming on your eyes and soon started to drip. "I can't pretend these last days weren’t the best of my life. I can't pretend I wasn't happy you chose me, even if it was just for a few hours."

Both of your eyes are focused on each other, your breathing fast and closer to each other. Little by little the distance was getting shorter and although you wanted to know how his lips tasted like you couldn't allow it to go any further, so when you and Jungkook are about to close the distance that still exists between you, you shake your head and step back. "We can't do this, not like this." Jungkook's hands go straight to the sides of your face.

“I know.”

“We have to stop before something happens that we regret.” But it was already done. You poured your feelings to him and it was inevitable that things would change from now on, sincerely hoping somehow, sooner or later, Sophia would be able to forgive you. You and Jungkook stayed like that for a few minutes until you felt it was time for you to leave, trying not to make everything even more difficult. “When you get home tomorrow, let me know.” Jungkook nodded.

"Be careful. Let me know when you get to the dorm too, since you don't want me to go with you."

"It's better off this way." You say goodbye once more, with him planting a kiss on your forehead, a longer one than usual. You know how he feels because you're feeling the same way. You know that when he comes home and you meet again, things will be like before: two friends with completely different lives

And that'd be okay.

That weekend you didn't go home.

You hadn't gathered courage to face the whole scenario that awaited you at your hometown. You told Rosé what happened with Jungkook, hiding the part you almost kissed, afraid of what she would think of you or even of him. After that night, you only received a text from Jungkook saying he arrived home safely and after that you didn't talk much. You knew this was going to happen, it was hard not to.

The following week passed too quickly for your liking and you really had to go home: you hadn't seen your father in almost two weeks and you missed him and your friends, especially Jungkook. You haven't heard much from him, he hasn't posted much on social media and haven't hung out with Tae and Rose much either, although you know him and Tae talk to each other a lot. On Friday, you were finally picking up your bags to catch the bus to the station and you bumped into your ex. You weren't in the mood to put up with his weird ass. You got closer to the bus stop and caught a glimpse of him walking towards you. “It’s been a long time since I’ve seen you”

“You could have stayed like that, we were fine”

“Y/n, do you really have to snap like that? Can’t we try again? Everything was so good between us th-"

“Fine? Where was everything good? The way you tried to control me all the time? When you involved people you didn’t have to involve when we argued or I didn’t fall for your games? When you shared details of our sex life with strangers just to set yourself up? Things that weren’t even true or you think I don’t know about that? You're my biggest mistake Peter and if I could go back I'd do it in a heartbeat.” You were about to turn around when you heard the voice that has been giving you headaches for the past weeks.

“Is there something wrong?”

Behind you was Jungkook, wearing ripped jeans and a simple but elegant black shirt, with all his tattoos on display and his eyes boring into Peter’s face. “Jun- Jungkook!” You couldn’t hide your excitement seeing him in front of you. You went up to him almost running “What are you doing here?”

“I was passing by and decided to take a detour to pick you up, so you don’t have to take the bus or the train, especially with people who don’t know what a no means” this time Peter got involved.

“I knew I had reason to be suspicious, after all, women are all sluts, but don’t worry, what you’re fucking now, I did it fir--.” He didn’t have the chance to finish his sentence, because Jungkook had punched him and made him fall to the ground. Luckily there were no people around.

“You’re very lucky I don’t want Y/n to get in trouble, otherwise I would kill you right here right now, but here’s a warning my friend: if you come near her again or talk to her, I’ll bury you in an alley, ensuring myself no one will ever be able to find you, I guarantee you” he then looked at you, grabbed your bag with one hand and took your hand with the other. “Come on I have my car parked right in front.”

And for you that was the hottest thing he has ever done

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The roadtrip was peaceful. Neither you or him spoke and you were just listening to the songs playing on the radio, which at this moment was repeating Gracie Adams for the third time. The trip was about an hour, but Jungkook seemed to be in no hurry. Every now and then you’d feel his eyes on you but when you turned your gaze to him, he was already focused on the road again. You also noticed how tightly he was gripping the steering wheel, as if he wanted to say or do something but couldn't. Out of nowhere, you felt your phone vibrate: it was a message from Peter.

This won't end like this Y/n, I still love you.

you huffed and Jungkook looked at you. "Is it him?"

"Yes" you sighed. "I don't know why he keeps insisting, we broke up a while ago, he should have moved on by now." He looked at you again

"Are you really over him?" now it was you who looked at him

"Of course I am. To be fair I was never truly in love with him... I was with him and already mourning my relationship. I guess the reason that kept us together for so long was because he was there when my mother passed away and I felt bad for leaving- I settled for that as if I didn't deserve any better. Just to think my first time was with a guy like that- ugh-" You only realized the information given after it left your mouth. Why did you have to be so outspoken?

The shock must have been big because out of nowhere Jungkook braked the car, making your body go forward and back again. "sorry, thought I saw a wild cat." He tried to hide his surprise as best as he could however you managed to capture the surprise on his face. Now you were too embarrassed to say anything else. It took Jungkook a few seconds to be back on the road. Suddenly you heard him clear his throat. "Was he really your first?"

It was the first time you heard him say something relatively sexual without it being in a mocking tone. You're sure if it had been a few months ago his reaction would've been different, with him being on your case all the time. Your answer came out as a whisper "Yes he was"

More silence

"How was it?" you looked at him, face burning hot.

"Jungkook! what kind of question is that? How embarrassing! I never asked you any of that"

"Why are you embarrassed? It's normal. You didn't ask because you didn't want to, I always gave you the opportunity to do so. Do you wanna know ?"

"Yuck NO." You made a disgusted face. "you really think I want to know the details of your sex life? It's already enough to see you kissing another gi---" You swear that if you could, you'd crawl into a hole. "Forget it."

"No, no. Keep talking" he looked way to amused for your liking. "I'm enjoying this" you punched his arm.

"Well I'm not, let's drop it" you were quiet for a moment yet you never stopped feeling Jungkook's curious gaze on you. You growled" It wasn't good. Indeed awful, he was rough, it hurt like a bitch and at the end of it all he did was getting dressed and smoke, you can only imagine."

"What an idiot" Jungkook scoffed. "It's not always like that you know. It hurts at first yeah but it feels good afterwards" You rolled your eyes

"There's Mr. Experience talking. It's not as hard for you guys as it is for us girls and I could tell it was good, you were doing it all the time" He didn't say anything else. Remembering this bolder phase of his made you sad. You recall perfectly when you and your friends would hang out together and he'd showed up with marks on his neck, tangled hair or wrinkled clothes. Every day was a shard of your heart that broke. Not that you blamed him, he had no idea how you felt about that and honestly neither did you.

You were so over the moon you didn't realize Jungkook was talking to you. "Did you hear anything I said?" You shook your head and he laughed dryly. "I'll stop at the next service area to fill up, let's buy something to drink." You just nodded.

When you got there minutes later, you were the first to get out of the car, saying you needed to pee, not giving him a chance to reply. You opened your mouth too much on this roadtrip and now you were too uncomfortable. Besides, who in the world were you for blaming him for having a completely normal life like another teenager, just because it hurts to know he's been with other girls? He must think you're insane. You got to the bathroom and washed your face, smacking it lightly.

Control yourself.

After you finished, you grabbed your wallet and got out, not expecting to have Jungkook in front of you, waiting. "Damn it, Jungkook, you have to stop showing up like this, you're always scaring me."

"Get used to it." he scrunched his nose "Come on, we still have a while to go"

The rest of the trip was peaceful. He didn't bring up the sex subject again and you still managed to fall asleep for some time until you heard noises in the back of the car, where Jungkook was taking your bags out of the trunk. You got out of the car to help him but he stopped you. "Let me do it. Go and open the door so I can take them inside, please"

You searched your bag for your keys and found them at the bottom, after much rummaging. You opened the door and walked in, making room for Jungkook to enter with your bag and a smaller backpack. It was early so you knew your father was still working; you usually arrived home late due to public transportation delays.

You looked at Jungkook, who in turn was already looking at you, perhaps waiting for you to invite him in. You took a deep breath "Come in, make yourself comfortable. Want something to drink?" He nodded. "Water, beer, Coke, or lemonade?"

"Coke please"

While he set your bags in a corner of the entryway, you went to the kitchen, opened the fridge and grabbed two cold Cokes, handing one to him. "Thanks for the ride. If it weren't for you, I'd still be there."

"Good thing I showed up then, otherwise you'd have to put up with that jerk on the way." You laughed.

"Cheers to that." You both took a sip of your Coke until he unexpectedly spoke. "Have you ever tried to do it again?" You choked on your drink- literally-

"Why are you so curious about this? God! Do you find my miserable sex life funny?" You wanted to sound upset, but now that you thought about it, it was kinda funny, especially knowing these things only happen to you. "If you want to go that way, then let's go. Tell me about your first time." He arched his eyebrow as you sat on the kitchen table.

"Are you sure?" You bit your lip.

"Oh I am. Since you're so curious about mine I want to know about yours too. Spill it"

"Okay then." He walked a few steps toward you, leaning against the fridge. "I was 17 and it was with my first girlfriend Yeri. We were the same age and had been dating for a while. After school, we went to my house because my parents were working, went to my room, and I lasted 10 seconds." you started laughing out loud.

"Are you shitting me?"

"The first times are shitty, Y/n. I was so nervous and she was so—wow—you know? For a 17-year-old who had no idea what he was doing, it was enough. It took a lot of time to get into it the first times and it was only after the third or fourth time that we managed to find a rhythm for both of us. After that, yes, we looked like two rabbits, wherever we could do it, we did it no matter the time or place" What you found funny at first ended up making you shift in your place, because now you couldn't get the image of him with that unknown girl out of your mind.

"How long did you date?"

"For almost three years"

"Oh" That's all you could say: Oh. It was serious and from the way he talked about her, you sensed a certain longing. Suddenly your heart sank a little. You couldn't help but ask questions, even though you knew the answers would hurt. "Why did you break up?" He drank some more of his coke

"Things started to change; we had different goals. It was a mutual decision and we remained friends. We still talk from time to time." You definitely weren't expecting that. So she remained a part of Jungkook's life… What if he never managed to truly commit because he was still in love with her?

"And Sophia? Is she okay with it?" There was a heavy silence between you.

"She knew about it yeah" Wow. Now you were sure Sophia wasn't from this world, because if it was you in her place you'd hate it. How could she not care that her boyfriend was still friends with his ex-girlfriend, who, by the way, was the person he dated the longest and the one he lost his virginity to? Damn.

You shouldn't have asked, but your curiosity got the best of you and now it backfired. You didn't say anything else, just got off the table, picking up your already empty glass and putting it in the sink ready to wash it. Suddenly you felt a Jungkook's presence behind you standing pretty close to you.

"You forgot this cup too." You picked it from his hand and put it there, stepping away from him immediately to dry your hands.

"I—I know. I was going to ask you if you wanted anything else."

"No thanks I'm fine now." You shook your head and went to the sink again to wash his cup. He was still close, but not as close as before. "You're not going to ask?" When you finished, you turned your back to the sink and faced him with a confused look. "Ask what?"

"If I still think about her." Was he able to read minds?

"I don't think I should ask that; it's your business, not mine."

"I ask you things and I don't think about whether I should or not." You looked at him and opened your mouth, but nothing left. One, two, three "Do you?"

"No, not anymore. We ended well, without drama, there was no reason for us to become enemies. She moved on with her life and I moved on with mine and right now she's engaged and very much happy."

You were surprised with how calm and normal he looked talking about it. "Doesn't it bother you? I mean, she was your first girlfriend and your first everything and you still managed to be friends… Doesn't that make you think it could have been you somehow?"

"We were young, Y/n. Things happen. If Peter moves on and has someone else, will that bother you too?" You scoffed.

"That's different, Jungkook. There's no comparison. Even though he was my first, most of our relationship was bad and we aren’t even friends. Nothing to do with it." He leaned against the table you were currently leaning against, so you could clearly feel him near you, as he emanated a warmth that sent shivers down your spine.

"Before she met her now fiancé, we met up again, she proposed giving our relationship another chance." here you felt the air catch in your throat. You looked at him as he kept talking. "shortly after that, she met a fantastic guy and now they're getting married in a month and a half. That also happened shortly after we met."

"Who knew you could be so mature when it comes to feelings?" you said mockingly, nudging your hip against his.

"I don't know why you think I was never serious. I know I've had my share of relationships with different people, but that doesn't mean I'd mess around with anyone’s feelings." And you only realize the words coming out of your mouth after you've shot them. "And Sophia?" He looked at you confused.

"What about her?"

"Are you serious about her?" He sighed and looked down.

"It's complicated." You were hoping for something more, but to no avail. You didn't understand why he always avoided talking or answering about Sophia if they were a couple. Every time you pulled her up, he tensed and avoided contact, looking at you or saying her name. You really had to tell Rosé this, otherwise you feel like you’re going to explode.

Just as you were about to speak again, his phone rang and he answered the call, moving away from you a little. You took this time to wash his glass, clean the dishes, and put them away. When you finished, he was back next to you, albeit at a safe distance. "Sorry, something came up and I have to go." You nodded and followed him to the door. "Are you going out later with the others or are you staying home?"

"Today I'm gonna stay home, catch up with my dad and spend some quality time with him. I didn't come home last week and I want to use this time to be closer to him. After my mom's death I feel like I haven't been with him enough." Jungkook smiled.

"You're a good person smarty pants. Even though he's an adult and knows how to handle his emotions, it's good to have someone like you around. Enjoy your time with him, maybe tomorrow we'll go to our spot with the rest of the group, they miss you aswell." You hugged him as you said goodbye and closed he door, trying to ease your heart.

You don't think you can keep up with this for too long.

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That night you made dinner for your dad. He seemed well, happier and a part of you felt relieved. After Jungkook left, you texted Rosé to let her know you were already in town and to make plans the next day, but she hadn't responded yet. You took the opportunity to finish some work that was overdue until your dad arrived, hanging out with him and now as you were watching TV you remembered something you wanted to talk to him for some time now.

You’ve always been a tattoo and piercing lover and although you always wanted to get one, your dad never liked "body art," as you used to call it. However, after your mother's death, you decided to make a small tribute to her. You already knew the reaction wouldn't be the best, but it doesn't hurt to try… right?

"Dad?" He looks at you. "There's something I want to talk to you about and please let me talk before you interrupt." You could see in his eyes he thought the worst. "You know I've wanted to get a tattoo for a while now and now that Mom's gone, I don't see a better way to honor her than to have something that keeps her even more present in my daily life, and—I really want to do this, even though you don't appreciate it." Your father just looked at you, took your hands and nodded.

"Oh, honey. I don't like it that's a fact but it's your body and you can do whatever you want with it, as long as it's not harmful to you. I want you to be happy and if you really want to do this, then it's up to you. I just ask you to be careful with who you do it with; you know the importance of sanitizing the area and everything." At that moment, you just wanted to jump with excitement.

"Yes, yes, Dad, I know. I know who I'm going to do it with. I have a friend who's a tattoo artist and has a shop around here. I know him well and I have complete trust in his work. Oh, Dad, thank you—thank you—thank you- I love you so much" you said, hugging him tightly.

You spent another hour with him on the couch until you started to get sleppy, so you got up, kissed him goodnight and went to your room. It was 11:06 p.m. and you decided to text Jungkook. 5, 10, 15 minutes later and he still hadn't responded. You really wanted to try to get the tattoo as soon as possible, but maybe it wouldn't be this weekend. You put your phone charging on the nightstand and went to do your skin care, when you came back you had two texts from him.

Kookie: Come over tomorrow around 11:30 a.m. Kookie: Don't forget to eat something! You're getting a tattoo, not taking blood. Don't want your dad to blame me if you feel bad. See you tomorrow x

Needless to say, you barely slept that night

You had managed to talk to Rosé and even tried to convince her to go with you to get the tattoo, but the only thing she said was: You'll be with Jungkook, it'll be fine. Let me know how it goes.

You have to admit, you're a nervous wreck and could barely sleep, wondering if it would hurt or if you could handle the session 'with your best friend'till the end. You had set the alarm for 10 a.m, took a shower, got ready and prepared breaksfast for you and your dad. He was going to leave before you, since he had to be at work at 10:45, meaning you were going for a short walk, not that you minded. On the way, you texted Jungkook saying you were almost there.

It was 11:02 am and you were standing in front of the door, alone, thinking about your life choices. Not a minute had passed when you saw a silhouette open the door, revealing an excited Jungkook. "Hey, Smarty pants, ready? I hope you ate I'm not the one taking you to the hospital for a blood pressure slump or anything like that," he said, laughing. You gave him the middle finger as you walked up to him.

"Is it normal to be nervous? I mean, I guess it is. After all I have no idea what it's like to get a tattoo. what if I move or something?" Jungkook held the door open for you, letting you go in first before closing it again.

"You just have to be quiet and relaxed. If anything you’ll tell me and I'll give you a few minutes before we start again."

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You walked in and the first thing you saw was drawings. There were also several people there, some who looked like customers and others who looked like workers. In the distance, you managed to get a look at Sophia. "Shit," you muttered. Never again did you recall she worked in the same place as him. What if she was the one tattooing you and messed on purpose? No, she didn't seem that type of girl and Jungkook always said she was fine with it and not to worry... so you should believe it, right?

You were so lost in your thoughts, you missed the part where she addressed you with a smile on her lips. "Y/n honey, how long as it been?" You were surprised by her action, but she seemed so sincere that you couldn't help but smile back, hugging her. "How are you?"

"I'm fine, what about you? How are you doing with all these twisted hormonal men?"

"You know how men are but it's going well. They're pretty tamed at this point," she said cheerfully, winking at Jungkook, who just smiled. He seemed uncomfortable about your interaction with her but you weren't going to bring it up.

Jungkook directed you to what you suppose is his work room where he had everything prepared. You had already told him what you wanted, showing him different designs and phrases and he'd made three different sketches to show you. There was one that caught your eye right away and you knew "this is the one." You were going to get it done on the back of your arm and were currently cleaning the area, so he could finally apply the design to your skin and begin the tattoo. "If it hurts, let me know and I'll stop." You nodded.

When you started hearing the needle whizz, you looked at him. "Wait." You took a deep breath, nodded again, "Okay. You better start before I lose my nerve." He chuckled softly, positioned himself and began the process. Initially it didn't hurt, but as he progressed, there were certain areas where you felt a sharper pain, though it was bearable.

"I thought Rosé was coming with you."

"I asked her, but she didn't want to come saying if I were to do this with you I was in good hands." He wrinkled his nose.

"She's right about that." And when that bunny smile of his appeared that was all it took for you to get lost in his features, how focused he was on what he was doing and how sexy he looked.

"Sophia needs a lot of patience to handle so much male energy," you said mockingly. He remained focused on his artwork.

"If she couldn't handle it, believe me, she wouldn't be here." That wasn't what you wanted to hear and you continued trying to dig deeper.

"How are things?" He glanced at you sideways. "Between you too, I mean," he sighed. "Everything's fine."

By the end of the session, neither of you said a word.

After finishing your session with Jungkook, he gave you all the instructions and escorted you to the main room, where you were before. You paid for the service and hugged him goodbye. Shortly after, Sophia came to look at your tattoo, complimenting it. "You did a great job as always Jaykay. That's why you're always so packed." He laughed.

"Practice like me and you'll be packed too."

"I try but there's always someone distracting me." You froze. Sexual jokes between your best friend and his girlfriend weren't something you were eager to hear and before the expression on your face could be noticed by either of them, you decided to walk away from them, waving goodbye.

What were you thinking?

Just because you told Jungkook you had feelings for him, did you think he would miraculously leave Sophia and realize he had feelings for you too, throwing away who knows how much time of his relationship? As you left, you called Rosé who answered on the second beep "I need you"

"I'm coming"

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You arrived at your usual spot first and were sitting at a table waiting for her. Not even 10 minutes later, she appeared, worried, sitting across from you. You looked at her and honestly didn't know where to start, whether to laugh or cry.

"I'm completely brain-dead and I need you to make me open my eyes and leave this illusion behind once and for all." Rosé looked at you confused. "I went to get a tattoo with Jungkook and guess who was there? Sophia, my best friend's girlfriend, the one I feel things that I shouldn't. We were saying goodbye and Sophia comes to say goodbye to me too and see the final result of the tattoo and out of nowhere, they start making sexual jokes in front of me and I couldn't handle it. I had to get out of there before my face gave it all away. I'm being so selfish, my god. Help me forget all of this."

"Talk to him, Y/n. I'm sure he has all the answers to your questions and doubts."

"I did! On his last night at the conference, when we went out to dinner. I told him I liked him and it wasn't just friendship. I explicitly told him I was jealous of Sophia for being able to change his mind when it comes to relationships”

"And he didn't tell you anything?" Pause. "Like, about him and Sophia? Their relationship, or rather, the lack thereof?" You looked at her, unnerved.

"What do you mean? You're confusing me and that's making me even angrier." You let out a heavy breath and put your head on the table, lifting it up shortly after. "You know something I don't, don't you?"

"Baby… I'd like to tell you things, but in this case, I'm not the one who should open my mouth. It's not my place to say anything." You sighed, taking a sip of your drink.

Nothing was adding up and it was driving you crazy.

Close to dinner time, you decided to cook something quick. You were hungry and since your dad would be home a little late from his meetings, you wanted to have everything ready for him. You weren't planning on going out until you received a text from your former coworker, Namjoon. You talked occasionally and today he had invited you to go out for drinks at a local bar near town.

Before saying yes, you texted your dad asking if there was a problem if you hung out with your friends, to which he replied he'd be home later than usual due to work issues and you could go, but to be careful. You jumped on the shower, got dressed quickly and you were picking up your coat when your phone alerted you of an incoming text

Joon: I'm here ;) You: I'll be there in 2

You'd already come here with your group of friends, but with another guy it was a first. You'd known Namjoon for a while and had become good friends. You regretted not being able to balance work with your college schedule. Both your coworkers and the work itself were fantastic and you were so happy to have met amazing people there: Namjoon being one of them.

When you arrived, you sat at a table near the stage, which was currently playing remixes of popular songs of TikTok. You were going to order a black vodka with lemon juice and Joon ordered a Wishkey. You'd felt your phone shake, but you didn't mind looking at it. You knew it wasn't your dad and didn't want to seem rude and be on the phone while Namjoon was talking, so you decided to check it out later.

You and him had been drinking and dancing and were now waiting for another drink when you glanced towards a corner of the bar, you saw a silhouette that looked very similar to Jungkook. You couldn't help but keep staring at the person until you realized it was actually him, along with some of his friends. As fate would have it, he turned around just as you were about to look away and his eyes widened when he saw you. He said something to one of his friends and walked toward you.

"Joon I'll be right back. I'm just gonna say hi to a friend." He nodded, focusing again on the drink in front of him and the music around you. You'd only moved a few feet away when you realized Jungkook was already in front of you. "Ohh h-hi," you smiled

"Hey there." but the only visible detail was his attention between you and Namjoon. "Did you see my calls?"

Calls? "So you were the one calling? I felt my phone vibrate, but I look at it, sorry."

"You left the parlour in a rush this morning and never said anything again. I texted you asking how the tattoo was, you didn't reply so I got worried. Now I see why." This Jungkook wasn't his usual self and it seemed like he was doing his best to keep his mouth shut.

"Ah yeah, sorry. You and Sophia seemed—hmm—entertained in your inside jokes and I remembered I had plans with Rosé afterward and was already late. Meanwhile, Joon invited me for a drink" you said enthusiastically, even though you had no reason to be. He shook his head and glanced back, trying to figure out if his group of friends was still in the same place or not. A moment later, his attention was on you again. "Boys' night?"

"Yes, single boys night." He looked at you and then at Joon, who was in deep conversation with the girl next to him. "Is it just the two of you?” You nodded.

"Yes. Remember when we were still mad and we ran into each other at the movies? He was with me, we worked together for a while and became good friends. He's a wonderful guy."

"I see." He looks at him again, then back at you. "Have fun." Your eyes wandered around the group he was in. It really was just boys.

"Have fun you too. If they're single, you need to talk some sense into them and take care of them." Jungkook's eyes widened a bit and he facepalmed himself.

"Sometimes I forget how naive you are." He smiled at you. "I'll keep my eyes on you. See you around." And just as he entered, he left, calm and collected. What did he mean, naive? Pfft, please, as if.

Dumbass

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After your conversation with Jungkook, you returned to where Namjoon was and he gave you a dirty look. "Is that the one?" You gave him a shove.

"Stop it," he laughed, and you sighed. "Is it that obvious?”

“Very." With that answer, you grunted and finished your alcoholic drink. "I need to forget him." Namjoon tilted his head at you. "Why?"

"Because he's taken. You know the saying: right person, wrong time? That's us." Your gaze searched for Jungkook's silhouette, who was holding a drink and talking to one of his friends. "I wasted my chance."

"That doesn't mean it's a missed oppor-" you interrupted him.

"Let's dance. I came here to have fun, not to dwell on the past." You took his hand and the two of you headed to the dance floor. The music blared, heat emanated from both your bodies and the room itself, beads of sweat began to fall from the immense crowd around you. You felt free, of course, with the drinks you'd already had, the alcohol had already taken over you.

You didn't even care that Namjoon wasn't by your side anymore. He was in your field of vision and was currently dancing with the girl he had previously been talking to. May life go well for at least one of you.

You continued swaying to the music until you felt thirsty. This was the best time to order a nice drink. Honestly, you didn't care today; you'd deal with the consequences tomorrow. You walked past people until you reached the counter, where the bartender quickly served you. With your drink in hand and heading back to the dance floor, you came across with Jungkook in a corner, staring at you. You didn't think twice about going over to him. "What's up, loverboy? What are you doing here alone instead of having fun?"

"I was pondering my choices.”

"And what are they?" He looked at you. "Go home or stay a little longer and dance with someone." You take a sip of your drink, straighten up and adjust your clothes, grabbing his hand.

"I'll decide for you then" And you find yourself effortlessly dragging Jungkook to the dance floor with you. You start dancing, but saw Jungkook still standing there, just watching you. You brought your body closer to his and whispered "Dance with me." When you pulled away a little, you saw him looking at you even more deeply than before. You were about to say something else when he turned you around and pulled you in, your back hitting his chest and his hands on your hips. He was so close to you that you could feel his breath in your ear, your nose flooded with his scent. His grip on your hips was tight, not letting you pull away for a second, and you lost control of your body: the way you danced provocatively against him, how you managed to break free from his hold enough to turn around and face him, arms around his neck.

You didn't expect Jungkook to react so quickly, but he did. He pulled you even closer and had his hands on your waist, holding you as if you were going to slip away at any second. You ran your hands from around his neck to his hair, stroking it as he raised one of his hands to your cheek. Until something inside him clicked and he stopped, pulling away. As he started to make his way through the crowd, you followed him. A few seconds later, you were beside him, outside the bar. When you touched his arm, he pulled away and it stinged you. A lot. Somehow felt like you were having a deja vu.

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to cross any lines. I'm sorry if you felt uncomfortable. I—I understand your situation and if necessary I'll talk to her myself and everything—"

"Talk to who, Y/n?" He sounded irritated again.

"Soph—"

"You still don't get it, do you? I'm single. I told you earlier, single guys night, that counts me in too." He put his hands to his head. "I know what I want, but I don't know what you want and I'm not about to lose you again, so if it's going to ruin something, I'd rather walk away. You've been drinking, tomorrow you'll blame me for something you started and I'll be the bad guy again so please Y/n, whatever you do, do it consciously. You're not the only one who could get hurt by all this." You had no way to answer. Jungkook already knew that so he just added "I'm going home." He walked a few meters and looked at you again sighing "want a ride?"

Before leaving the bar with Jungkook, you warned Namjoon you were leaving. He didn't even ask you who you were going with, knowing the answer as soon as he saw Jungkook walk in the bar earlier, wishing you good luck and lots of action. You just flipped him off. Jungkook was already waiting for you with his car at the door and when you hop in it there was a deadly silence. You were overwhelmed with emotions and the las thing you wanted to do was pushing him away. You needed more time

"Jungkook?" he just humm in response. "Can we go to your place for a bit? My dad isn't home yet and I don't feel like being alone." He looked at you and seemed surprised for a moment, but nodded and turned towards his house.

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Jungkook's house was bigger than you ever imagined. He puts in the key and opens the door, signaling for you to come in. "Do you want something to drink?"

"I think I've had too much to drink today," you chuckle.

"I have water. Do you know what that is?" he said mockingly.

"Shut up." He poured you a glass of water and you sat on the couch. The tension that had been hanging in the air for a while seemed to have eased a little more. Discreetly, you noticed some details of the house, the pictures on the wall matching the black furniture, the simple decoration. There's one picture where Jungkook was still a baby and all you could see was his boba eyes. So cute

"I know"

You were confused. "what?"

"You said I was cute and I said I know. I was very cute. Still am" he smiled. You couldn't deny, he really was. It was almost two in the morning and your dad still haven't said anything. You look over at Jungkook "I'm sorry for making you feel bad earlier"

"You didn't. I was just.. ufff- I was thinking about the time we acted too quickly on our emotions and everything went wrong. You could misinterpret things this time too and the next day you woud end up regretting something. I don't want to lose you Y/n, not again."

"I’m not that drunk Kook. The alchool gave me the courage I needed to do what I wanted since we first met and was too dumb to realize. I missed out on all the good things I could have with you because I was stupid and insecure. Then other girls came in the pictures and I guess that hurt my ego and decided to make you the bad guy because that way it was easier for me to forget you" you got up from the couch just to sit on the table, facing him. "What happened with Sophia?"

Jungkook looked deep in your eyes "We both had other people in our minds." you were waiting for more and when you noticed that'd be all he was gonna say you got mad.

"Seriously? I'm pouring myself to you and that's all you gonna give me? You must be joking" You got up, making your way to the front door when Jungkook's hand stopped you.

"Remember that work thing I had two weeks ago? We were already separated. The time I stayed there was because I wanted to. I didn't need to go to that but I went anyway because it was in the same city you were, near the place you were studying and I used that as an excuse to be with you. Because I missed you, because I've never felt with anyone what I feel when I'm with you, because when I'm with you, everything is better."

You didn't know what to say; there was nothing to say, in fact. This whole confession had surprised you. Everything he felt was what you felt too and you finally got your chance to prove that. You didn't let him say anything else, put one of your hands around his neck, pulling him toward you. He responded immediately to the kiss, pulling you onto his lap so you were on top, his hands roaming from your neck to your back and down to your ass. It was an aggressive, breathless kiss, as if you'd always been waiting for this. Then, one of his hands went straight to your neck to deepen the kiss, his tongue waiting for your permission to enter and like the good girl you are, hungry for more, you gave in. Without a doubt, this was the best kiss you'd ever had in your entire life and you didn't want to stop.

Ever.

You began to grind against him, feeling him grow beneath you. The way he groaned softly between kisses, you knew you had him where you wanted. The way his touch grew hard and the way he helped you move your waist so the friction was better gave him away. He was losing control and so were you and one thing you knew: you weren't going to be the one backing down this time.

He grabbed your ass with both hands and lifted you up, never breaking the kiss, heading toward what you assumed was his bedroom. Meanwhile, you managed to unbutton his shirt, already wet from the antecipation of what was about to happen. When you got to his room, he slammed the door shut with his foot, placing you on top of him on his bed. He took off the rest of his shirt and tossed it to a corner of the room, focusing his attention and energy on your own clothes and how much he wished they were on the floor. Then he stopped. Shit

He couldn't do it. In a way, it felt like he was taking advantage of you. You were new to this, you deserved better than just one moment of sex, especially one that started with alcohol. And as much as he wanted to rail you on his matress he had to make you stop, even if it was the most painful decision he had to make. Between kisses, he called your name "we need to stop," but you didn't.

"Why?" you said biting his bottom lip.

"I want you so bad Y/n, but not like this." You stopped and looked at him seriously. "I'm not drunk I promise and no, I won't regret it the next day or the day after. I've wanted this for a long time. Please Kook, ruin me, use me as you may please. I wanna know what it feels like to be loved by you, even if it is just for tonight” He couldn't say no, not after you looked at him with all that lust. That was almost enough to make him cum in his pants.

He kissed you again, moving down to your neck, biting and sucking so hard there you were sure would leave a mark. His nimble hands removed your shirt and the strapless bra you were wearing, attacking your breasts sucking them gently. You couldn't stop moaning, burying your hands in his hair and pulling him back to you. With one hand, he pinned your hands above your head while the other tried to unbutton your pants. When he succeeded, he slowly moved down, leaving a trail of kisses from your breasts to your waist.

Reaching the hem of your unbuttoned pants, he quickly removed them, leaving you with nothing but your black lace panties. He was hungry, and not for food. Jungkook couldn't remember feeling this turned on by someone and it was driving him insane. "I've waited so long for this moment I think one false move and I'll cum right away."

"As long as I'm the one causing it it's okay, we can do it again later." Since when did you become so bold? Not even you knew this version of yourself. With Peter, you never felt this way, but with Jungkook, you couldn't stop wondering what his next move would be. Slowly, he kissed you near the top of your panties and with his mouth he lowered them, his eyes on you. Once you were free of that garment, he attacked your lips again, this time sliding one of his hands to your sensitive spot making you moan into his mouth. When you realized, he was already sensually going down your waist to your pussy, passing his tongue over your sweet spot and you couldn't help but hold your breath. Fuck, that was so good. You were in heaven, literally.

He worked his tongue faster and faster, his eyes never leaving yours. Your hands in his hair, pressing it deeper into the spot you wanted. When you thought it couldn't get any better, you felt him insert a finger inside you. Although you tensed at first, the burning sensation turned to pleasure as he thrusted in and out while eating you out. When he felt you relax he inserted a second and finally a third finger. At this point, you were already a moaning mess filled with pleasure. The way he ate you out and fucked you with his fingers was indescribable, something you never imagined sex could convey, but you should know by now that Jungkook isn't just anyone.

"How do you feel, baby?" His raspy voice made you imagine a thousand things he could do to you and you wouldn’t even mind. “Let yourself go baby. Give it to me."

"Ohh god, that's fantastic- ohh Kook don-- gosh don't stop I'm gon-" You didn't finish the sentence as an orgasm hit you like a tidal wave. You never had one like this before, not even when you pleasured yourself. While recovering from your high you heard him speak, voice low "tell me to stop, because if we don't now I won't be able to stop later." to which you replied "then don't stop at all." That was all he needed to hear.

While he went to get a condom, you were now on your knees on the bed. As he approached the edge of the bed, you pulled him toward you, kissing him and making him lie down where you were before. Now it was his turn to experience what you were capable of.

Unbuttoning his pants, pulling them down along with his boxers, you turned your attention to his neck, sucking on the small mole he had there. Then you started licking him down his stomach to his private area. He was already hard and you wasted no time grabbing his cock, giving it a few pumps and taking it in your mouth, sucking gently. From the way he moaned and threw his head back, you could tell he was enjoying it. You felt him almost cumming until he stopped you, pulling you up and kissing you aggressively.

"I want to feel what it's like to be inside you." Then he flipped you over and was on top again, with your legs spread wide for him. He put on the condom. "Are you sure you want this? I need to hear it from your mouth."

"Yes Kook. I want you all inside me, in every possible way" There was no need to wait any longer. He positioned himself at your entrance and delicately sought out your lips, kissing you as he slowly entered you. You won't deny it, it felt like you were having your first time all over again, it hurt like hell.

Jungkook must have noticed because he asked you if you wanted to stop. "No, just go slowly" and he did. Slowly, he entered you completely, letting you adapt to his size, pulling out before entering you again. After a few times, what had once been pain began to become pleasurable over time and at your signal, he started to speed up. Now you were on all fours with Jungkook's hand on your pussy and the other on your throat, thrusting so hard it felt like he was going to pierce you with his dick. You'd never felt anything like this and somehow you knew he was going to ruin the way you viewed sex now.

After several orgasms, positions, bites and scratches, it was Jungkook's turn to cum, releasing into the condom. He then helped you clean up, drew you a hot bath to relax your muscles, giving you some new clean clothes, not that they would last long on your body. After resting a bit and preparing something to eat, you two were ready for round two and he was back inside you, this time at the kitchen counter. You knew the next morning you wouldn't be able to walk

and you didn't mind that at all

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