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There is a sadness inside me, something I can barely name, and I know it doesn't matter because teenage girls are all sad. Do people burn with age? Because I'm 18 and already a forest fire, what will I ruin next? And it's easy to hope for happiness, it's easy to dream in colour, maybe that's why I'm half fiction, half girl. Half here and half not quite- half human, half thoughts.

-Ritika Jyala, excerpt from Half and Half

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There'll be a moment when you realise you're 27 when yesterday you were just 17; and you wouldn't be able to tell how a decade passed away and your life got divided into before and afters. The fury of youth will subdue and nothing will really change but everything will feel different when you look at old photographs and blurry videos taken on cheap mobile phones. Scents will remind you of childhood and certain friends you don't talk to anymore, hangouts will become reunions and mom's burnt pie will become the best food you ever had. And I know on some days you won't be able to show anything of those 10 years but I hope you remember to breathe, and let go of the knot in your chest. I hope you go out in the sun and live a little, because tomorrow is 37.

Edit- I added the visualizer for this piece on my YT, check it out here

-Ritika Jyala, excerpt from The Flesh I Burned

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i know it’s just a number but they’re the eighth wonder

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MC Joon for The Dictionary of Useless Knowledge

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namjoon’s vlog 🌿 captions edition [1/3]

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All this time we always think Yoongi is the strongest soldier, have you seen Namjoon about to lose it in front of million people?

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All this time we always think Yoongi is the strongest soldier, have you seen Namjoon about to lose it in front of million people?

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LOID FORGER in SPY X FAMILY (2022-) 1.04 | “名門校面接試験” • the school’s interview dir. Kento Matsui

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#precious father and daughter

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Try us, go ahead and bully our daughter Anya

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spy x family as 90’s anime 👨‍👩‍👧✨

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STYLEBOOK #KimDaily (pt. 2) 

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Sometimes I want to pull out my hair and scream through my chest and go back to my primal instincts of raw savagery, because I don't have the words to describe how beautiful she is and no camera can ever justify her worth. If only she could see...

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It's just how different suffering can look and feel. You see movies and shows where you see a character in pain but the lens makes it pretty, the suffering is beautiful and then you look at yourself and nothing about your pain is pretty, nothing is worth looking at. So you tell yourself this is not real- that your pain and your agony don't really exist and you're just being dramatic but if you could see what you feel, would you still be so harsh on yourself?

-Ritika Jyala, excerpt from The Flesh I Burned

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i am the least fun person to be in a car with because i just want to stare out the window with earphones on and daydream in peace

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I know that some days you barely exist- scrolling mindlessly for hours, trying to find some peace. I know that sometimes you wish you could be someone else because your 10 year old self had big plans to save the world and some part of you wants to make her proud still. I know that sometimes you feel like a side character in your own story, written with someone else's words. I want you to please unclench your jaw and let go of the tension in your shoulders and save yourself first. The sun is still out there and it'll be there tomorrow, ocean waves exist and oranges taste like peace.

I hope you say goodbye to the ghost of your 10 year old self because unlike her, you still exist.

-Ritika Jyala, excerpt from The Flesh I Burned

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