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love how some parts of intimacy are so instinctive. neil josten, virgin and all, knew to go for Andrew’s neck. 10/10 no notes

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Neil Josten eventually grows his hair out long, but (bc he is neil) it's always untied and shabby. So andrew starts carrying black hair ties around his wrist for him. Neil eventually catches on and randomly starts asking "arm, yes or no?" for them.

Sometimes he wears hair clips but doesn't know where to keep them safe so he randomly started clipping them on andrew's armbands.

The first time that happened, andrew stared at the hideous orange clips on his armbands for an hour

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This. Also the sheer irony that he says that and then Neil becomes his reason to continue to wake up and at least try every day (said in EC)

Something like ‘sunrise’ referring to the start of Andrew’s life, ‘death’ referring to the end as literally as possible, and then there’s Neil ‘Abram’ Josten to help him fill in the middle.

I think about “truths are irrefutable and untainted by bias. sunrise, abram, death: these are truths.” every day.

sunrise. abram. death.

andrew minyard the unintentional poet that you are.

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Answer the Leo askssss

I SEE IT OK I KNOW ITS BEEN LIKE A WEEK

TOMORROW I PROMISE!!!!!!!

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Jean sleeping every night with the curtains of his room closed but the first night that Jeremy sleeps in his bed post crashout, Jean gets up a little early the next day so he can peel back the curtains just in time for Jeremy to wake up and see the sunrise because he can remember all too well what it was like to see the sky for the first time after being trapped in a cage for so long, and he wants Jeremy to get to experience that visual representation & warmth too 🌅

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Kevin Day is out here haunting the narrative and he ain't even dead.

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thinking about jeremy knox's big beautiful brown eyes today

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*deep breath* jeremy being unable to go with jean to his therapy appointments next book and jean wants to try to continue to break the raven mindset that’s been drilled into him so no, jean doesn’t ask catlaila, cody, or anyone else to go with him. you know what he does?

he calls neil. jean grabs his phone on the way into the building, which getting to alone has already been a fantastic step in the right direction, btw. he dials out to neil, it rings a couple of times, and neil answers. at first neil thinks something must be wrong. he says jean’s name a couple of times and when jean finally finds his voice, all he says is “talk to me.”

so neil does. he tells jean about how midnight practices are going, the last argument he got into with kevin and what it was about, and what he’s probably gonna have for dinner that night. just small things to fill the time while jean is in the lobby, waiting. neil’s voice is like an anchor that can hold jean down against the agitated buzzing of his nerves; the voice of his partner who got misplaced all those years ago and only recently found his way back to jean’s side, where he unfortunately couldn’t stay.

“I have to go,” jean tells neil once he’s called. he stands up & waits for neil’s relaxed, “alright, bye” before he hangs up and clutches his phone in his hands. jean pockets it and he goes into the doctor’s office, letting the door click quietly behind him and assuring himself that he can make it thru this appointment, too.

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Jean’s bones aching in the cold during away games. Jeremy taking Jean’s hands between his own and rubbing the warmth back into them. Investing in a heating blanket and hand warmers even tho they live in CA so Jean can take them with them. Buying epsom salt so when Jean’s more comfy with water he can take baths in it. Sometimes sitting in the bath w Jean and letting Jean rest back against his chest . Learning how to massage properly and investing in diff lotions and oils because he knows Jean won’t be comfy going to an actual masseuse

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nsfw: jean jerking it with jeremy in mind and when he’s about to cum he starts babbling and telling an absent jeremy thank you over & over again in french because he never knew that an act like this could feel so good.

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jerejean forehead touch would SLAY ME i would perish immediately and thank them both

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We as a fandom need to have a serious talk about how absolutely BUSTED Nicky’s gaydar is. Like. How is he related to Andrew “superdar” Minyard? Who heard Jeremy say “yeah I pick up more ppl just by having a lighter handy…” & clocked him immediately? And then you have Jeremy who picked up on the fact that Jean is bi just by noticing how Jean paid attention to him; noticed how Jean’s eyes ‘tracked him as he readied for bed.’ But Nicky? NICHOLAS? He just kinda shrugged at Neil and was like “well you never look at Allison’s tits so you gotta be.” Which I’m not saying that wasn’t fair BUT. He was onto something there but for him to have been so absolutely shocked at finding out that Andreil had BEEN a thing? Gosh, the signs were all there. Shocked no one tripped over them tbh and the eyes that Neil and KEVIN made at each other all thru the books amongst all their Exy-centered tension? Nicky, please. Boy whaaaat.

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somewhere in the distant future someone just called “mr. moreau?” and jean, jeremy, AND jab all turned their heads to look 🙂‍↕️

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joyfully reminding us all that jean texted renee about jeremy so often that she evidently picked up on a trend and at some point even resigned herself to go back and count just how many messages were about jeremy. and when called out on it jean refused to go back and check for himself because he already knew she was right.

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there’s pain and then there’s remembering that Jean was the first to mention Barkbark after the fire (“I am sorry about your dog”)

there’s pain and then there’s remembering Jean ‘instinctively looked for’ the framed picture of Barkbark in the kitchen and found only its warped and charred frame left behind

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So in Nora’s EC she answers a question that’s like ‘oh if Neil gets into a fight on the court, does Andrew automatically run to help him?’ And the answer is no because of course Neil is just such an instigator that like how does one keep up with that? But. But— She does say that if things get TOO crazy Andrew will step in.

Anyway just imagine being on the other team and you just got done sucker punching this red headed devil with a loud mouth and no care for his own well-being and BOOM:

Suddenly PSU’s #3 goalie, short but built & w/ his racquet slung over his strong shoulders, is walking towards you like. What do you do???

Do you say your prayers? Do you beg for some level of forgiveness? Ask for one last chance to use that coupon burning into the bottom of your wallet? Man you better do something. You are just flat out TOAST. Damn, damn, damn.

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Manifesting Kevin Day getting the therapy he desperately needs. Bee, love you; something or someone different. By the end of Kevin’s ‘last’ book idgaf if he’s only two proper steps towards real and true healing, keeping inside the lines of a coloring book, or going to AA meetings &/or BOTH: please get him some therapy. Don’t care if it’s 2k26 or 28 or 30: someone get KEVIN DAY some diff therapy. Holy shit. Please.