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Mukhang nasira nanaman po ang pagkakaibigan namin hahahahahaha

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Di ko alam pero mukhang bumalik kami ulit sa dati... Well friends lang naman ksi gusto nya .... Pero lumabas kami today as friends today, napictureran ko sya pero mukhang d nag save lol

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I had the closure that i never knew i needed... After that it felt kinda light... I knew na hindi kami parehas ng gusto 😊

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Kinda sad to hear issues or past experiences nila sayo, abnormal kanaman talga NO question don, pero wala din naman ako magagawa kundi defend you in my mind, or from afar... Siguro eto ang consequence from letting in

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Alam ko wala kanaman pakielam pero konting ano mo lang bibigay agad puso ko sayo, magthathank you ako sa mga tao na nakakapansin sa feelings ko sayo hahaha, ok na siguro nagkatabi tayo... Kaso Wala lang sayo yun ee hehehe

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Badtrip bakit ba nagrereply pa din ako sayo, naasar ako....

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And i'm still having conversations with this guy na hindi nagseseryoso, pero juskoooo something happend... Paano ko ba ikukuwento hahahaha hmmm..

Sat July 15,2023

Morning umattend ako binyagan, nung pauwi na i received an invitation yo have drinks at the bar.. fast forward ko na nasa URBN MAkati... Sakto he was at makati with his friends sabi nya nabadtrip sya he asked if pwede sumama, ending sumama sya

And eto lanv picture ko nung sinundo ko sa labas kaso naghanap kami medyas at bawal yung suot nya na maikli.. ang bilis nya maglakad badtrip nga kaso bumawi nung sinuot sakin cap nya, hays... Alam mong wala lang sknya eh hahahha tas fast forwrd ulit nakapasok kmi nag elevator tas muntik pa siguro may mangyare non sabi nya "may cctv ba dito?" Like sabi ko s self ko shet kahit meron go hahahah pero walaaa dony worry mmaya yan hahhahaahahaha so ayun party party kami yung inexpect ko na mangyare yah nangchix lang sya don hahahahhahaha, ako jusko another story fast forward s tapos na party uwian na ako siguro sa yamot ko umupo.muna ako sa labas yung mga ksma namim nakita ko umalis na, sya may mga kinakausap pa din, ako nakatingin sa mga nilalandi nya hahahaha tas mamaya hnahnap na nya kami, sadly nakita nya ako hahaha ayun nag lasing lasingan si accla

Nagsisisigawan sya jan, sa kalasingan , tas sabi nya uwi na daw.kami samin, luh... Eto na ginamitan na ako ng lasing lasingan nya... Jusko tagap namin nag agawan ng cp para alamim address nya.. umimik pa ako na sasama ako... Luh ayaw tagal namin nagsagutan tas ending nakahanap na ako ng taxi dapat sa eurotel ko lang sya ibobook at dun na sya matulog nako 8am.paaa 6am palang non.. gusto ko na matulog non.. ending dinala ko si tanga samin...sabi na nga ba mali desisyon ko e patutulugin ko yun s kami dun s double deck luh naghabulan pa kami s kwarto ayun alam mo he aggressively kissed him and i kissed him back like tf??? Panaginip ba to, perp i pushed him like no.. pero shet i was so turned on non pero i keep pushing him, tas dami nangyare sa kalasingan nya siguro inamoy nya ako ang sabi nya shet ang bango ang sarap daw (thank you moschino) tas i 1minute make out with him kasi para higa na sya dun s double deck pero ending nga tabi kami natulog and yes we had sex... I didn't regret it tho... I liked it hahahaahahah kaso manika si tanga hindi masyado gumalaw pero when i was on top of him he thrusted hard pero saglit lang kasi hina ni tanga hayss..

I woke up nanjan pa sya i stopped myself na tinititigan sya sbe ko no baka mainlove ako hahahahqhq knowing kasi ang gusto nya...

Pero atleast one night stand check

Co worker check hahahahaha

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I'm doing good i guess... I don't cry because of him anymore.. tas bibigay ni Lord tong napaka emotionally unavailable na guy jusko... Kung friends lang talaga kami Lord patigilin nyo na to... Dami ko na alam tungkol sakanya jusko hahahahaha

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Lord meron paba ng para sakin?

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I'm finding my own happiness kahit im traumatized

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Kahit tingnan ako na puno ng pagmamahal kaya na pala ako lokohin, ang lungkot

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Inipon ko lahat, para mablock ka..dahil ayaw ko na maramdaman yung parang naiwas pa ako ... Its my turn... Sorry po Lord pero sana pagdusahan nya pag iwan nya sakin sa panahong kailangan na kailangan ko sya... Magpapaka selfish po muna ako... Sobrang trauma ko na feel ko lahat ng makikilala ako kayang kaya sabihin na mahal nila ako pero kaya nila ako lokohin

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Masama kaya pag sinabi ko na sana pagdusahan mo ginawa mo sakin?

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Grabe sobrang broken ko n pala talaga sayo

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Will start to let go even the little pieces of memories of you, the people i met and love because of, and will be strong to delete photos of you... Even though your mom told me wag muna.. napahagulgol ako don... Pero i'm suffering so much... I love your mom so much... I don't want to let her go pero... She makes me believe na u still love me...but she doesn't know what u are doing...

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My heart i'm so sorry... Akala ko okay na tayo... Akala ko ready tayo magsettle... I'm so sorry..

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Hi diary... Its been so long.. i'm so happy nabuksan ko to... I don't what to update you... Ayun hahaha i'm broken again.. my gahd 3rd guy na to 😅