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Bday gift for @the-puppylily

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What’s up Dawg?

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Studies

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I want the newer Hannibal fans to try to imagine what it felt like to read this tweet in 2014.

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You forgive how God forgives.

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Kms

Hannibal (2013-2015)

2x13 || 3x06 || 3x13

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sketches

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Other furry lil doodles

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Forgot tumblr existed for a minute there

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been watchinf hannibal lately and i cant stop thinking about this

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feel so awkward whenever ppl hear i like nbc hannibal lecter bc nbc hannibal is basically a cartoon villain with time-stopping evidence-erasing godlike superpowers whose sole follies are being bored and gay for will graham. it’s also fun to seriously examine him as a terrifying psychological villain but at the end of the day he’s closer to a yandere mary sue than your standard abusive serial killer and idk i find that silly. he also has great tits

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This is how Hannibal looks when he’s visiting crime scenes

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Tell me when you get bored. A story about doses. [x]

I posted this on twitter and had a variety of aggressive ableism thrown my way.

This is a story about changing what I can in spite of what I cannot for the comfort of my loved ones. The thing that others find to be hurtful about me is that I like to spend time in silent solitude. People who love me often feel hurt that I tend to solve my own problems instead of leaning on them.

When we spend too much time together, people find my neutrality to be concerning, and it becomes too much for people to be unable to read me.

To show the people I love that I enjoy their company in ways they can understand, I pool my energy together to be high-energy, peppy, and social. Since this is not my natural state of being, it takes effort, which can only be expended in small doses. I amplify the things people like in me while filtering out everything they dislike about me when I am in their company.

I change my behaviors for those I love, but at the end of the day, I cannot change my neutral state of being, which is the thing that they want most out of me.

This is a story about me accommodating people in the best way I know how, not the other way around. I would truly appreciate it if people don't misconstrue this anecdote as me asking for dismissal of hurtful behavior when in reality, people find hurt in the fact that I simply exist, and I must change for them.

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have y’all seen that nasa pic of the earth with the sun behind it on the night time side it really really fucked me up my own soul became solid and like………….. weeped!

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I am 3 having a bad time at the conference

My dad was dealing with some mixed feelings so I told him "In therapy when something is too complicated to do a simple 'pro and contra list' we sometimes do an excercise where you imagine all these mixed feelings around a table in some kind of conference, letting each tell their bit and you leading the debate."

and my dad didn't really respond and just stared ahead so I kept preparing lunch. Until a few minutes later when he suddenly piped up: "I am having a bad time at the conference"

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Will Graham - NBC Hannibal