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It’s almost as if nobody wants to admit that they might not be prepared to do the work it takes to love somebody. And it can be laborious. To be intimate with someone who is flawed (which is the standard) requires us to expose our own flaws. We don’t talk about the heavy responsibility of that. We don’t talk about how we’re too lazy or too cowardly sometimes. We instead accuse love of being elusive. It isn’t. It is omnipresent. It asks us to be better people. And sometimes we flat out refuse.

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real yearners miss people BEFORE they're gone

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Dealing with my fear of rejection by never asking for anything, and my fear of being a burden by never doing anything that involves other people. Foolproof.

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no one talks about how draining it is when your mood is constantly switching between "its okay, i don't care. l'll be okay" and "I don't know how much more I can take"

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I love my repression 🌋 #MyRepression

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they should invent a me who is free of guilt

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in general I think I have a weak spot for sunk cost fallacy characters. no point in trying to change because there's no going back! can't stop now because the possibility of being wrong is too unbearable to face head on and would destroy me if I tried!

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the enemy: you arent supposed to drink over a liter of vodka in 36 hours, thats not good

healing liquor spirit: come to me, beautiful child of the world, so that i may grace you with my love

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she will NOT be hearing from me tonight #avoidant

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ok note to self i gotta leave the house regularly so that i dont feel like im slowly transforming into an evil fucking shadow clone of myself

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sex is fine but is there someone who will check in on you when you get a little distant and silent?

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ever since i was a little girl i knew i wanted to isolate myself before others could exclude me

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They should invent a method of asking for reassurance that nobody secretly hates you that doesn't make people secretly hate you.

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fuuuuck i just realized that the future idealized version of myself cant exist without current me being the catalyst for change and doing hard things. has anybody heard about this

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I love when a character wants to be someone's dog so so bad. Dont mean it in a sexual way (although that can also be a part of it) I mean like. Let me be your loyal companion let me stay by your side give me a purpose in exchange for endless unconditional love let me stop being a person love me like it's my only use. Love me like that's the only thing I was made for. As you can tell. I'm normal.

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oooohhhh ok. the more you deny yourself the more you lose yourself